Category Archives: family
No walls this time, but definitely a fork in the road. One is a little rocky, and not too pleasant to the eye, but the other is closed. So I am taking the only road I can. Maybe its just the “unknown” factor that makes this new road less appealing….
I have allergies. They cripple my lifestyle to an extent. I have to be careful how much time I spend outside, My AC runs constantly to filter the allergens in my home. There is no medication that brings me 100% relief. The medication I do take is the same as a car payment every month.
God has blessed me with a job that works with all this. No weekends, and no summers, unless I feel up to a day here or there.
Why am I sharing this? I really don’t want to. I keep it to myself and try to be as healthy as I can. My allergies are getting worse. They cause me to have sinus migranes, and literally make me sick. My symptoms are heart pounding, shortness of breath, head pounding, and stomach turning. I have no warning when that will happen, and whatever plans I may have made come to an immediate halt. Overall, when telling someone that I can not participate in an activity, I get the “look”. I have become a person that many can not count on. Its heart breaking, and disappointing to say the least. Tiring in trying to explain.
After struggling with all this means to my life, and having lots of conversations with God on this matter, I am believing that He wants something else from me. Outreach can come to my door, and He has shown me that. I don’t know where all this is going…don’t know if I am supposed to return to writing. But I do know that my family is a gift from God. I want to use my energies in being a good wife, and a good mom, and the best Mimi I can be.
I do love my church, and I get there as often as I can. Opening a new chapter to my life….
Priorities, Changes, Oh my! So glad God knows what He is doing, I am just going to rest in HIM.
One of the greatest male influences in my life has passed away. He suffered much in the last years with his health, but was a giant to me. I know God placed him in my life at the time when i needed rescued from the world more than anything. He and his wife taught me what a family looked like, how it was okay to screw up, as long i picked my self back up, to ask for help was not a sign of weakness. Helped me through raising a baby on my own, and showed me what unconditional love was. I will never forget him, James Wickenheiser. But I do look forward to the day that i get to see him again while i am face to face with Jesus.
Blogging is in order…but my head has still not wrapped it all up. thoughts..
* God is good
*Lia Kate is beautiful
*Lacey and Josh were awesome
*God is good
*so many people love this little one
*so proud of my kids
*God is good
* two days of laboring
*i want my blanky
* God is good
I don’t know if anyone else needs this today..but i do!
Princess, stand in Awe (previously posted in 2008 on my blogspot…before moving here..)
We leave the radio on in the kitchen always, I am not sure why we do that except maybe the dog needs company and is confined to the kitchen. 🙂 It is always on a Christian Contemporary Radio station, so this morning while in search for my coffee, it spoke to my heart. “Stand in Awe and worship, come adore, King of kings and Lord of lords”. Praying this morning for a heart that will constantly stand in Awe of my Awesome God. The world just pulls us in so many different directions, and the negative seems to out weigh the postive most days, but the focus is to stand in Awe and worship! Music ministers to my soul in great proportions, and I do thank HIM for giving me song in my heart, and praise on my lips. GOD is so very good to me and I am so undeserving of anything. I love that most about HIM this morning. God is happy with God, and therefore it pleases HIM to call me HIS own, to adopt me into HIS family, and to put my feet on solid ground.
I spoke of the out reach in earlier posts, and wanting to start with the children in my area. I have stressed over boards in the church, I have stressed over prayer support…and this morning I am repentant for unbelief. What I felt was the first step proved to be no step…hahaha God totally opened the door, and all we had to do was walk through it! Prayer support-God provided in my siesta sistas, dollas, diva princess’. I saw with my own eyes yesterday the power of your prayers, and I thank you for interceeding on our behalf. I love how the whole thing works, although I don’t understand it and don’t think I want to…I think I would rather stand in Awe and worship our Father of Unfailing Love, who does not send us with out HIS own plan in place. HE does not fail us!
My King, Yahweh, Abba,
It is a gift just to stand in Awe and worship You. In all your power and beauty, I am overwhelmed in the fact that You move Heaven and Earth on our behalf. “who is man that you would be mindful of him”…thank you that you are so very detailed in our lives. Forgive my foolishness and unbelief, if there is any pride in me, please bring it in my face and deal with it. I know that the road to You is not the easier of the two, but it is the blessed one, resulting in crossing the finish line and You are my great Reward! Thank you for my sisters in You, and how they encourage me, and for the prayer cover you have provided. Thank you for opening the door, and allowing us to see it and walk through. Thank you for the sunshine this moring that is such an awesome display of your faithfulness to me, and a constant reminder to walk in Your light. Jesus, again today I want more than anything to live for you, and to be a picture of YOU to someone else. Touch my lips with coal from your altar, and purify me to stand in your presence-the presence of my HOLY GOD, and stand in Awe and worship. Send me. Overwhelmed in your Goodness, Your Princess
(trying to keep up with schedules while nursing a back injury is not my stong suit. Sorry, i need to post once a week for now. If any of you would like to post something from this study, let me know, or leave a comment with a link, or email me and we will work something out so you can do that. Please keep moving with this study…)