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The Seed Of Bitterness

Struggling many times with disappointment and wondering how it turns into anger and bitterness. It seems without much warning the whole world can turn upside down within my heart. WOW! what or how did that happen. God is always awesome to lead me to something that shines a light on my heart..this week HE led me to Lynse, if you get a chance to read this, i am thinking her questions will do a work in your heart as well… As I pondered her post, and was confronted this last week with issues that just weren’t apparent to me before, I found my self going back to this post..here is my walk through disappointment, anger, bitterness ….  go here

( I will start blogging part of my post here, and the entire post at Philter 48..hope to see your comments here or there, and do go read Lynseleanne’s post very good!)

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Can’t Preach That -revisted..worth it!

Yes we been here before, and it is worth a re-visit!! my son was entertaining me earlier in the week singing this in the pool, with all his Hammer moves.. Now I know you all remember “Hammertime” and “can’t touch this” .  This is to the tune..”Can’t touch this”, and titled  ….

“Can’t Preach that”

(got this here from here)

Download/listen here

You can’t preach that. You can’t preach that. You can’t preach that.

Bad, bad, bad, bad preaching irks me
So hard, Makes me say, oh my word,
What are, you teaching me?
What am I to try to think, heresy?
It’s no good, and it makes me frown,
A really bad exegete breaking it down,
So put it, out of reach
Cuz this kinda stuff, uh, you can’t preach

I told you Joel Osteen
You can’t preach that

Yeah, that’s what you preaching and you know…
You can’t preach that

Get a commentary or something…man…
You can’t preach that.

Yo, let me bust some exegesis
You can’t preach that.

“Send your money, and see
Your bank account grow, you can dress like me.
So move, off of your seat
And get a credit card and catch this beat,
You’ll be rolling, hold on,
The blessings come a flowing
You won’t know what’s going on,
like that, like that
Your bank account growing till it’s really really fat,”
Now that’s dirty, like sand at the beach
And that kinda stuff, uh, you can’t preach.

Yo, I told you Creflo Dollar,
You can’t preach that.

Why you keep preaching that man,
You can’t preach that.

Yo, read you Bible, it ain’t in there man,
You can’t preach that.

You want a choice or freedom
Make your decisions, you know you need um.
Now, you know,
If it was up to you you’d always say “no”
You think, you’re right
You call us heretics all day and night

So stop your crazy speech,
Cuz that of stuff, uh, you can’t preach

That’s word Dave Hunt, cuz you know,
You can’t preach that

Man, where are you getting all that stuff from?
You can’t preach that

Man, why you got to call us heretics?
You can’t preach that

Why don’t you just go write your Berean Call,
Break it down.

Stop…Schuller time

“Go with the times,” it is said,
If you preach like this then your preaching is dead,
So wave your hands in the air
Do what you want, people just don’t care.
Just tell them, some tale
About a puppy dog that lost his tail,
Now ready, set, and jump
Just for a minute let’s sell lots of junk.

Junk, junk, junk

Yeah,
You can’t preach that

Look man,
You can’t preach that

You better get right man cus you know you can’t
You can’t preach that

Read your Bible
School’s back in.

Break it down.

Stop…Phelps time…

(long interlude)

You can’t preach that
You can’t preach that
You can’t preach that
Break it down

Stop…listen up

Paul and new perspective, health wealth, prosperity,
Emerging church, gay marriage, and liberality.

Now why would I ever care for this junk,
I listened to these preachers and each one stunk.

They’re all around the world
From London to L.A.

It’s send me this,
send me that,
send me what you got,
And you’re blessing’ll come today.

You can’t preach that.
You can’t preach that.

Break it down

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Down to the Bottom/Lifter of my head IV

(you can find the beginning of this story on the page listed the same as this title- thank you Ellen at Stormstories for your encouragement to day to tell this part.

Five years or so passed before I started to seriously date for relationship.  I just didn’t want a man around with all the drama that seemed to be part of that. My baby girl was my world.  I still partied but not extensively (so I felt that was acceptable), I did not party in front of my daughter, and men were not allowed to come to my home. That was our refuge from the world.

Eventually I gave in to a young man, a farmer(go head laugh, I know you want to). I was so desperate for something to be the way it should. (God was already working on my heart, I was tired of living under the curse)  Life seemed good for a while, and he had a son, so I took him in like my own.  Soon, he was drunk everyday, and missing work. It was nothing to come home and find the electric turned off, or all my food eaten by his drunken buddies who were now sleeping on my floor, at 4 in the afternoon.  He started to beat me when I was sleeping, (with good reason, I tore him up awake)for things that I later found out he was doing.  Long story short..I caught him with my best friend, so I lost them both the same day. I never felt pain like that of betrayal. And it felt like my heart had been cut out and left laying for me to look at.  By this time I have two girls and a son that is not mine.  I tried to work through it with him, and no friend…but it increasing got worse. My pain and his actions. He soon had several girlfriends, and told my girls to call me names. He did this in front of me, and it broke my heart even more to hear them call me names out of those precious little mouths.  This time my girls(71/2, 1) and his son(6) watched me push him through a door, and beat him til the police arrived. All charges were dropped. (Thank you Jesus)

My only friend left in the world worked with me, and saw me go through all this, broken ribs, tears that seemed they would not end.  This friend helped me move out while he was at work (another thank you Jesus for him going to work), and helped me set up a new place to live.  This friend was there for me, and seemed to have no motives other than he liked me, just like I was.  I had no idea that he would become the wonderful husband that I have today! (Again thank you Jesus)

I could not write this part of my story for a long time. I could not articulate exactly why. I had forgiven him, and I had moved on with Jesus Christ, I just couldn’t tell this part.  Recently, I was pulled into court to see him face to face over a support order that is now 14 years old. I never took full support, and only asked for 325 a month to cover the sitter expenses, no medical support, nothing else. It was raised to 425 a month 6 years ago by the state.  I totally fell apart knowing that I had to see him again. The rejection, and betrayal seemed to surface, and I needed Jesus to go with me.  Turned out he needed a favor, and for me to lower the support to keep him out of jail.  I asked him to sign her over to us and I would drop the support all together. Forgiving the debt and the one that was past due.  He agreed. 

I looked at this man, and knew that GOD had made such a change in my heart. I no longer looked at him with contempt, I looked at a broken man who needed Jesus. I told him that.  “Jesus is the only one who can fix your problems, and you should really take some time and talk to HIM, it’s working for me..” He shook his head thanked me, and said “who would’ve thunk”. 

God heals the hurts, HE binds up the wounds, and when it is most uncomfortable for me, HE has a plan that is worth following HIM into.  (My next entry to this will be my story of when I came to Christ and made a commitment, and How that changed everything,..truly lifting my head)

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Wedding Dress- Derek Webb

As I listened to this intro/video , first shocked at the raw look at who we have become…we need to wake up, and take GOD seriously…this is not about wealth..and although I believe that HE wants to expand our boundries, HE wants us to be working the back yards we have.It doesn’t mean HE doesn’t send some abroad, or that some will be wealthy.  It can’t be our priority. I don’t  want to be an adulterous bride…harsh? yeah..reality check.

Intro to Wedding Dress- Derek Webb

Wedding Dress- Derek Webb

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Are we thinking? Really?

My girls love Taylor Swift. She is delightful, and I must admit some of her songs that I have heard are just sweet, they appeal to my female tastes, romanticism, and flow easily from my tongue…

Last night, I heard my daughter playing her guitar and singing..

“I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairytale,..

this ain’t hollywood, this is a small town..”

Everything in me started to scream…Oh yes she is a princess, and oh yes I will remind her.  Seemed silly, but its part of our thinking.  We have stopped thinking, and we take in the world, and brush it off. Our thinking becomes more compromising. “its just a song”, “its just how some people talk”, “its not as provactive as some I’ve seen”…you know what I mean. 

While pondering Philippians 4:8…I am stuck all the way back at the beginning again! “think on…” we are not even thinking. I know it sounds like I am overboard here, but we become what we think. That is a proven fact of Psycology.  If  you sing “I’m not a princess” enough times, you will soon act that out.  As a child of the King of Kings, YOU ARE ROYALTY, and the enemy is using his old tricks(because they still work) appealing to your heart, and lying to us, that its not a big deal. Its a big deal.  Know who you are IN CHRIST..Know it, think about it, its imperative to your walk in victory.  The enemy doesn’t want us to walk in victory, he is aiming for our defeat.  So the LORD speaks in Philippians 4:8..”think on these things”…

Know who you are in Christ. Your identity in HIM is beautiful, HE doesn’t lie, HE paid the ulitmate price, and I believe with all my heart, HE wants you to know! Read through these, copy them, keep them in a place where you can look over them often…If you asked Christ to come into your heart and life, and you  have surrendered your life to HIS kingship…this is who you are! THINK!

I am God’s child (John 1:12)
I am Christ’s friend (John 15:15 )
I am united with the Lord (1 Cor. 6:17)
I am bought with a price (1 Cor 6:19-20)
I am a saint (set apart for God). (Eph. 1:1)
I am a personal witness of Christ.  (Acts 1:8)
I am the salt & light of the earth (Matt 5:13-14)
I am a member of the body of Christ (1 Cor 12:27)
I am free forever from condemnation ( Rom. 8: 1-2)
I am a citizen of Heaven. I am significant (Phil 3:20)
I am free from any charge against me (Rom. 8:31 -34)
I am a minister of reconciliation for God (2 Cor 5:17-21)
I have access to God through the Holy Spirit (Eph. 2:18)
I am seated with Christ in the heavenly realms (Eph. 2:6)
I cannot be separated from the love of God (Rom 8:35-39)
I am established, anointed, sealed by God  (2 Cor 1:21-22 )
I am assured all things work together for good  (Rom. 8:28 )
I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit (John 15:16 )
I may approach God with freedom and confidence (Eph. 3: 12 )
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phil. 4:13)
I am the branch of the true vine, a channel of His life (John 15: 1-5)
I am God’s temple (1 Cor. 3: 16).
  I am complete in Christ (Col. 2: 10)
I am hidden with Christ in God (Col. 3:3).. I have been justified (Romans 5:1)
I am God’s co-worker (1 Cor. 3:9; 2 Cor 6:1). I am God’s workmanship (Eph. 2:10)
I am confident that the good works God has begun in me will be perfected. (Phil. 1: 5)
I have been redeemed and forgiven (Col 1:14). I have been adopted as God’s child (Eph 1:5)

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Blogged Bible Study – John 20

First, let’s not forget what happened in John 19.  Let your imagination take you to this place. As one of the spectators, or as a believer…watching as Jesus is put to death. It appears that everything may have been a lie, devastation, fear for the believers. For the spectators, surely the sky turned dark and the earth shook as God the Father turned his face away from HIS only son as HE took on our sin…the wrath of God was being satisfied.  The word spread quickly that the curtain in the temple seperating the commoner from the Holy of Holies was ripped from the top down.  As a mortal person, if in that time and place, I would have thought that God had left us.  As I thought about that, I wonder if the enemy did a dance and thought he had won the battle too.  I wonder if he screamed in terror as Jesus rose from the dead…

As you read John 20, remember these are people who have just gone through the worst nightmare, and the reality of it was they would not be waking up from it.

The female in me loves that Jesus appeared to a woman first, at a time when women really didn’t have any clout or standing. That fact alone is very sweet to me.  (v. 15-17)

Go quickly and see the disciples who managed to stay together, yet locked themselves in a room.  Oh I can just about feel their brokenness. Enter Jesus, no knock on the door, no key to open it, just walked right into the room..Appeared.  (v. 19-23 )  Jesus told them “Peace be with you”, and told them “as the Father has sent me, I send you”,  and HE breathed on them and said “recieve the Holy Spirit”.  None of the things I read while studying this mentioned how they responded…Shock is a good possiblity since they had been through so much. 

Jesus returns to the room at a different time, 8 days later..back in the room, door locked still…a lock door always speaks fear to me.  And this time HE seeks out Thomas who is in unbelief. (before we start to throw anything at Thomas, remember what he has been through, and how much less we have been through and still unbelief sets in)  Jesus showed compassion and patience with Thomas (this does my heart good), and while speaking to Thomas, HE spoke a message for you. Incredible huh?

26Eight days later, his disciples were inside again, and Thomas was with them. Although the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” 27Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here, and see my hands; and put out your hand, and place it in my side. Do not disbelieve, but believe.” 28Thomas answered him, “My Lord and my God!” 29Jesus said to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”

 

Jesus is the only ONE to ever raise from the dead, there are no other gods in all the world that people bow to who are alive!  And at the most crucial moment in showing himself risen to the disciples, HE mentioned you and I..”Blessed are those who believe and have not seen”

“up from the grave he arose,

with a mighty triumph o’er his foe…

lives forever with his saints to reign..

He arose!  He arose! Hallelujah Christ arose”  AMEN?

(don’t forget to go check out the others in the Blogging Bible Study this week..I am excited to see what they write for this chapter , so much to dig in to! )

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