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My Offering, Crazy about HIM!

This morning started out in fog, both literally and mentally. Totally driven to pray and pray and pray, and knowing that I will not understand HIS ways, because they truly are not mine. Knowing HE is for me and not against me.  Still things seemed very dark to me and very unsure.  Then it happened, the sun pierced through the fog almost blinding. Incredible! As worship filled my heart, this song rolled off my lips..stuck with me all day, and wondering while praising HIM … how does HE do that?? Crazy about HIM, hope you are too. If not, knowing HIM is to become crazy about HIM! no doubt!  The day turned into the most beautiful day, and it seemed as the fog burned off, the spring colors unfolded, and it was literally a brand new day! 

Paul Baloche-Offering

The sun cannot compare 
The glory of Your love 
There is no shadow in Your presence 
No mortal man would dare 
To stand before Your throne 
Before the Holy One of heaven 
It’s only by your blood 
And its only by your mercy 
Lord, I come 

(Chorus) 
I bring an offering 
Of worship to my King 
No one on earth deserves 
The praises that I sing 
Jesus may you receive 
The honor that You’re due 
O Lord, I bring an offering to you 
I bring an offering to you

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Our Creative Community

I am blessed to be part of this community. I need to be held accountable, and to see that being held accountable does not mean that every time I don’t quite make it to my goal for the week, I am not hit with a hammer! YAY! Instead they encourage me to continue on and try again.  Can you see a picture of Christ in that?  I can. And it has touched my heart and spurred me on like no other!

As I continue to look into my study on the Holy Spirit, HE has confronted me.  When I first came to Christ, my world turned upside down, and nothing seemed familiar, and struggles that had not existed before were relevant in my life.  Some how that has all evened out and a bit of complacency has taken root.  So while reading and asking the LORD to help me know this Spirit that lives in me, I am confronted again with a world upside down, and struggles that are relevant in my life.

SInce the Spirit is here to comfort me (just one instance), and I am without comfort, than I am not allowing HIM to do HIS job.  Not HIM, me!  If I am confused, and do not know which end is up, then I am not allowing HIM to direct me.  When I am fearful of what is going on around me, or in how someone mistreats me, I am not believing in HIS strength that lives in me.  

A bit uncomfortable is truth. But so glad to be on this road, knowing HIM more and loving HIM more.  I am thanking God for “Our Creative Community” as HE is using it to bring me closer to HIM, and to hear HIS voice more clearly. Amazing! Checkout Our Creative Community, and see if its a place where you can also find some encouragement to move in the direction that God is pulling you.

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Bitter…mmmmmmm

How do you suppose one should confront another about being judgmental, without being judgmental?  Or critical? Or bitter?  I am guilty of carrying all three deep inside of me, and although not aware til recently, I am still rather stand offish with the ones who thought it necessary to tell me.  90% truth spoken to me.  10% self gain…

I do not deal well with hurt, or disappointment, and GOD is doing a work in me.  I would sooner turn and walk away from a problem than look right at it. Why? Thinking life is full of crap, people in general are full of crap, and self seeking, yes even while they speak some truth over you.

This is the deal! I need to not walk away so quickly, and at times I need to swallow the bitterness that it stirs up in me.  And once again…I need to believe HE is seeing this, and has a plan, and will take care of the others just like HE takes care of me.  These verses spoke me to today…

Hebrews 12:15 See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many.

Hebrews 12:28,29  Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our “God is a consuming fire”.

All I can say to that is “dang”, I got some fences to mend, and some believing to do, some repentance, and some grace to extend.  Also knowing that the bitter root that has already taken root is going to be painful coming out.  Back to life as HE wants it, and not so much how I want it, praying that HE will change my “wants”.  Peace.  Hope you all are having a good week!

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Philippians 1:14-16

14 And most of the brothers, having become confident in the Lord by my imprisonment, are much more bold  to speak the word  without fear.  15 Some indeed preach Christ from envy and rivalry, but others from good will. 16 The latter do it out of love, knowing that I am put here for the defense of the gospel. (ESV)

After reading and taking part in comments on these verses at Philter48, I began to reminisce of all the times I heard a testimony that just greatly encouraged me, spurred me on, and helped me to keep my eyes on Jesus.  I can only imagine how the church at this time reflected on all that Paul was going through. Paul was encouraging the church that no matter how bleak things look, God will use it for HIS good and glory.  Wondering …is that good enough for you? For God’s glory.  I ask myself that question from time to time, and honestly it places things in perspective.  And causes my heart to line up with HIS.

Everyone can think of someone who preaches or demonstrates the Gospel with love, and therefore puts up a defense for the Scriptures (can you really do this with love and NOT defend the gospel? just thinking out loud with you).  But we also know ones who make it a competition of sorts, and use it for their own personal gain.  Before we point fingers at them, remember how easily we fall into traps that have been set for us.  If we are not doing it for God’s glory, then we are doing for our own.

I would like to know..

1.) Are you encouraged by a brother or sister who goes through hard times, and you can see God working it for HIS good? Or do you join the ranks of “this is not fair!” ?

2.) Are you into ministry? and if you are…are you in it for personal gain, or all for the glory of GOD?

If you can answer these godly, and have it perfectly figured out..you scare me! If you know that you do fall from time to time into the self righteous area..you are not alone.  But we can get out of that and back to where we should be, giving God all the glory, and the praise..yes even or especially in our hard times. 

Remember, Paul is writing to the “church”, GOD placed it here, today in HIS HOLY Bible, for you and me..believers, the body of Christ, the “Church”.  As I go through this book I am looking for application to me and for you.  So feed back is welcome. 

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Philippians 1:12,13

Sorry , this should have been posted yesterday, and I have no excuse..life is just coming at me fast..and I decided to play and take a break.  Check out this study going on at Philter48 , click on the button “Philippians Study”. (easy huh?)

12 I want you to know, brothers,  that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel, 13 so that it has become known throughout the whole imperial guard  and to all the rest that my imprisonment is for Christ.(ESV)

 These verses are intense.  I love Paul’s Kingdom-minded perspective. All for the Kingdom.  In every case of what the world would say is trial and persecution in Paul’s life, was the finger of God moving HIS plan into action, to spread the gospel to all nations.  Totally blows my mind.  Paul could have whined and complained about all that was happening to him, but his Believing God was always in tact! He knew that God was good, and if HE allowed such things, then GREAT things of a larger magnitude was at stake.  Can you think of anything greater than a lost soul coming to Christ? 

Paul was imprisoned and his charge was following Christ, and telling others about HIM.  Can you imagine the guards in the prison, knowing this, and still the man keeps going, and going, and going…(talk about energizer!)

I am convinced that without the mind of  Christ, and Knowing the heart of God…this is where the rubber meets the road!  Many claim to know HIM, but in the slightest discomfort, the whining, and complaining is unbelievable! Paul demonstrates a heart fixed on Christ, the author and perfector of his faith, and not the world. 

Are we focused on the Kingdom? Are we all about ourself? or all about God?  seems to me there is no middle of the road.

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End of 2008-pour out your heart

This post was in the middle of January ’08…my 100th post on WordPress.  Although I believed I needed to write it and be transparent, it caused me much grief over the next several months.  Not because of the family situation that stirred that post, but the religious people who believed I had stepped over my boundaries, and called me a false prophet, and demanded that I start to write something that would say”there is no personal relationship with a HOLY GOD, and you can not speak your heart to HIM like that, and HE already knows the wickedness in your heart.”  I thought that thier words had no real effect on me, but looking back on this year, I know that they did. 

Lately…I have been struggling in my walk, not that I don’t believe, but that I have slowed down my one on one time with HIM where I actually speak my heart, and thinking things like..”HE already knows”.  Without noticing that my walk slowed down to a crawl, and then to me just sitting down, and missing HIM.  I asked HIM recently how I got here, and how can I get back? Would HE really want me to walk with HIM like I thought, or had I just dreamed the whole thing up?..I am a dreamer.

HE nudged me back into my time with HIM, and this morning as I sat with HIM, HE brought me here-

Psalm 62:8 “Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour our your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.” (ESV)

Pour out your heart before HIM! its in there! It caused me to rejoice, and just sink into HIM.  HE brought me back, and still I will not tell you what the religious wanted me to say…Because HE wants us to pour out our hearts to HIM, HE wants us to be close to HIM and honest, and trusting, it takes nothing away from HIS HOLINESS! Nothing…That’s the kind of Father King we have.

Happy New Year!  I am loving my blog family, and loving sitting here at HIS feet…God is amazing! fall in love with HIM, incredible!!!

(new ESV Bible was a Christmas gift, and GOD knows I would not be able to stand to have it, and not start paging through it…I love how HE loves me!)

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