Isaiah 57: 18,19(NLT)
18 I have seen what they do,
but I will heal them anyway!
I will lead them.
I will comfort those who mourn,
19 bringing words of praise to their lips.
May they have abundant peace, both near and far,”
says the Lord, who heals them.
So many questions, so many things on my mind, so many condemnations plaguing me. God knows every single thing I’ve ever done, including the thoughts that were less than pleasing to Him. Standing in Awe of how HE works and leads me to exactly what I need to come to closer to Him. That has been my prayer, as well as the reason for my silence on FB/twitter.
HE brought me back to a study HE prompted me to dig into…still stuck and wondering and praying…”I know you want me to know this, I just can’t pull it together”. Just the next day, I came across a study I worked through about 6 years ago. The title resonated with me, “Father, revive my heart…” So started working on that again…writing out my answers fresh and dating them, so i could see a difference in me from the time that past. HE showed me how much I have grown through the years, and how much pride HE has already taken away from me (still a ways to go tho).
My original study, writing my own study, on the “Holy Spirit”. The second page of “revive my heart” .. “Holy Spirit”…Church today..”we are starting a new study “Holy Spirit”. I absolutely love where He has led me to, and the way works to bring me closer…
HE knows what i did, and HE is going to heal me anyway! HE is going to lead me, and put HIS praise on my lips..I think I know how the woman at the well felt.
Resting tonight in His love for me, Knowing that healing is very close, believing that knowing HIM in God the Spirit is my missing link to pulling this faith walk together. Last weekend, I heard HIM say “no FB”, I had to be obedient. This week, has been overwhelming in revelations, and causing me to rejoice and tremble at the same time. My Holy, Supreme God is once again directing my steps…oh how HE loves..
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Lately my life has not been its norm. I’ve been going through surgeries to undo some damage that I have walked through most of life with, and some from the drug abuse I did that eased the pain of the abuse, and the spiral just continued. It got to the point where my health was seriously at stake, and I no longer could ignore it. So some inflicted on me, some self inflicted. This has been my summer of pain. Very intense. My smile was broken.
I want to share with you how awesome our GOD is! Through this summer, HE has brought me beautiful people who do not know me, yet they pray for me, and I know it carried me through. HE brought friends who do know me, closer to me. HE placed me in front of my computer and provided so many good things for me to read and fill my mind. And the most precious thing to my heart…online church. God does love HIS children, and although the enemy kicked me every inch of the way this summer, the LORD pulled me closer, and overwhelmed me with the way HE loves us!
Today I looked in the mirror, and some thing has definitely changed. My mouth has been reconstructed on the inside, and my smile is new to me. The damage and abuse that I went through as a small child through to young adult life had taken the smile that GOD had given me. This may not mean much to anyone but me, and thats okay…but I rejoice in how HE gives back what the enemy has taken…even something so small as a smile. I thank HIM for caring so much about the little things in our lives, and for giving me my hubs that felt my smile was worth every penny it cost. Thanking GOD for providing that income as well. God is good, HE does take the bad and make it good, and HE is the lifter of my head!
I truly have been blessed beyond measure, and so have you. But we do have to look for it. Acknowledge that all good things come from God.
I started blogging while in a pit, and asking for accountability and desire to know HIM more and love HIM more…HE answers those kind of prayers..not as we might think, but as HE sees beneficial to us.
Posting some pics here of the blessings HE has given me the last couple of weeks! People who have fanned the fire of my soul, friendships that will last an eternity, and a safe place to bare my soul. Thank you God for your provisions!
me & Hubs/Deb/ Dale and Gracie Hill
(for the record- Tam(inprogress) is standing on the table for this pic-LOVE HER)
Mr & Mrs B4dguy/Michelle Mills/Deb
so in love with this family~B4dguys family!
B4dguy/Ric Booth grilling...awesome!
Can’t remember B4d’s son and daughter in law’s name (in the background), but I will always remember how he took a background check on us! LOL My God is big enough to cover small details like that! Patty (Ric’s wife) is beautiful but camera shy, and makes the best chocolate cake I ever ate!
we had church together! these are our worship leaders, AMAZING!
Just wanted to share what GOD has been doing, in uniting more of the body of Christ, answering my prayers to know HIM more and love HIM more, and showing me how very beautiful it is know people who have hearts for HIM, and live life to the fullest, as we know it is also a gift!
Coming soon…pics of TAM (inprogress) and her vacation with all of us, as she was still on the west coast, she is talented like that!
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Here are some of the pics that my hubs was sweet enough to try to get for me, bc he felt sorry for me that I did remember a camera, just not new batterys! yes that is the story of my life! But my daughter (love her!!) remember hers. Worship with Travis and a full choir was awesome, and i don’t know the last time while trying to bless HIS heart, did I feel so very blessed. Of course Beth Moore brought the message and encouragement to the celebration, and as always God was moving through her. Even my children came home excited and thrilled that God was doing something, and will never leave us…no matter what..
Lots of Corporate prayer, covering everything from the President down to the students…mothers and families..Prayer is privilege, thank you LORD.
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Did you have a celebration in your area for the National Day of Prayer? We always do here in PA, corporate prayer, speaker, music…tons of people, and family friendly as well. This year was no exception, well except for that Beth Moore was our speaker, and Travis was our worship leader…I don’t need to tell you that GOD was huge in that place! I know HE is huge everywhere, but i don’t always sense that..and this time I did!
I will post some pics later today or tomorrow, I am really pressed for time right now, but just had to share with you!! So excited today about what God is going to do as a result of our prayers. It rained here saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday morning..and then it stopped, and turned into the most beautiful spring day over and around the NDP ampitheater, and the ground was not muddy…amazing! God is totally about HIS children praying!
Of all the things I could quote from yesterday this one is still my favorite this morning… “take heart, GOD is not on vacation”….first you laugh, and then it sets in, and wow! what a thought to keep front and center. (BTW-no more whining about my hug and kiss…I so got it!! hahaha i do love my MamaBeth!)
This morning started out in fog, both literally and mentally. Totally driven to pray and pray and pray, and knowing that I will not understand HIS ways, because they truly are not mine. Knowing HE is for me and not against me. Still things seemed very dark to me and very unsure. Then it happened, the sun pierced through the fog almost blinding. Incredible! As worship filled my heart, this song rolled off my lips..stuck with me all day, and wondering while praising HIM … how does HE do that?? Crazy about HIM, hope you are too. If not, knowing HIM is to become crazy about HIM! no doubt! The day turned into the most beautiful day, and it seemed as the fog burned off, the spring colors unfolded, and it was literally a brand new day!
The sun cannot compare
The glory of Your love
There is no shadow in Your presence
No mortal man would dare
To stand before Your throne
Before the Holy One of heaven
It’s only by your blood
And its only by your mercy
Lord, I come
I bring an offering
Of worship to my King
No one on earth deserves
The praises that I sing
Jesus may you receive
The honor that You’re due
O Lord, I bring an offering to you
I bring an offering to you