Category Archives: hope
Do you know this verse? “For by Grace, we are saved through faith, not of ourselves, it is the gift of God” -definition of Grace…it’s a gift, we could never pay it, ever! what a wonderful gift!
A few weeks ago, the temps went to 70 degrees, and it was awesome after a very cold winter. My friend had a tradgey in her family, so my plans were canceled. Deciding quickly to get out in this gorgeous day! Took my son with me (after bribing him with a Slushie). We headed to the river for a quiet and relaxing afternoon. The weather turned very windy, so we decided to go to a location we never go to along the river, that would be out of the wind.
We had the whole place to ourself! Sunshine! Melted river! What a blessing! Soon after we arrived, an old man riding a bike equally as old, came through…and decided to sit right next to us. Finding this rather odd…I paid attention.
He started to witness to me. And we talked some deep things that I studied a few years ago, and I was surprised it was still in the memory bank. Then we got to the Grace factor. Ahhhh, this gentleman was Jehovah witness. My grandpa was also a Jehovah witness, so I am familiar. Our talk changed…He tried very hard to convince me that works are how we get to heaven, and nothing special about it, we will just be glad we made it. (insert huge eyes here )
No doubt, God orchestrated that afternoon. We had a divine appointment. The gentleman left and very sweetly thanked me for the conversation, asked if I would visit his church sometime. I told him no, I love the church I am at, and maybe he should visit me. He spent his whole life seeking for truth. And I prayed as he left…”please let him find the Truth”. Grace, a foreign word to a man who knew his scriptures so well, some what out of context, but knew scripture none the less. He could not fathom, Grace.
Romans 4:4-8 (NLT)
When people work, their wages are not a gift, but something they have earned. But people are counted as righteous, not because of their work, but because of their faith in God who forgives sinners. David also spoke when he described the happiness of those who are declared righteous without working for it:
“oh, what joy for those whose disobedience is forgiven, whose sins are put out of sight. Yes, what joy for those whose record the LORD has cleared of sin.”
All of this, and I was still standing at my wall, and this was the beginning of breakthrough, I realized, I do believe, and I still care about a world that is misled. This appointment was not only for him, it was also for me.
This is my wall, I’ve been looking at it for so long that I don’t remember when I first got here. So many struggles and so many mixed emotions. All the while believing…believing God is in control, and hoping for the day I will be able to pass from it. Too high to get over it, too wide to get around it, so in my face that it can’t be ignored.
This is what it looks like today. I can now get passed it. The terrain is still a little rough, but the hope of what is on the other side, is anticipated!
Oh sure, I know there will be more walls, and more struggles, and lots to learn. But progressing is the only option. How can one be satisfied to stand or sit at the wall, or even believe that is all that God has for them in this life?
God is always good. God never lies, or deceives in any form. God does not change. God knows all that I have done, and has removed it as far as the east is from the west. God is still changing me into the creation that HE sees me as…God sees the finished product.
Still a little cautious (of this new path on the other side of the wall), Still believing God is trustworthy. God has made many changes in me and in the life that I have. We are now part of a wonderful fellowship of Christians, and no doubt a gift from God. It’s looking more each day that God is opening a door for me to do the type of work I love, and still grow in my faith(without it being challenged constantly). I don’t know the plans HE has for me, but I know that HE has plans.
Key to being at the wall…don’t fight it, stop exhausting yourself trying to bust through it, stop asking to be delivered from it, Ask to learn all that you need to learn so that the wall will fall down, just like the walls of Jericho.
Lessons at the wall, not completed, but stirring a piece of my heart that needed stirred.
Ever find yourself still, staring at a wall? Can’t get over it? Can’t get around it? not sure how you even ended up here?
Been looking and struggling with this wall for quite some time..days have turned to months, months are quickly turning to years…
The need to evaluate, and re-evaluate is imperative. The questions that come to mind are scary, and very transparent of the heart. I’ve been shamed for being at this wall, accused of some horrific sin, dismissed as a backslider…..yet I am exactly where God wants me to be. HE is shredding my legalistic views, HE is stirring my bitterness to eliminate it, HE is still in control…even here. Only when HE has finished with the extremely painful heart surgery, will HE see me to the other side.
Funny, how we are so quick to judge another at the wall. How quickly we dismiss what we don’t understand. So often we claim to know what God is doing in another. We even claim to know and understand God. *sigh*
God is not created in man’s image, we don’t even have a conclusive definition of “Holy”, yet we claim it. I absolutely hate looking at this wall…and at the same time…I believe HE has a plan that is more awesome than anything I could dream up.
HE promised to never leave me…
HE promised to finish the work HE started in me…
HE promised to never let go…
Simple promises. Holding on to them with all I got. Hoping that when I get to the otherside of this wall, that my concept of HIM will have grown in huge proportions. “I will wait patiently on the LORD”…HE is faithful, even when I am not.
Ever been here? what did you learn if you have been? Maybe you are there now. If so, how do you keep looking up?
“Therefore there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ”
There are times when quiet relection seems to be all that one can do, especially if you are a person who feels the need to do something. I am that type of person.
Lately a whole new level with the LORD has begun to open up, and following HIM is the only true option. Awareness has become a strong sense to me, and equally hard to describe. Looking in the the mirror, or a window, or water…the person who is reflected back to me, is new to me. My past seems to be seperated from me, and who i once was is a stranger to me. Healing? maybe…
Moving on with HIM, where ever this takes me. At times just surrending, lifting my arms to HIM and saying, “even if i resist, just take me”. Do you ever find yourself resisting? Wish i could say that i don’t, but too many times i do.
Its time to get on with this thing called Faith and believing, its time to blindly allow HIM to lead, and trusting that HE is good (not necessarily safe). In this time of reflection, HE reminds me over and over…”Believe me here, I do not fail you”…
This morning he woke me to a song that HE woke me with many years ago…and it touched my heart so deeply. The memories of that time flooded my heart, a time when HE was new to me, a time when things seemed very uncertain, and i time when i knew without a doubt that HIS arms and love flowed over me.
HE is the same God, yesterday, today, and forever, never changing…the God of my yesterday, today and forever…HE’s been there all along, and yes i do know HIM, and yes HE is believeable and trustworthy..
How long has it been that you have allowed silence into your home, nothing but the Word, nothing but Praise music? I promise you, its worth the effort, and a time of relecting always follows.
if you are interested this is the song that HE has waken me to…
I don’t know if anyone else needs this today..but i do!
Princess, stand in Awe (previously posted in 2008 on my blogspot…before moving here..)
We leave the radio on in the kitchen always, I am not sure why we do that except maybe the dog needs company and is confined to the kitchen. 🙂 It is always on a Christian Contemporary Radio station, so this morning while in search for my coffee, it spoke to my heart. “Stand in Awe and worship, come adore, King of kings and Lord of lords”. Praying this morning for a heart that will constantly stand in Awe of my Awesome God. The world just pulls us in so many different directions, and the negative seems to out weigh the postive most days, but the focus is to stand in Awe and worship! Music ministers to my soul in great proportions, and I do thank HIM for giving me song in my heart, and praise on my lips. GOD is so very good to me and I am so undeserving of anything. I love that most about HIM this morning. God is happy with God, and therefore it pleases HIM to call me HIS own, to adopt me into HIS family, and to put my feet on solid ground.
I spoke of the out reach in earlier posts, and wanting to start with the children in my area. I have stressed over boards in the church, I have stressed over prayer support…and this morning I am repentant for unbelief. What I felt was the first step proved to be no step…hahaha God totally opened the door, and all we had to do was walk through it! Prayer support-God provided in my siesta sistas, dollas, diva princess’. I saw with my own eyes yesterday the power of your prayers, and I thank you for interceeding on our behalf. I love how the whole thing works, although I don’t understand it and don’t think I want to…I think I would rather stand in Awe and worship our Father of Unfailing Love, who does not send us with out HIS own plan in place. HE does not fail us!
My King, Yahweh, Abba,
It is a gift just to stand in Awe and worship You. In all your power and beauty, I am overwhelmed in the fact that You move Heaven and Earth on our behalf. “who is man that you would be mindful of him”…thank you that you are so very detailed in our lives. Forgive my foolishness and unbelief, if there is any pride in me, please bring it in my face and deal with it. I know that the road to You is not the easier of the two, but it is the blessed one, resulting in crossing the finish line and You are my great Reward! Thank you for my sisters in You, and how they encourage me, and for the prayer cover you have provided. Thank you for opening the door, and allowing us to see it and walk through. Thank you for the sunshine this moring that is such an awesome display of your faithfulness to me, and a constant reminder to walk in Your light. Jesus, again today I want more than anything to live for you, and to be a picture of YOU to someone else. Touch my lips with coal from your altar, and purify me to stand in your presence-the presence of my HOLY GOD, and stand in Awe and worship. Send me. Overwhelmed in your Goodness, Your Princess