Category Archives: testimony

God’s Word…to me

Do you love the Word? I mean really love the Word?  I do. But through much negativity that has been surrounding me, I started to fade out from the one thing that replenishes me.  For me, its a daily deep drink that is needed to climb the mountains, and press on.  Technology is great, and wonderful things are happening there.  I love my Quick Verse, love E-sword….what always seems to happen to me though is…soon they become a replacement for holding the Word in my hands, soon I stop saying “Lord what does that mean?” , and soon I am taking a mans view through commentary to stand for more than Gods.  Ahhhhhh it saddens me to even admit that.  If that cycle continues in my life, God no longer has first place in my heart, and I am no longer asking what HE thinks or what HE means, and soon, HE has no place in my quiet time.  And I love HIM with all my heart.  It happens, it shouldn’t. 

I have spent the last few days reading straight from my badly worn NIV, full of notes, and colored underlines, and fell in love with HIM all over again.  HE has been awesome to remind me that HIS word is personal to me, and HE loves the time I spend with HIM.  Thinking of how the creator of all things, the one who formed me, waits for me to spend time with HIM.  And me…wieghing out what man says about how I can not have this relationship that I have.  Really think about it…how can man define what you and HE have together? they can’t!

Please understand I am not a hater of theologians, there are a some that are very dear to my heart, and personal friends, and their words and thoughts are important to me.  I just need to not allow them to replace the time I spend with HIM one on one. 

Sitting at HIS feet, holding my Bible, falling asleep with it laying open on my chest, under my pillow..are my fondest memories.  When I would have reoccuring nightmares, open on my chest and slept like a baby..LOL for real…Under my pillow because it is my life line…thats where I was at one point with HIM, and that is where HE brought me back to.  Thank you Jesus you are faithful and true. 

Please spend some time with HIM today, please open your Bible and read from the scripture what HE is saying to you…HE loves us so…no matter what anyone will ever say to cause you to second guess HIM, HE will not change, and HE holds HIS arms open to you…”come home”…I’m home…

(about two years ago I fell in this same pit…and a respected theologian talked to me and said in a very compassionate tone..”Darla, you are not needing a quickverse right are needing a slow one”.  I remember his words this time…wisest advice I have ever had)


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Pouring back my Praise on HIM

Sorry this is the only vid I could find of this song, without it looking like I was singing in my living room.. LOL  This is one of my favorite songs, and I always walk away remembering how Great is my God, and how much HE has done for me.  I always leave this song wanting to pour my love and praise on HIM as HE is all that is worthy.

CeCe Winans- Alabaster Box  (listen and follow the words…I think something in it will resonate with you)



The room grew still

As she made her way to Jesus

She stumbles through the tears that made her blind

She felt such pain

Some spoke in anger

Heard folks whisper

“there is no place here for her kind”

Still on she came

through the shame that flushed her face

until at last she knelt before HIS feet

And although she said no words

Everything she said was heard

As she poured her love for the Master

from her box of Alabaster

And I’ve come to pour

my praise on HIM  like oil

from Marys alabaster box

Don’t be angry if I wash HIS feet with my tears

and dry them with my hair

You weren’t there the night HE found me

You did not feel what I felt

WHen HE wrapped HIS loving arms around me

You don’t know the cost of the oil in my alabaster box

I can’t forget the way life used to be

I was a prisoner to the sin that me bound

And I spent my days

poured my life without measure

into a little treasure box, I thought I found

Until the day when Jesus came to me

And HE healed my soul

with the wonder of HIS touch

So now I’m giving back to HIM

All the praise HE’s worthy of

I’ver been forgiven and thats why

I love HIM so much


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If you don’t know my Jesus, and you feel like you have no way out, I would like to encourage you to take a look at this video.  Its not new, its been around for a while, and everytime I see it, it reminds me of where I have been and where I am now.  The things that used to keep me in bondage.  And how Jesus is the only way out.  This is not an elite club of believers, This is not about status, or geography.  Its not about the color of your skin, its all about God who loved enough to die to for you to satisfy HIS own wrath against the sin.  Offering deliverance.  We only need repent and bow to HIM, make HIM the King of our life, and follow after HIM.  And it all starts out with knowing that HE is there reaching out for you, reach back and its on!  I love theology (or what I understand of it, as I am still learning), but I never want to forget what HE has done for me because HE loves me.  I can not and will not down play that Love of Jesus, it all started with HIS love.

If you do know HIM, please do not forget, that as we learn and grow, our theology and our reality must merge, and be one…or else its useless.


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Blogging Bible Study-John 4

There is so much in this chapter, and this is only one post, I will not be able to do this chapter justice, but I will add some of my thoughts.  Please go check out the others from this week as they have lots of insights, and all are very good writers.  (they are on my blogroll under Carl’s blogging Bible study)

The woman at the well has always been one of my favorite stories.  Somehow, through my own life I feel like I know her.  Many men in her life. A past that shames. Name calling.  It is just easier to go out when no one else is there.  The empty void inside her that she longs to be filled.  What was her life like up to that point of meeting Jesus?  I have often thought about her.  There are so many things in our lives that cause voids, an emptiness that drives us to try to fill it.  Temporarily, (like the many men) the void is filled, yet a small place in it remains empty. Torment.  No way to fill it.  So life goes on, and she does the best she can, always reminded she has fallen short of her peers expectations.  Yes, I think I know her.

Then she meets Jesus, and HE asks her for something… a drink.  Reluctantly, she participates in conversation, and HE quickly tells her all that she is hurting from, and the sin that she has been living with up to that point.  Imagine how that feels, when suddenly you are bare in front of a stranger, but HE is not condemning, instead HE offers her a way to fill that void, the reason for all her grief, all her sadness, the reason she comes to the well at the hottest time of the day.  Just living water.  Living water that fills all the voids, leaves no empty place.  She has not felt this fullness ever, and delights so much in it, that she runs to tell anyone who will listen…”He told me everything I did”…doesn’t sound like she is carrying any shame anymore.  And more came because of what she said.  Maybe just to be nosey and see who is this strange person, talking to her.  Regardless, they believed, and no longer because of what she said, but because of who HE is. 

I seem to need a refill of living water everyday, and sometimes several times a day.  It seems that life can just stir those places up that are long forgotten. I am so glad that I have access to the water that is living, that will fill every little crevice, and remind me..”HE told me everything I did”, and knows everything I will do and HIS love doesn’t change..its always intact, and always eager to give me a deep cool drink of living water.  “Fill my cup Lord, I lift it up Lord, come and quench this thirsting of my soul…bread of heaven feed me til I want no more, Fill my cup, fill it up and make me whole”  Drink deep, drink long, fill the void, and when it stirs in you again, come and drink again, it never goes dry, you have not ever had your share, you won’t be cut off..never ending living water.


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Pressing on…towards what?

I believe that as a child of God , I am holy and dearly loved, a holy priesthood to spread the knowlege of knowing HIM.  I believe that I am the bride of Christ.  I believe that I am the apple of HIS eye.  I believe that HE is always good, and always at work in my best interest to look more like HIS son, in character.  I could go on..and yes each one mentioned above is scriptural…and to all believers..all part of our identity in Christ.  Knowing these things is one thing(and important for me to  know), but believing them with my heart is another thing completely. This is where the battle of the mind takes place.  It is critical to my walk to be careful what I take into my mind, it is critical that I don’t take part in things that are not praiseworthy.  Not because I am “holier than thou”, because I want Jesus to be what you see in me, and not me at all.  If I take part in crude joking, to the non-believer there will be no Jesus shining through it.  If I gossip about someone else…again  no Jesus in that. 

Michelle has an awesome post up right now on Guarding the Heart, and it is exactly what God has been talking to me about the last couple of weeks.  If you haven’t read it, go and read. 

My goal that I am pressing on … is to be more like Jesus, a pic of Ephesians, I John, and to be the bride in Revelations ready for her bridegroom-and overcomer.  Peace.


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Yesterday, Today, and Forever…

My yesterdays could fill a library of books that would appear to be made up to some, and gospel to others.  I can point out where God has been in my past, even when I didn’t know it.  I could fill my blog with all the terrible things I’ve done and have been forgiven.  BUT one of the things I like to get others to think about is “What is God doing in our lives today?”, Is HE doing anything? Is HE stirring my heart towards forgiveness/repentance, maybe truth..or is HE changing my heart towards how I look at things, even respond to things today?  Then I like to take it alittle further…(ya if you know me, you know I do push the ticket), What do you see God doing in your life for your future?

I believe that HE delivers us from our past to give us a present, and a future.  The Bible says that HE is always at work, and changing us into a likeness of HIS son.  I can only speak for myself…but that is a huge undertaking, and a gigantic job.  Me, looking like Jesus…

What is HE doing in your life?  Is HE opening doors that maybe you don’t want to walk through?  But those are your future…and honestly I can plan my future, but unless I am doing it HIS way..what kind of future is that going to be?  Maybe HE is stirring your heart to stretch your faith, or maybe teaching you communication with HIM, listening to HIS voice, discerning HIS voice, …

HE is the same Yesterday, today, and forever… HE is my KING of my yesterdays (even the very bad ones), and the KING of my today, and most incredibly my KING of all my tomorrows….HE has plan.  Wondering if you know how HE is working in you right now, and maybe you would share it with me?


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