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Just diggin’ on Jesus

Five Things I Dig about Jesus

Angela tagged me with this list. So as I was thinking of five things I dig about Jesus, the thing that struck me the most was His great love for us. He is the truest picture of humility. He is what servant leadership looks like. So here is my list.

1-He participated in creation of all things. He was involved in the grand plan of things. Yet He Still put on the flesh and became like us in our fleshly bodies leaving heaven and His heavenly body. All because of His crazy love for us.I want to love like that.

2-He washed His disciples dusty, dirty, probably smelly feet. He knew of the upcoming betrayal of one of His followers yet He chose to humble Himself in service to Judas this way anyway.I want to love like that.

3-He healed 10 lepers knowing that all of them would go away without saying a word of thanks to Him for His miracle except for one. But He chose to do it anyway.I want to love like that.

4-At the wedding in Cana, of all the first miracles He could perform He turned water into wine. Even though it was before His time and eventhough it was for no real significant reason except to obey and please His mother, He turned the water into wine. He did this eventhough no one would know other than his mother and the servants at the wedding.I want to love like that.

5-He talked to the woman. You know that woman with the bad reputation. That Samaritian who now lived with a man and had many failed marriages. He knew the disciples would see this interaction but He did not mind.I want to love like that.

Now it is my turn to tag five so I tag Deborah, Teri, Susan, Faith, Jesus Girl. Have Fun!

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King or Genie?

It seems that we (and I include myself) forget that our God is righteous, Holy, pure, and loving. Dressed in Majesty, ruling not only the earth but the Heavens as well. We definitely have down the power that HE has, but seem to see HIM as a genie. How HIS heart must break when HE sees us totally blowing HIM off, and then asking HIM for miracles. As I pray to see things through HIS eyes, I am forced to look at my life first.

How would we respond to someone who only ever shows up to ask for money, or for us to help them out of rough spots? Knowing that the person will not even as much as talk to us otherwise? We would not respond well, we might even disregard that person. God doesn’t do that, HE continues to sit beside us and wait for us to acknowledge HIM. I believe that HIS heart breaks that we forget HIM so quickly in our lives, and that we compromise our relationship with HIM for momentary pleasures of this world. As my reading is in Isaiah this week, the picture of my culture is on the pages…this is not ancient history, we are repeating it. If we were exiles like Daniel, or the others, which kind would we be. Would we be angry with the Lord for not sparing us when we thought we were believing, and deserving of life without suffering, or would we be more like Daniel and believe that we must continue to walk in HIS light, and bow hearts and bodies to our KING, believing we are exactly where HE wants us to be for HIS glory? I am praying that I would be more like Daniel…remembering that if God allows pain and suffering to come to me, HE will be glorified in it, and therefore I am blessed!

While looking over my past recently, I am so very thrilled at the picture of Love that Jesus has shown me! Not only did HE love me through it all, HE takes the bad and makes it good! Amazing how HIS heart just doesn’t change. I saw a sign outside of a church recently that really spoke to me…”If you are feeling that God is far away, guess who moved?” God is good all the time, and HE never moves! Unshakeable!

So as we move into the weekend with all the pleasures this world offers, my goal is to just remember that HE is here, and not to be rude…talk to HIM, include HIM, and not entertain things that would cause HIM to sit outside to wait for me. HE is not a genie, HE is my KING, my best Friend, my Creator, and HE chooses to be with us.

Father forgive us for our ungrateful hearts, and change our hearts. Make us more like you, give us more of you and less of us. Help our unbelief, and remind us through the day of who we are in you, and who you are to us. Please don’t let this world desensitize us. Give us great hunger for your Word. How rude we have been when haven’t talk to you, and yet ask for so many things. We don’t deserve You, You freely give yourself. I am honored that you call me child, and have given me a new name…Please help us to be aware of the snares that are around us and to stay on the path that you have laid out for us…we want to stay in your shadow…the only shadow that provides Light! Love you love you love you, your princess

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Holy, Holy, Holy is the LORD Almighty!

While thinking what will be written this time, all that filled my heart was this…Holy Holy Holy. The LORD has been walking me through a time of learning more about HIM, and teaching me to come to a new level of believing HIM. These are some of the things that I am learning.

Submission is not the dirty “S” word, it is not painful either. As a matter of fact, when submitting in the proper order, I come to know HIM more and love HIM more. HE has been teaching me to submit to HIM in things that just seem to be “crazy”, and then the other places that I need to submit such as my husband, my Pastor, and godly counsel, are quite easy to do. HE knows that I have always had much trouble with authority as it has proved to be bad for me. So early morning lessons, and hands on activities with the LORD has been intense but extremely rewarding. Sooooo as submitting to the Lord and walking in faith not by sight has been required of me(for the last year).

Short version

About a year ago my heart was broken by someone very close to me, and I had to make an immediate choice…submit to the will of God and believe that nothing is out of HIS control, or walk away and break many hearts. The latter would have been my choice in the past. I did phone my friend and my Pastor who did encourage me to choose submission to God. Many were the advice of others to walk away. During my quiet time I cried to the LORD, and made the choice to follow HIM, even if HE slay me. ( I kind of felt dead already) The LORD spoke so very clearly to me that morning, “do not compromise ME, do not compromise other hearts”. Submission, do things God’s way. My heart healed in record time and everyone involved in my heart break has been brought closer to the LORD. It truly isn’t about me, and it is all about HIM. How can I not forgive after all I have been forgiven? This was the first intense lesson of submission to the LORD.

Lesson #2

For about two years I have entertained a thought about driving a school bus…this thought has been absurd to me! But again the LORD nudged me and asked if I believe HIM and if I would be obedient. I tried to disregard this whole bus thing, as my head just being difficult, and that it is totally crazy! I cannot drive a bus, and my learning days are about in…things come a lot slower than they use to. I found myself applying for bus job, not knowing anything about how or what. They sent me to the class to learn the book end of things…and also the behind the wheel training….what a faith walk!! I was and still am holding on to HIM with both hands(realizing that is right where HE loves me to be). Everyday I got out of the bus and was elated with HIS presence, I know that HE was in that bus, and although there was an instructor, HE was teaching. I just passed my CDL knowledge tests, on the first try, four tests. Jesus definitely walked into the test with me, and I believe HE gave me all the answers. Although it has been stressful for me, it was silly to get all worked up, HE always has a plan and HE is always in control.

Don’t know what HIS plan is, or why HE wants me to have this license to drive heavy equipment, the yellow bus does not match my color schemes very well. But I wouldn’t have missed being with HIM for the world. This whole life is about relationship with Jesus, and the deeper I go, the more I understand David saying…”taste and see”…This last year I have seen the whole earth filled with HIS glory…and critical lessons of submission, making the right choice, and walking in faith as an honor and a gift from my KING to come closer to HIM. And the praise will flow from my lips, because I know HE is good, and I know HE is right here with me always, and I know HIS way is best! No one can love us like Jesus, No one can fill our needs like Jesus, every little thing we need, HE has it, and does not grow tired of us. HE is totally in love with us! Hard not to fall in love with HIM, huh?

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Testify to Deliverance

God is so incredibly good and I am always so taken by HIM in the way HE is so detailed, and stoops so low to deliver me. If there is a pit in the pit, I have been there. I lived a very abused life as a young girl that it was very natural to me. My father was an alocholic, and seemed to thrive on sadness, fear, and pain. He also seemed to have great joy when the rest of us were so far from it. My spiral began early in life that there was no hope for anything more than what I knew to be life.

At camp I met a man ( I was about 12) who told me HE knew God and knew that HE loved me, and wanted to be my Father. What a relief that was to me, and asked to know HIM too. I accepted Christ, and returned home, and was soon saddened by the fact that I was told, “you can not know God”, and “stop being such a dreamer”. My mother remarried and they took me to church and even made me learn scripture, as a chore to be able to go out on weekends. My hope was crushed and I didn’t think much about God, except it was a nice religion.

I now walk with HIM daily, and I know God not all there is to know, but I know HIM. And like alot of others before me, I can not contain the good news and that it is free to everyone!

To make a very long story short; I got involved in drugs at 14 and in alcohol shortly after, met some very tough people who offered my security, and companionship. God no longer was even in my thought pattern at that time. After trying to commit suicide a couple times with not even as much as a hospital stay, I could not understand anything. I was starting to be convinced that if there were a God I was definitely cursed by HIM, to the point that I couldn’t even die.

My first child was born to me single and her father killed himself when I was six months pregnant. I ran to a place along the river where I used to hide, and screamed at HIM…”If you are real, why are you not compassionate like I heard, and why would you leave this child without a daddy, and why must I continue to go through this life…why do you hate me so much!” Honestly I believe HE answered me that day, in a very serious voice…”that will be enough of addressing me like that!” I found myself in my car waking up, and no idea how long I was there or when I went there. But then HE spoke to my heart, and HE stooped into that pit and started to pull me out. HE had to teach me grace, I couldn’t accept it because I didn’t know what it was. He totally turned my world upside down the next few years, with my resistance out of ignorance. I tried to find someone to help me understand, to find a place to start in becoming a true disciple of Jesus. There were people along the way who were helpful, but mostly they couldn’t understand the inner turmiol I was in, and the healing that needed to happen. God provided a trip for me to go to a seminar “Hearts set free”. I never been to anything like that, and the first thing I saw was Beth Moore…and being a city girl, I liked her style, and she had my undivided attention. She has no idea how God used her to get me from one healing to another, and how she taught me through video how to use my Bible, and dig deep, and have my own Quiet time. Long before I knew she had an abusive past, I connected to her on the screen of my TV. How I thank God for sending her right to my living room, and for the way HE worked with me and then her video would confirm what I thought HE was telling me.

God has and is still stepping into the most vile of pits in all HIS holiness and picking up HIS children, and showing HIM self. HE is still taking hearts like mine that did not develope and making the new, and like HIS. I was the woman at the well. HE did give me living water. and now I am more like Mary who brought her alabaster box (filled with her treasure) to annoint the King with praise. ( I Love CeCe Winans song Alabaster box, just really sums it all up)

God is my awesome Warrior, my Deliverer, My constant Faithful friend, my security, and without HIS love, I would not know it. God is love, and people in the street need to hear that HE is real, and HE loves, and HE wants to change things. That Prostitutes can turn and get a new start, and there is hope for the hopeless. Thank you Jesus for being all this and so much more!

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Love the Lord your God…

I was stirred this morning while reading a comment from a siesta I haven’t met, but already love. That is the power of Jesus and HIS love. Once experienced it will drive you to chase after it with all you have. I know it has changed my life forever!

The Lord reminded me this morning that no matter how things seem or how things turn out, HIS love is flowing and never ending. The task at hand is to continue to strive to love HIM with all my heart and soul and mind. Then and only then can we truly love others with the HIS love.

My husband plays in a band, and gives some time to the Recsue mission (homeless shelter) every month and holds out the gospel, it is always very rewarding. One cold evening, an elderly man, holding everything he owned in a small plastic bag, approached us. I sensed my children eyes staring at him, he spoke. “I would like to thank you for blessing my heart, and now as I have nothing to give you, I would like to bless your heart, this is a song that I sing to the Lord.” honestly…the man had the most beautiful voice I have ever heard and sang his heart out in the parking lot. A very loud voice from that very small frail body. His song, “I love you Lord, I love you Lord, with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my strength, and I can do this because you first love me.” I did know these words from the Bible, but had never heard them sang that way or with more feeling. The little elderly man turned a corner and I never seen him again, and no one else seemed to know he had ever been there. We drove home about 30 minutes in total silence…and overcome with the love of Jesus and how very ungrateful we have been. Could we have been entertaining an angel? We just don’t know who we are holding out Jesus to, and we certainly don’t want to miss the opportunity to bless the heart of our Lord.

We are all created in HIS image, we are to love all people, and to be an imitator of God (Eph.5:1). God is good all the time. HIS love is something to die for. Seems like we always try to shy away from the unlovely as they may be dangerous to us. My heart breaks for these people and I pray that our Father will raise up armies of love who have no fear, except only in HIM.

Thanks Jesusgirl for reminding me that I have much work to do, and to stay focused on this journey. Love love love love love…that is the job at hand.

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Being A Princess who Overcomes

Being a princess is delightful! However, sometimes it has work that I don’t always take into consideration. Being an Overcomer is the main one. This causes me to retreat to my Bible to see what God has to say about things, and not what man or the world says about it. It is so easy to follow people that I think are Godly and not stop to ask my Heavenly Father what HE thinks.

My home church has been doing a post Revelation study on Sundays, and this week it was on beoming weary in doing good. It really stirred a few things in me, as outreach is my heart, but sometimes it becomes very tiresome. I thought about the fields being white with harvest, but the workers are few. I thought about general weariness…family, wife and mother responsibilities, job…and then God spoke to my heart, and reminded me that I only have to please HIM, and HE is requiring my attention, my heart to love HIM, and to know and pursue HIM wherever HE goes. My weariness is mostly due to my lack of keeping my eyes fixed on HIM in total submission, and believing that HE can and will pull everything together.

The Lord also reminded me that HE is in control, and although I know that, my head seems to think it knows something and wants to help! that is always when trouble begins.

So again I come before my King, and ask HIM to forgive my unbelief, to strengthen me for what ever task HE has for me today, and to put all the people I love in HIS hands as HE always knows what’s best, and HE knows the plans HE has for them as well. (HE always has a good plan) I realized today that no matter how much I know HIM, I will have to know HIM more, and only HE can make my heart a heart that loves HIM completely. HE is the Alpha and Omega , the Great I Am, and everything this little Princess needs for continued joy, and direction. My task is to live for HIM, and to honor and glorify HIM in all I say and do, to remember my need for HIM, and to stay close to the only ONE who always has my best interest at heart.

Jesus, what a beautiful name! What a wonderful friend, and lover of my soul! HE truly does drive me to strive to be an overcomer….Jesus is the reward at the end of this journey…Jesus is coming soon…Let’s be ready…and claim our prize!

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