This morning was like any other Saturday morning, heading out to get food for hungry growing children! In the car stereo, was Travis Cottrell~Unashamed Love. Of course, it needed to go UP! LOUDER! in a matter of moments he escorted me right into the throne room, where I needed to be so desperately. More than I knew. As Worship just filled my Saturn, the presence of the LORD was strong. Been wondering lately, how does one love so deeply the LORD, and over time it seems to become natural. HE is so NOT natural, HE is supernatural, there is no way that we should ever just stop jumping up and down over what HE has done and is doing.
The last few years, we have been through some things that only God can save us from. And save us HE did. But the scars have been deep, and on occasion painfully reminding. We have come through Immorality/pornography, miscarriages, and a broken family to a whole family. God has moved in ways that are incomprehensible, and still knowing that HE has done these things. I don’t know what you have been through, but I know when God moves HIS hand and saves you…you just can’t shut up about it! This is where the enemy put me in bondage again…
God moved on my heart to teach women, and I did for several years. I live in a area where religious Bible teaching is prominent. Once they hear my testimony of where I have been and what Jesus has saved me from, the shots begin. Some how, the enemy used them to sit me down, to lower my hands in praise, and to believe that I should just be happy that God has brought me into HIS family, but there really is no place among them. How I tried to become part of one family after another, and the same thing happened again..
After months of no worshipping any where, God lead me Lifes Changed by Christ. Amazing. Still there has been this darkness lurking around me..part of the legalism that bound me raced through my mind..”there is unrepentant sin..this is as good as it gets,..just be glad you have been saved from hell…no one wants to hear you…” While pondering these things I have decided….
God will speak to my heart about what is wrong, as long as i keep my heart open to HIM! I did need some repentance, seems that I have been angry with GOD for bringing out of all the abuse in my life to abuse me again in Jesus name…
Then it happened! my worship, my freedom from the legalistic bonds that were trying to suffocate me. HE did not save me from the pit to sit me in the back seat or to allow self righteous people to make me hang my head yet again. NO that is not my GOD, and IN JESUS NAME, I am taking back the ground that my DADDY gave to me..Thank you Jesus for breaking through again and again.. Thank you for Beth Moore who taught me your Truth, and how to look into it my self, and thank you for Travis who taught me how to sing your praises from my heart.
ponderings of a princess... 
I said this on another blog this morning and fits here. Darla, keep your hand in His all the time. Do not pull it out. He will always be there to worship with you.
Papa~ never willingly would I take my hand out of HIS, this life just don’t work without HIM…but i have been known to be duped and have a case of ‘spiritual ADHD’ .. dang! praying God is going to work on that next. ya think?!
Always keep an eye out for the ‘dupers’ – there are some ‘super dupers’ out there. Prayer is a real great source of help.
I love it when you speak your heart. That is the power of the Holy Spirit, giving you an openess to share the truth.
Our lives and this world are a mess, but that is just how God wants us to come to him. Messy.
Love ya sis. Have a wonderful and Christ blessed day.
Darla!
I know the enemy’s tactics, and he would not fight so hard to shut you up if what you had to say WASN’T DANGEROUS TO HIM AND HIS KINGDOM!
May the Lord of the Dance keep your feet moving – may the God who inspires praise give voice to your worship! And KNOW that praise is a mighty weapon in your arsenal against Satan and his kingdom!
Let the redeemed of the Lord SAY SO!!!!!!
I left a message here, but I didn’t see it come up! Was it eaten by the spam monster? Let’s leave u with the pertinent Scripture just in case!
Psalm 149:6-9 (KJV)
6Let the high praises of God be in their mouth, and a two-edged sword in their hand;
7To execute vengeance upon the heathen, and punishments upon the people;
8To bind their kings with chains, and their nobles with fetters of iron;
9To execute upon them the judgment written: this honour have all his saints. Praise ye the LORD.
Testimony is so edifying Darla – thanks for sharing some of yours today (or yesterday, as the case may be…:)
Powerful and victorious. He leads us to that place and you followed!! What an encouraging word. James says something about perseverance, how it works toward achieving perfection and completeness in Him. James 1:4. You are persevering, or a some translations say, steadfast in Him. It is equipping you to be able to do a great work for Him. Love you. gracie
“HE did not save me from the pit to sit me in the back seat or to allow self righteous people to make me hang my head yet again.”
i literally jumped up when i read this line in agreement with you.
AMEN!!!
He has overcome way too much for us to allow people to dictate our lives and determine for us what HE thinks of us. nope. uh-uh.
im so grateful you are who you are! it is because all that youve gone through that you can stand as tall as you can and share truth in your victory that inspires us the way it does. (oh my word, terrible run-on sentence. sorry)
mmmm…i love you!
“I did need some repentance, seems that I have been angry with GOD for bringing out of all the abuse in my life to abuse me again in Jesus name…”
I’ve felt this very thing. I’ve been feeling resentful that the hurts don’t dissolve easily. I am thankful He is constantly working to purge those things from me. Sometimes I’m surprised at how deep the pain can be, but just as Corrie ten Boom said:
There is no pit too deep, that God is not deeper still.
He will meet me where I am. He’s the one Who can pull me up out of the dungeon.
Your words have encouraged me, Darla. Thank you.
I, too, have looked to others for my life–even when I know He is my life. Somehow, I still need the reassurance from flesh and blood.
Thank you for reminding me how insulting that is to the Lord.
“HE is so NOT natural, HE is supernatural,” I love this….Jer and I were just talking about this over the weekend. He is a supernatural God, yet we try to put Him into something our natural minds can comprehend….I so want His super to be my natural LOL In fact, we need to reach a place where the supernatural IS the natural…
Thanks Miss Darla! =) There is alot here…smooch!
Thanks to all who responded here..you all play a part in my healing and keeping my head up. I thank GOD for you!
Darls – Love this! Love this! I’ll text – I’m running out of time here. 🙂
Oops! Never did text … coming now. 🙂