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Blogged Bible Study – John 20

First, let’s not forget what happened in John 19.  Let your imagination take you to this place. As one of the spectators, or as a believer…watching as Jesus is put to death. It appears that everything may have been a lie, devastation, fear for the believers. For the spectators, surely the sky turned dark and the earth shook as God the Father turned his face away from HIS only son as HE took on our sin…the wrath of God was being satisfied.  The word spread quickly that the curtain in the temple seperating the commoner from the Holy of Holies was ripped from the top down.  As a mortal person, if in that time and place, I would have thought that God had left us.  As I thought about that, I wonder if the enemy did a dance and thought he had won the battle too.  I wonder if he screamed in terror as Jesus rose from the dead…

As you read John 20, remember these are people who have just gone through the worst nightmare, and the reality of it was they would not be waking up from it.

The female in me loves that Jesus appeared to a woman first, at a time when women really didn’t have any clout or standing. That fact alone is very sweet to me.  (v. 15-17)

Go quickly and see the disciples who managed to stay together, yet locked themselves in a room.  Oh I can just about feel their brokenness. Enter Jesus, no knock on the door, no key to open it, just walked right into the room..Appeared.  (v. 19-23 )  Jesus told them “Peace be with you”, and told them “as the Father has sent me, I send you”,  and HE breathed on them and said “recieve the Holy Spirit”.  None of the things I read while studying this mentioned how they responded…Shock is a good possiblity since they had been through so much. 

Jesus returns to the room at a different time, 8 days later..back in the room, door locked still…a lock door always speaks fear to me.  And this time HE seeks out Thomas who is in unbelief. (before we start to throw anything at Thomas, remember what he has been through, and how much less we have been through and still unbelief sets in)  Jesus showed compassion and patience with Thomas (this does my heart good), and while speaking to Thomas, HE spoke a message for you. Incredible huh?

26Eight days later, his disciples were inside again, and Thomas was with them. Although the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” 27Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here, and see my hands; and put out your hand, and place it in my side. Do not disbelieve, but believe.” 28Thomas answered him, “My Lord and my God!” 29Jesus said to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”


Jesus is the only ONE to ever raise from the dead, there are no other gods in all the world that people bow to who are alive!  And at the most crucial moment in showing himself risen to the disciples, HE mentioned you and I..”Blessed are those who believe and have not seen”

“up from the grave he arose,

with a mighty triumph o’er his foe…

lives forever with his saints to reign..

He arose!  He arose! Hallelujah Christ arose”  AMEN?

(don’t forget to go check out the others in the Blogging Bible Study this week..I am excited to see what they write for this chapter , so much to dig in to! )


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Worship with me…

We worship God because HE is the only one worthy of all our praise, and HE is so patiently waiting for us to come and adore HIM, and to lift up our hearts to HIM. Yes HE knows..HE wants to hear you and I say it!


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Blogged Bible Study – John 19 (Prophesy fulfilled)

As we enter the Holiday Season, there is no better time to look at the crucifixion of Christ.  Christmas is not about a cuddly baby in a manager scene (although I have mine out also).  Its about God fulfilling Prophesy, and showing us that HE will do what HE says HE will do. THe plan of GOD to redeem us, and save us from certain death, eternal torment, from our wicked ways.  No greater love, huh?


Isaiah 9:6 For unto us a child is born, for unto us a son is given…


Luke 2: 4-7  the baby is born..


Isaiah 52: 13-15, 53  He will be lifted up, HE will be beat and unrecognisable, dispised, crushed for our inquities, punishment that brought us peace will be upon HIM, by HIS wounds we are healed…like a sheep to the words of rebellion, no words of deceit..God’s will to crush HIM for our sin..redemption is promised…


John 19:30  “it is finished”

Oh Dear one, let this settle down into the very depths of your heart.  Long before your family tree was a seedling, you were chosen by the King of Kings, and if you are struggling with believing GOD in your life for whatever you are needing..or whatever HE said that you feel in not applied to you..God always comes through, and HE is believable…HE did what HE said in this chapter of John, and HE will do everything that HE has said…So many read this and say, “How barbaric!” but the prophesy needed to be fulfilled..Because God does what HE says..and there is truly no greater love than this.

As we celebrate the coming holidays, remember it was the Prophesy beginning to unfold, there is not alot of prophesy to unfold yet, but make no mistake, it will.  And Jesus will return for the ones who believe, the ones the Father has already given to HIM, and the crucifixion will show the great need we have had all along for this prophesy to be fulfilled.  Thank you Jesus for being obedient even to death on a cross..and being the Way the Truth and the Life…Precious!

(please read through the scripture listed above, as I have only given a summary of blessed…HE loves you so! please read the other entries of this chapter in the “Carl’s Blogged Bible Study”  Peace)


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Worship with me…


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Blogged Bible Study – John 18 (I AM/Facedown)


1When Jesus had spoken these words, He went forth with His disciples over the ravine of the Kidron, where there was a garden, in which He entered with His disciples. 2Now Judas also, who was betraying Him, knew the place, for Jesus had often met there with His disciples. 3Judas then, having received the Roman cohort and officers from the chief priests and the Pharisees, came* there with lanterns and torches and weapons. 4So Jesus, knowing all the things that were coming upon Him, went forth and said* to them, “Whom do you seek?” 5They answered Him, “Jesus the Nazarene.” He said* to them, “I am He.” And Judas also, who was betraying Him, was standing with them. 6So when He said to them, “I am He,” they drew back and fell to the ground. 7Therefore He again asked them, “Whom do you seek?” And they said, “Jesus the Nazarene.” 8Jesus answered, “I told you that I am He; so if you seek Me, let these go their way,” 9to fulfill the word which He spoke, “Of those whom You have given Me I lost not one.”

Set the scene…Jesus just prayed in the garden (Chapter 17), the disciples are close by except for Judas…Now the Roman soldiers enter the garden led my Judas to betray Jesus the one and only Son of God. Roman soldiers who would not have been raised with the scriptures as the Jews were, would not have known what the Holy Writ said… yet they enquire that they are looking for Jesus, and HE says.. “I AM HE”. Picture this…Roman soldiers with torches, and swords, dressed in the military garb of their time…and at the words “I AM” they fall face down.  It appears, according to scripture, that this was very briefly.  What caused that? Just the sound of the name “I AM”, everyone is face down.  Then as if it never happened, the scene resumes.  AT that point, it could have changed directions, but that was not God’s plan for mans redemption. 

Exodus 3:14-15  14God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM”; and He said, “Thus you shall say to the sons of Israel, ‘I AM has sent me to you.’” 15God, furthermore, said to Moses, “Thus you shall say to the sons of Israel, ‘The LORD, the God of your fathers, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, has sent me to you.’ This is My name forever, and this is My memorial-name to all generations

Psalm 135:13   Your name, O LORD, is everlasting, Your remembrance, O LORD, throughout all generations.

Hosea 12:5  Even the LORD, the God of hosts, The LORD is His name. (NIV reads..The LORD GOD Almighty, the LORD is his name of renown!)

Isaiah 45:22b,23  For I am God, and there is no other.  “I have sworn by Myself, The word has gone forth from My mouth in righteousness  And will not turn back,  That to Me every knee will bow, every tongue will swear allegiance.

Romans 14:11 For it is written, “As I live, says the Lord, every knee shall bow to Me, And every tongue shall give praise to God”

Philippians 2:9-11  9For this reason also, God highly exalted Him, and bestowed on Him the name which is above every name, 10so that at the name of Jesus every knee will bow, of those who are in heaven and on earth and under the earth, 11and that every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

When I think of this scene, I wonder what that was like, and did God erase the memory of the soldiers and just cause them to resume?  What was that like for the disciples to see? and Why didn’t it encourge them?  you all know I am just a thinker…and this always causes my brain to run rampant!  Amazing is our God, and one day we all fall facedown before HIM.  Now imagining that scene.

Check out the others who will highlight an area of this chapter that stood out to them this week.  Go here, and check them all out this week.  The word of God is awesome, GOD is awesome, I am crazy about HIM.  (BTW- not yelling my post….I can’t seem to get my post to recognize that my caps are off…must. post. blogged. study…. LOL pressing on!)



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Down to the bottom-Lifter of my Head III

Here is the link to part I and part II

There was a void in me that interrupted my sleep, it burned deep with in me, and caused pain for me and for those who loved me. At times I remember feeling the sorrow that I caused others who loved me. But the empty void was so incredibly painful, that I began drinking heavy, dabbled with weed, speeders, and downers…I did not move onto the harder stuff as a result of what I described in Part II.  I met a man at the bar I frequented, he always looked out of place.  Very well off and dressed better than the rest who were always there. He always seemed to come shortly after me. (Later I found out that the bar tender was calling him if I showed up) He also had an empty void that burned and seemed to take over his thoughts.  He was a vietnam veteran.  Our romance was short, and although I adored him, I kept him at arms length for sometime.  And so many women had thier sites on him. I really didn’t want the drama.  But he pursued me. He showed up everywhere, and treated me like royalty. I became pregnant(which I was told at 17 that due to the abuse I had endured, this was not going to happen).  But when I was ready to tell him, He told me that he needed some time away from me.  And the other women..still around…I didn’t want him to return to me for this reason of being pregnant, and I was pretty sure I was destined to struggle anyway.  I knew he was having nightmares and was very withdrawn, and somehow I had made him my god.  I always opened the door to him and I would have given him anything.  He committed suicide when I was 6 months pregnant, and I would have followed him there if not for the child I was carrying.  (She truly is a gift from God, and the way that God brought me closer to himself)  I spent endless days at my special secluded place, crying and yelling at God.  “I know why you don’t want me, but why would you punish a baby to take her daddy, and start her like this?” I recieved many phone calls through out the pregnancy of ways to abort this baby…but I could not entertain the thought, she was all I had left of my god.  Many others called and wanted me to give her up for adoption, but again she was all I had in the world, and I wanted to keep her.  And I did.  After she was born, looking just like her daddy, I was determined to give her the best life, and to protect her.  I started drinking again, and working long hours to provide for her, and the void continued to burn, and my head still looking down, although holding my head high…so no one would know the turmoil within…

I know today that God would not tolerate another god, and I know every single time I look into my daughters beautiful face, that God knew I would follow him to the grave, and this miracle baby gave me the reason I needed to press on.  So while I was so angry at God, HE was loving and patient with me. Did I walk in the blessing?  no.  Did I lift my eyes to HIM? no.  I didn’t think it was possible to look up, and certainly not at HIM.  I truly believed HE existed, I just truly believed that HE hated me.

God is Holy, and Pure, HE is not vindictive. There are repercussions to sin, and I have learned that through many times choosing the wrong things, and for not looking to HIM to be my everything.  HE alone can fill the hurts don’t it?, its consuming, and the quiet will stir it til you find yourself against a wall, or in a heap on the floor.  HE is the only one and the only thing that fills a soul with peace and joy, and can make the void full.  Please know that you have not out sinned the grace of God.  HIS offer still stands as long as you have breath.  Come before HIM, and repent of your sin, lay it all down at HIS feet, believe that Jesus died for those sins, and that God has forgiven them.  Believe that Jesus raised from the dead, and that you are loved by HIM..allow HIM to be the king of your heart, and I promise you…HE will fill that void.    (to be continued)

Down to the Bottom/Lifter of my head IV

(you can find the beginning of this story on the page listed the same as this title- thank you Ellen at Stormstories for your encouragement to day to tell this part.

Five years or so passed before I started to seriously date for relationship.  I just didn’t want a man around with all the drama that seemed to be part of that. My baby girl was my world.  I still partied but not extensively (so I felt that was acceptable), I did not party in front of my daughter, and men were not allowed to come to my home. That was our refuge from the world.

Eventually I gave in to a young man, a farmer(go head laugh, I know you want to). I was so desperate for something to be the way it should. (God was already working on my heart, I was tired of living under the curse)  Life seemed good for a while, and he had a son, so I took him in like my own.  Soon, he was drunk everyday, and missing work. It was nothing to come home and find the electric turned off, or all my food eaten by his drunken buddies who were now sleeping on my floor, at 4 in the afternoon.  He started to beat me when I was sleeping, (with good reason, I tore him up awake)for things that I later found out he was doing.  Long story short..I caught him with my best friend, so I lost them both the same day. I never felt pain like that of betrayal. And it felt like my heart had been cut out and left laying for me to look at.  By this time I have two girls and a son that is not mine.  I tried to work through it with him, and no friend…but it increasing got worse. My pain and his actions. He soon had several girlfriends, and told my girls to call me names. He did this in front of me, and it broke my heart even more to hear them call me names out of those precious little mouths.  This time my girls(71/2, 1) and his son(6) watched me push him through a door, and beat him til the police arrived. All charges were dropped. (Thank you Jesus)

My only friend left in the world worked with me, and saw me go through all this, broken ribs, tears that seemed they would not end.  This friend helped me move out while he was at work (another thank you Jesus for him going to work), and helped me set up a new place to live.  This friend was there for me, and seemed to have no motives other than he liked me, just like I was.  I had no idea that he would become the wonderful husband that I have today! (Again thank you Jesus)

I could not write this part of my story for a long time. I could not articulate exactly why. I had forgiven him, and I had moved on with Jesus Christ, I just couldn’t tell this part.  Recently, I was pulled into court to see him face to face over a support order that is now 14 years old. I never took full support, and only asked for 325 a month to cover the sitter expenses, no medical support, nothing else. It was raised to 425 a month 6 years ago by the state.  I totally fell apart knowing that I had to see him again. The rejection, and betrayal seemed to surface, and I needed Jesus to go with me.  Turned out he needed a favor, and for me to lower the support to keep him out of jail.  I asked him to sign her over to us and I would drop the support all together. Forgiving the debt and the one that was past due.  He agreed. 

I looked at this man, and knew that GOD had made such a change in my heart. I no longer looked at him with contempt, I looked at a broken man who needed Jesus. I told him that.  “Jesus is the only one who can fix your problems, and you should really take some time and talk to HIM, it’s working for me..” He shook his head thanked me, and said “who would’ve thunk”. 

God heals the hurts, HE binds up the wounds, and when it is most uncomfortable for me, HE has a plan that is worth following HIM into.  (My next entry to this will be my story of when I came to Christ and made a commitment, and How that changed everything,..truly lifting my head)


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