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Surrender…

In the end of December/Beginning of January, a blogger wrote a post about One Word that was on your heart, for the new year, not a resolution just a word. Every year end I pray for God to give me something that will help me into and thru the new year.  Sometimes its been verses i  needed to commit to memory, that at some point in the year, i ended up leaning on with all being.  Yeah, HE does that when we ask.

But this year He gave me a word.  SURRENDER.  Ahhhhh the longer i thought on it, the more mixed my thoughts became.  I know that my heart is surrendered to HIM as my King, my Creator, and LORD.  But it seemed to mean something else…so casually i put it aside.  

As every other year, the year moves on, and soon I am faced with exactly why I need that one thing God has given me.

I learned a long time ago that people fail me, and all my decisions/choices are mine.  But God never fails me.

I have been going thru lots of ups and downs, with changes in my life that just had to change.  Health issues with family.  With each and every heart ache, disappointment, or discouragement, HE stood before me reminding me to SURRENDER these things to HIM.  Its not about how well i can take care of me or the ones i love.  We all belong to HIM, and HE is doing things we just don’t always understand.  

SURRENDER…getting my hands off it, laying down at HIS feet, and leaving it there with HIM..SURRENDER…A lesson I am sure i will continue to learn.  Things are going well in our lives, and some rough spots are still in front of us, but breathing easy is due to SURRENDER…

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She is my Sunshine

She is my sunshine!

Even her cry lights up my heart. 

Her name is Lia Kate.

Smiley, and active in a bouncy chair.

Loves love.

Squeals with delight when her mommy enters the room.

She needs your prayers.

Lia was born a little early, and was quickly diagnosed with a heart murmur. No big deal, lots of kids and adults have them and they live normally.

After being checked by a specialist, her little heart has a valve that is not completely developed, and after the second check, found an artery that is open in the heart, and causing more stress to her little heart.

Surgeons are watching her closely, and hoping for her to gain more weight by the 11t of May.  Surgery like this is tricky when they are so small.  The catheter surgery is 99% that all will be corrected, and she will be fine.  But she doesn’t weigh enough.  If her condition grows worse, then they will have to enter through her chest cavity.  Much more dangerous, Much more lingering of sedatives in her little body, and they just don’t know if they can correct it through that method.

Needless to say, her mommy is on an emotional rollercoaster, and her Mimi as well! 

God can do this! nothing is too hard for HIM! He  hears the prayers of HIS children.  I am asking for you to lift her and our family up as you think of us, or as God leads you. 

Thanks in advance for joining the army of prayer warriors who are already in place, giving us support, and praying for my Sunshine.

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Divine Appointment with Grace

Do you know this verse?  “For by Grace, we are saved through faith, not of ourselves, it is the gift of God” -definition of Grace…it’s a gift, we could never pay it, ever! what a wonderful gift!

A few weeks ago, the temps went to 70 degrees, and it was awesome after a very cold winter.  My friend had a tradgey in her family, so my plans were canceled. Deciding quickly to get out in this gorgeous day! Took my son with me (after bribing him with a Slushie). We headed to the river for a quiet and relaxing afternoon. The weather turned very windy, so we decided to go to a location we never go to along the river, that would be out of the wind.

We had the whole place to ourself! Sunshine! Melted river! What a blessing!  Soon after we arrived, an old man riding a bike equally as old, came through…and decided to sit right next to us.  Finding this rather odd…I paid attention.

He started to witness to me. And we talked some deep things that I studied a few years ago, and I was surprised it was still in the memory bank.  Then we got to the Grace factor.  Ahhhh, this gentleman was Jehovah witness.  My grandpa was also a Jehovah witness, so I am familiar.  Our talk changed…He tried very hard to convince me that works are how we get to heaven, and nothing special about it, we will just be glad we made it.  (insert huge eyes here )

No doubt, God orchestrated that afternoon.  We had a divine appointment.  The gentleman left and very sweetly thanked me for the conversation,  asked if I would visit his church sometime. I told him no, I love the church I am at, and maybe he should visit me.  He spent his whole life seeking for truth. And I prayed as he left…”please let him find the Truth”.  Grace, a foreign word to a man who knew his scriptures so well, some what out of context, but knew scripture none the less.  He could not fathom, Grace.

Romans 4:4-8 (NLT)

When people work, their wages are not a gift, but something they have earned. But people are counted as righteous, not because of their work, but because of their faith in God who forgives sinners. David also spoke when he described the happiness of those who are declared righteous without working for it:

“oh, what joy for those whose disobedience is forgiven, whose sins are put out of sight. Yes, what joy for those whose record the LORD has cleared of sin.”

All of this, and I was still standing at my wall, and this was the beginning of breakthrough, I realized, I do believe, and I still care about a world that is misled. This appointment was not only for him, it was also for me.

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The Wall Comes Tumbling Down

This is my wall, I’ve been looking at it for so long that I don’t remember when I first got here. So many struggles and so many mixed emotions. All the while believing…believing God is in control, and hoping for the day I will be able to pass from it. Too high to get over it, too wide to get around it, so in my face that it can’t be ignored.

This is what it looks like today. I can now get passed it. The terrain is still a little rough, but the hope of what is on the other side, is anticipated!

Oh sure, I know there will be more walls, and more struggles, and lots to learn.  But progressing is the only option. How can one be satisfied to stand or sit at the wall, or even believe that is all that God has for them in this life?

God is always good. God never lies, or deceives in any form. God does not change. God knows all that I have done, and has removed it as far as the east is from the west.  God is still changing me into the creation that HE sees me as…God sees the finished product.

Still a little cautious (of this new path on the other side of the wall), Still believing God is trustworthy. God has made many changes in me and in the life that I have.  We are now part of a wonderful fellowship of Christians, and no doubt a gift from God. It’s looking more each day that God is opening a door for me to do the type of work I love, and still grow in my faith(without it being challenged constantly).  I don’t know the plans HE has for me, but I know that HE has plans.

Key to being at the wall…don’t fight it, stop exhausting yourself trying to bust through it, stop asking to be delivered from it, Ask to learn all that you need to learn so that the wall will fall down, just like the walls of Jericho.

Lessons at the wall, not completed, but stirring a piece of my heart that needed stirred.

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Pondering…looking at the Wall

Ever find yourself still, staring at a wall? Can’t get over it? Can’t get around it? not sure how you even ended up here?

Been looking and struggling with this wall for quite some time..days have turned to months, months are quickly turning to years…

The need to evaluate, and re-evaluate is imperative.  The questions that come to mind are scary, and very transparent of the heart.  I’ve been shamed for being at this wall, accused of some horrific sin, dismissed as a backslider…..yet I am exactly where God wants me to be.  HE is shredding my legalistic views, HE is stirring my bitterness to eliminate it, HE is still in control…even here. Only when HE has finished with the extremely painful heart surgery, will HE see me to the other side.

Funny, how we are so quick to judge another at the wall. How quickly we dismiss what we don’t understand. So often we claim to know what God is doing in another. We even claim to know and understand God.  *sigh*

God is not created in man’s image, we don’t even have a conclusive definition of “Holy”, yet we claim it.  I absolutely hate looking at this wall…and at the same time…I believe HE has a plan that is more awesome than anything I could dream up.

HE promised to never leave me…

HE promised to finish the work HE started in me…

HE promised to never let go…

Simple promises. Holding on to them with all I got.  Hoping that when I get to the otherside of this wall, that my concept of HIM will have grown in huge proportions.  “I will wait patiently on the LORD”…HE is faithful, even when I am not.

Ever been here? what did you learn if you have been?  Maybe you are there now.  If so, how do you keep looking up?

“Therefore there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ”

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Let God, be GOD

GOD works as HE wants according to the plan HE has! that is the bottom line… Can  any man really honestly say… “I know the mind of God, and the direction HE is taking?”

With in each heart, HE molds, rearranges, moves to create the person that HE already sees in the finished completed person.  Can your head even wrap around that?

HIS children run amuck, pointing fingers, tearing down, and condemning one another, all in the name of Jesus.  WRONG! We need to learn to let God be GOD, do we not have enough to love each other as HE has commanded us to do.

The negative can not out weigh the positive…not with GOD’s children.  We all cry out for unity, and Unity is here…but our pride tends to suffocate it.

Totally surrendered…God is GOD, I do not think like HIM, I do not plan like HIM, and HE is not created in my image, I am created in HIS.

My convictions will rarely be yours, and your convictions will rarely be mine…it all depends on where in the work of our hearts the Creator is at.. HE alone knows my heart, and HE alone knows yours. Let’s get back to  “Love the LORD your GOD will all your heart, soul, mind, and strength…and love your neighbor as your self..”

Seriously….we need to get over ourselves…

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