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Journeying Home

Long week of sorrows.  I realize it will be like a rollercoaster. But the ride is tiring.

Disgruntled. This life is exhausting to only bring me barely breathing.

Remembering all that I have in Christ, and feeling small in all of it.

Wondering why I long to feel like I am home, belonging, beautiful, secure.

I was created for all of it, this is just not my home, I belong to Heaven.

Its ok to feel all this.

Wanting to be found in Him, and grateful for all the beauty around me and the people who care about me.

Journeying to the place I was created for, Heaven is my home…

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It’s Personal

“Indeed, every good and perfect thing that has ever come into our lives has come as a gift to us from God Himself. It did not bubble up like crude oil from this earth. It flowed down like rain from the riverbanks of Heaven. It was intentional. It was personal. Yet we see ourselves at the mercy of random events, abilities, and coincidences.”-Beth Moore

It is way too easy to lose focus.  Wars around the world, the news with so many things to tear your security away from you. Health issues.  Yet, we have this…

Our Almighty God, King of kings, Supreme and Sovereign yet Loving and Compassionate. Creator of the universe, including us. Every thing strategically placed in His plan, blessings and cursings. He doesn’t need us, He wants us.  He sings over us and keeps watch while we sleep, everything to bring us closer to Him. His glory will shine, with or without us, but what an honor to shine His glory.  He has done everything to give us a way to be with Him.

The last six months have been difficult with my health.  Changing medicine, trying to understand what is going on with my body, trying not to be angry and bitter.  This week, while surrending to “this must be what you have for me”, He showed me something miraculous!  My doctors did not share with me the danger of being removed from one medication to another.  My Pharmacist put something in my bag, that was just the dangers of leaving that medication, honestly I felt most of those side effects that should have been treated. In my ignorance of all of this, I just rode it out. Some nights I just prayed to sustain me.  I am past the six months of danger, still weak, still having issues with the heat and humidity. This will take a year, but I have not used anything other than my allergy-asthma medication.

I felt the hug from Him, the reassurance that He has been giving me everything I need to live, the love of a Father (who truly can fix anything).

This is personal, He can do anything, He acts on our behalf without asking for the things we need, He already knows and is already doing it.

He is still in control, nothing that is going on in the world or our communities is shocking Him. Focus on Him, and the greatest gift of all, His never ending love. Loving us so much as to make that bridge (Jesus) so we would not be apart from Him.  Beautiful.

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the ONLY unchanging ONE

Just came from my friend Gracie’s blog, and she inspired this in me.  (click the link and see if that post doesn’t move your heart..thats God calling..definintely)

So often we forget what God means when HE tells us to love.  So often we pick and choose what that love should look like in us.  While reading her blog I thought of a song that said “Jesus said to love like him, then HE died for me…can i be like my Jesus” (from My Jesus, by Todd Agnew)

While pondering on this…it all comes down to know HIM, loving HIM, and understanding that there is nothing we can do to earn HIS love, and if we got what we are entitled…to put it bluntly..we would get Hell an eternal seperation from our Holy God.

My love for HIM is rekindled pondering on who HE is.  HE doesn’t need us or anything we can do, HE wants us…the ONLY unchanging ONE

The Only unchanging One, by Todd Agnew

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Visual of Resurrection Power

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Angels Watching Over Us

Angels are mentioned 203 times in the Bible.  As a child, the pictures that were shown to me of angels, certainly did not seem to put my mind at ease.  All of them were little fairy like females that appeared timid to me.  I did not find any security in knowing that they were protecting me. It didn’t take me long to decide I needed to protect myself.   Life is tough, I for one am thrilled that Angels are not weak little girls with wings.

While reading and studying the Bible, it became apparent to me that these Angels were anything but wimpy creatures. They are strong, and empowered by God to carry out any task that HE sent them to carry out.  Interesting how most people who are believers, read their Bibles and insist on those little cutesy winged sweeties as angels, sitting on their shelves.  I wonder where it began. They really look like fairies to me and not angels.

The picture above is one of my favorites by Thomas Blachshear II. I have often looked at this picture and thought of the verses of how angesl surround a camp, protect against evil, fight the enemy, kick the devil out of heaven….finally Angels that I can feel secure about, knowing that GOD sends them to fight and protect, and then empowers them to carry it out.  Beautiful!

Have you ever thought about angels? They evidently have a will of their own, the enemy was one.  What do you think of when someone says “Angel” ?

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Overwhelming Love

When my I was pregnant with my first child, her father died. There are no words for what I felt or thought during those remaining three months of pregnancy. No one could console me. I locked myself in my room, and only family saw me, when they intruded in my space.  No words came from my lips. No tears fell from my eyes. Total numbness.

At some point in the last month, I came to life again, or what I felt life would be from this point on… As I slept , I had a dream and I saw her in my dream, this perfectly beautiful baby girl with a face just like her daddy’s, and I felt a love for her that I didn’t know I could posess. My mom felt sorry for me, and consistently told me “its just a dream…God will not show you her before she is born.” But HE did. When I gave birth to her, instead of looking in to her eyes for the first time, I knew I already did. My heart broke in a million pieces, my very cold, hard heart, shattered. How could someone so wonderful come from someone like me? My past was so dirty.

I know that God shattered my heart, and then piece by piece HE is still putting it back together. It took me 18 years to allow HIM to console me, and to begin the healing process.

I know how very much I love my children. I am totally nuts over them! There is nothing I will not attempt to do to make thier lives easier, and to put a smile on thier face.  There is no danger I will not step into to keep them safe. As I looked at my first daughter yesterday, and saw her smile, I remembered how much we have gone through. How much love she stirred in me from the beginning that I had no idea I was capable of.  God stirred my heart…HE loves her even more than I do..all of us..an Overwhelming Love that we can not comprehend in our wildest dreams.  In comparison of how much I love my children, God’s love for us is so much higher, deeper, wider,  longer…perfect love….I stand amazed and in awe of that LOVE that HE had to teach me. Not only that I possess a fraction of the love, but to help me wrap my head around the intensity of HIS.

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