Are “things” in general changing quickly around you? My life has been changing drastically around me. There has been times that the need to catch my breath and pray “I don’t know what end is up, can you straighten all this out or change me, please”. I think the latter is what HE has chosen to do.
How sweet and awesome is it that we have a GOD who really cares for us? who has a plan for us? who knows the end result, and does not get tired of working on us? Although HE does not change, HE is changing us, changing me, day to day, situation to situation, heart break to heart break…
Thinking today about how HE is limitless, never in need, always sufficient, and yet will wrap me up in HIM, and calm my heart.
Father God, we stand amazed at your Awesomeness! There is none like you. Thank you for always being with us, even when we forget that you are here. Thank you for your faithfulness, love, mercy, grace, and forgiveness. We don’t understand why things happen like they do, and still know that you allow these things to further your plans. Help us to accept that and to trust you. Lord, help our unbelief…we need your peace and your joy to walk through this cursed world, and shine our lights for you. We need our eyes to be fixed on you, to know you more and love you more. Thank you for not getting annoyed with our needy lives, and for wanting to give to us….
Joy is the theme of my song,
And the beat of my heart,
And that joy is found in You.
For You showed the power of Your cross
And your great saving love,
And my soul woke up to You.
I heard Your beautiful news;
Grace so amazing, so true…
Shout it out, let the people sing
Something so powerful should shake the whole wide world.
Make it loud, make it louder still;
Saviour we’re singing now to celebrate Your beautiful news.
There’s a God who came down to save
Showed the world His amazing grace
There’s a God who came down to save
And He calls your name
Matt Redman ©2006
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There has been an intense struggle the last few months. Its over. My thinking was twisted, due to following man rather than God. Sounds harsh….but the truth is, my own longing to belong to the body of Christ, and my own thinking on what that is exactly, caused me to only hear what man more educated than me has to say about that. That was my first mistake…God has always been there to teach me and to lead me, and I believed that HE was handing me off to someone. My worst fear became a reality. The fire for Christ and to spread the Gosple began to die down. After trying to talk through it with a man, I realized he did not understand me, and I have been judged. Is this all part of God’s plan? yes. My longing to be part of..was off. I already am part of the body of Christ. When I get hurt by the “believers”, I tend to take that out on the ONE i love the most. (They said i was part of their family..me..the one who never really had a family..so what do I know about this..apparently nothing. Please do not take this as a slam on the church, I don’t believe they are wrong, yet I also believe that God wants my attention, and now HE has it.) God changed my husbands schedule forcing us to walk another direction, because HE loves us, and HE knows what HE is doing, and me..not so much.
The LORD has brought me back to HIS side, reminding me that I am never alone, and HE never tires of me asking questions, and HE never feels like HE has invested too much time in me. Just the opposite, HE wants to invest time in me. HE used my daughter this week to show me videos, that actually broke through my fog I have been walking in, and I am sharing them with you. In the order that I have them in, is the conversation between me and God. I hope it helps your heart too, where ever you may be on this road. No one trumps God, and what HE has spoken to your heart. And no one can know or discern your heart without investing time in you. God is the only ONE who truly knows your heart..follow HIM.
For some reason the one that speaks my heart the best in this struggle will not embed..sooo if you would like to hear it go here
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How do you suppose one should confront another about being judgmental, without being judgmental? Or critical? Or bitter? I am guilty of carrying all three deep inside of me, and although not aware til recently, I am still rather stand offish with the ones who thought it necessary to tell me. 90% truth spoken to me. 10% self gain…
I do not deal well with hurt, or disappointment, and GOD is doing a work in me. I would sooner turn and walk away from a problem than look right at it. Why? Thinking life is full of crap, people in general are full of crap, and self seeking, yes even while they speak some truth over you.
This is the deal! I need to not walk away so quickly, and at times I need to swallow the bitterness that it stirs up in me. And once again…I need to believe HE is seeing this, and has a plan, and will take care of the others just like HE takes care of me. These verses spoke me to today…
Hebrews 12:15 See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many.
Hebrews 12:28,29 Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our “God is a consuming fire”.
All I can say to that is “dang”, I got some fences to mend, and some believing to do, some repentance, and some grace to extend. Also knowing that the bitter root that has already taken root is going to be painful coming out. Back to life as HE wants it, and not so much how I want it, praying that HE will change my “wants”. Peace. Hope you all are having a good week!