Category Archives: fatherless children

DO SOMETHING-get out of the comfort zone

Been paying attention to what gets response on my Facebook. I have mixed group on my facebook. Christ followers, friends I grew up with, relatives, and co-workers, Christfollowers make up 70 % of my friends list.

This weekend  I finally grasped something that has been bothering me for a while.  As Christfollowers, we are quick to disregard things that are not comfortable, things that are not complementing to ourself, and overall would cause us to maybe do something.  Sorry in advance if this is stepping on your toes..well no apology is necessary.

So many children around the world need our help in one way or another.  I support a child in India through Compassion, for the last 6 years.  Love him!  There are many groups that can be helpful in directing you in how to help a child in need.  Christian Organizations.  But the one that has my heart, is Invisible Children of Uganda.  Its not Christian Organization, although Christians started it.  Its more of a Humanitarian effort.  Together we can make a difference in this country, and for these children.  I am asking you to come out of your comfort zone, and just watch any of the videos on their website.  Write a letter to your congressman, send out an email to entire list to raise awareness…DO SOMETHING..together we can help these children.

I hear so many people say “I am following Jesus”..I think Uganda and the Invisible Children are exactly where HE would be…Jesus loves the children of the world..and what we have done or not done for the least of these we have done to HIM… Please just hear these people out, and pray about how you can help them.



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Teen Mothers in Church

Interesting…while thinking today of a young mother (16), who chose to keep her baby, and is trying very hard to keep good grades (maintaining an A average), taking on her motherly duties, and the baby is a picture of health and being well taken care of…one  happy baby.  This mother is wanting to go to church…I know there are consequences to our poor choices.  But those consequences should never be with holding Jesus Christ, or the gospel as if she has really out sinned God’s forgiveness.  Curious..

-Would your church be okay with this young lady being part of your daughters youth group? why or why not?

-Would you let your daughter be her only friend?

give me some feed back….(BTW-I already am loving this young mama)

Alot have opinions, and alot speak a good God talk…how about you? how do you think one should respond to this situation?


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HE opened my eyes..

Today I asked for prayer and support from my blogging family, and amazingly you all blew me away with your comments, and texts, and someothers that I just knew were lifting me.  God went far beyond what any of us asked,..let me tell you the story…He opened my eyes, broke my heart, and then rewarded my obedience..How Great is our God!

I met up with my ex while my Hubs was by my side (thank you Jesus), and the fear that I have been battling left. The best way to describe it seems to me that I was no longer looking at him through my eyes but the eyes of my God.  I saw him as a man who has hit the bottom, much like the others I reach out to. I saw his brokenness, and his need for a savior.  I have that, and I could not keep it to myself.  He did not expect me to forgive his debt, and I didn’t expect him to think at all about what I was saying about Trina being Scotts daughter.  But at that moment something “God” happened in that room, I saw him stop thinking about himself, and actually think about her, and give her his blessing, and sign the paper.  I signed the paper to cancel his support order, and forgive the debt in the rears.  He thanked me.  God broke my heart for the lost heart of my abuser.  When it was all said and done, we had talked about mercy, and forgiveness but not yet God.  So I leaned over to him, and in simple terms,  “You really need to get right with God, let him give you life…it worked for me and is still a GO, who would have thunk?”  he smiled and said “yeah, who would have thunk”  He thanked me and Scott again as he walked away into the rain, still broken, but free from the court, and scratching his head as to what just happened.  I know God is working his heart now.  I am thanking and praising God for taking the bad and making it good, I am thanking HIM for breaking my heart, and helping me to follow HIM here today.  Thanking HIM for my Hubs, who was incredible and the greatest support to me, and I am thanking HIM for all of you, who quickly came to my aid in prayer.

Isaiah 42:16

 I will lead the blind by a way they did not know;

    I will guide them on paths they have not known.

    I will turn darkness to light in front of them,

    and rough places into level ground.

    This is what I will do for them,

    and I will not forsake them


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Beauty in the “giving”

God has given me a heart for outreach. As I study through the gospels, I see HIM stopping to help people who have not always made a confession of faith, but believe after HIS compassion has touched them.  I get hung up on corporate church sometimes because they seem to focus on whether or not someone has made that confession before helping them.  Not me!  I want them to see something different in me that goes against the world’s thinking, and pray that they will see Jesus in me.

Last night I met a family, for the first time, that God placed right in my hand. Amazing!  I talked to the mother briefly on the phone, and she was so open to me, and wanted whatever help I could and would give her.  Praise365 and I shopped for them for thanksgiving dinner and some extras to help stock her for a couple days…she lives in a motel efficiency, a small walk in kitchen, a tv and a bed(full size double, no king or queen), two children…one ten, one thirteen. They all live there. She works.  The tears just rolled down her cheeks when we gave her the stuff, and when I gave her my number to call me if she needs anything. She has no car, and is dependant on the public bus. 

God totally opened this door, and I felt like she were my sister, and I just hugged this stranger, and prayed for her.  I have a list of things that her children would like for Christmas, and honestly its a modest list.  I am going to reach her soon again, and walk this life with her…at least til God helps her stand in HIM, and gives her wings to fly.  The blessing in giving is the most precious sense of God I have ever felt, and I encourage you to find a family to help.  If you need help getting started let me know, I will help you find them. 

Thank you Lord for placing 19 families this year into hands of families who love you. Please let them see YOU in us. Please hush a mothers heart that just don’t know which way to turn, and help her to look up to you, please lift her head.  Comfort her children that they are not forgotten. I know you have a plan.  Remembering this thanksgiving how much YOU have given us, and so much we are yet to find out.  I applaud you in reminding me that YOU are still on the move, and still stooping down picking up the lost, still hearing hungry children crying, and still feeding them. Thank you Thank you Thank you. Oh LORD there is none like you, loving you with a heart that you gave to me, thank you for lifting me up and lifting my head, and allowing me to help someone else, but most of all to go along with YOU, and watch my Daddy work.  Priceless.. Happy Thanksgiving!!

Don’t forget tomorrow is my Guest writer…I have already read it, and it brought me to my knees, thanking God for all that HE has done in my heart and in my life….will be up in the morning…stop by and leave some love…and some holiday cheer!


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Down to the bottom-Lifter of my Head III

Here is the link to part I and part II

There was a void in me that interrupted my sleep, it burned deep with in me, and caused pain for me and for those who loved me. At times I remember feeling the sorrow that I caused others who loved me. But the empty void was so incredibly painful, that I began drinking heavy, dabbled with weed, speeders, and downers…I did not move onto the harder stuff as a result of what I described in Part II.  I met a man at the bar I frequented, he always looked out of place.  Very well off and dressed better than the rest who were always there. He always seemed to come shortly after me. (Later I found out that the bar tender was calling him if I showed up) He also had an empty void that burned and seemed to take over his thoughts.  He was a vietnam veteran.  Our romance was short, and although I adored him, I kept him at arms length for sometime.  And so many women had thier sites on him. I really didn’t want the drama.  But he pursued me. He showed up everywhere, and treated me like royalty. I became pregnant(which I was told at 17 that due to the abuse I had endured, this was not going to happen).  But when I was ready to tell him, He told me that he needed some time away from me.  And the other women..still around…I didn’t want him to return to me for this reason of being pregnant, and I was pretty sure I was destined to struggle anyway.  I knew he was having nightmares and was very withdrawn, and somehow I had made him my god.  I always opened the door to him and I would have given him anything.  He committed suicide when I was 6 months pregnant, and I would have followed him there if not for the child I was carrying.  (She truly is a gift from God, and the way that God brought me closer to himself)  I spent endless days at my special secluded place, crying and yelling at God.  “I know why you don’t want me, but why would you punish a baby to take her daddy, and start her like this?” I recieved many phone calls through out the pregnancy of ways to abort this baby…but I could not entertain the thought, she was all I had left of my god.  Many others called and wanted me to give her up for adoption, but again she was all I had in the world, and I wanted to keep her.  And I did.  After she was born, looking just like her daddy, I was determined to give her the best life, and to protect her.  I started drinking again, and working long hours to provide for her, and the void continued to burn, and my head still looking down, although holding my head high…so no one would know the turmoil within…

I know today that God would not tolerate another god, and I know every single time I look into my daughters beautiful face, that God knew I would follow him to the grave, and this miracle baby gave me the reason I needed to press on.  So while I was so angry at God, HE was loving and patient with me. Did I walk in the blessing?  no.  Did I lift my eyes to HIM? no.  I didn’t think it was possible to look up, and certainly not at HIM.  I truly believed HE existed, I just truly believed that HE hated me.

God is Holy, and Pure, HE is not vindictive. There are repercussions to sin, and I have learned that through many times choosing the wrong things, and for not looking to HIM to be my everything.  HE alone can fill the hurts don’t it?, its consuming, and the quiet will stir it til you find yourself against a wall, or in a heap on the floor.  HE is the only one and the only thing that fills a soul with peace and joy, and can make the void full.  Please know that you have not out sinned the grace of God.  HIS offer still stands as long as you have breath.  Come before HIM, and repent of your sin, lay it all down at HIS feet, believe that Jesus died for those sins, and that God has forgiven them.  Believe that Jesus raised from the dead, and that you are loved by HIM..allow HIM to be the king of your heart, and I promise you…HE will fill that void.    (to be continued)

Down to the Bottom/Lifter of my head IV

(you can find the beginning of this story on the page listed the same as this title- thank you Ellen at Stormstories for your encouragement to day to tell this part.

Five years or so passed before I started to seriously date for relationship.  I just didn’t want a man around with all the drama that seemed to be part of that. My baby girl was my world.  I still partied but not extensively (so I felt that was acceptable), I did not party in front of my daughter, and men were not allowed to come to my home. That was our refuge from the world.

Eventually I gave in to a young man, a farmer(go head laugh, I know you want to). I was so desperate for something to be the way it should. (God was already working on my heart, I was tired of living under the curse)  Life seemed good for a while, and he had a son, so I took him in like my own.  Soon, he was drunk everyday, and missing work. It was nothing to come home and find the electric turned off, or all my food eaten by his drunken buddies who were now sleeping on my floor, at 4 in the afternoon.  He started to beat me when I was sleeping, (with good reason, I tore him up awake)for things that I later found out he was doing.  Long story short..I caught him with my best friend, so I lost them both the same day. I never felt pain like that of betrayal. And it felt like my heart had been cut out and left laying for me to look at.  By this time I have two girls and a son that is not mine.  I tried to work through it with him, and no friend…but it increasing got worse. My pain and his actions. He soon had several girlfriends, and told my girls to call me names. He did this in front of me, and it broke my heart even more to hear them call me names out of those precious little mouths.  This time my girls(71/2, 1) and his son(6) watched me push him through a door, and beat him til the police arrived. All charges were dropped. (Thank you Jesus)

My only friend left in the world worked with me, and saw me go through all this, broken ribs, tears that seemed they would not end.  This friend helped me move out while he was at work (another thank you Jesus for him going to work), and helped me set up a new place to live.  This friend was there for me, and seemed to have no motives other than he liked me, just like I was.  I had no idea that he would become the wonderful husband that I have today! (Again thank you Jesus)

I could not write this part of my story for a long time. I could not articulate exactly why. I had forgiven him, and I had moved on with Jesus Christ, I just couldn’t tell this part.  Recently, I was pulled into court to see him face to face over a support order that is now 14 years old. I never took full support, and only asked for 325 a month to cover the sitter expenses, no medical support, nothing else. It was raised to 425 a month 6 years ago by the state.  I totally fell apart knowing that I had to see him again. The rejection, and betrayal seemed to surface, and I needed Jesus to go with me.  Turned out he needed a favor, and for me to lower the support to keep him out of jail.  I asked him to sign her over to us and I would drop the support all together. Forgiving the debt and the one that was past due.  He agreed. 

I looked at this man, and knew that GOD had made such a change in my heart. I no longer looked at him with contempt, I looked at a broken man who needed Jesus. I told him that.  “Jesus is the only one who can fix your problems, and you should really take some time and talk to HIM, it’s working for me..” He shook his head thanked me, and said “who would’ve thunk”. 

God heals the hurts, HE binds up the wounds, and when it is most uncomfortable for me, HE has a plan that is worth following HIM into.  (My next entry to this will be my story of when I came to Christ and made a commitment, and How that changed everything,..truly lifting my head)


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Who is taking care of the children?

I don’t have much, but I have found if I give my little to the Lord, HE will make it much. Reminds me of the story of the feeding of the five thousand. The little boy only had two fish and three loaves of bread, but it fed everyone and enough left over to feed the disciples as well.  I have always thought that was amazing.

The Lord has burdened my heart for the country of Bolivia.  I was very ignorant to the needs there, and as I looked into it, my heart broke.  As in many third world countries, children as disposable. Can you imagine? Leaving them on a doorstep, or at ten years old putting them in the street to work.  I really had my eyes opened to these “street children”, and how God is moving through the streets in Cochabamba, Bolivia.   DaRonn and Angie Washington have a ministry that they not only do the administrative work, but are also living and working the ministry, in an Orphanage.  Rehanna is a friend of thiers and is also working in Bolivia, and reaching out to the street kids.  There stories are a beautiful picture of God’s grace in action. 

Please consider joining me in giving (even just a little), visit the ministry website here.  Jesus said to let the children come to HIM.  Be a blessing this holiday season, remembering that we do not go to bed hungry, we know that we are blessed…but blessed to be a blessing.  Peace


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