Lia Kate Mann October 30th, 2010
Blogging is in order…but my head has still not wrapped it all up. thoughts..
* God is good
*Lia Kate is beautiful
*Lacey and Josh were awesome
*God is good
*so many people love this little one
*so proud of my kids
*God is good
* two days of laboring
*i want my blanky
* God is good
Just came from my friend Gracie’s blog, and she inspired this in me. (click the link and see if that post doesn’t move your heart..thats God calling..definintely)
So often we forget what God means when HE tells us to love. So often we pick and choose what that love should look like in us. While reading her blog I thought of a song that said “Jesus said to love like him, then HE died for me…can i be like my Jesus” (from My Jesus, by Todd Agnew)
While pondering on this…it all comes down to know HIM, loving HIM, and understanding that there is nothing we can do to earn HIS love, and if we got what we are entitled…to put it bluntly..we would get Hell an eternal seperation from our Holy God.
My love for HIM is rekindled pondering on who HE is. HE doesn’t need us or anything we can do, HE wants us…the ONLY unchanging ONE
The Only unchanging One, by Todd Agnew
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Sitting here before the LORD, and wondering what makes the Almighty Creator of all things give attention to my trivial every day life? I am grateful that HE does, and no doubt He has been showing off lots lately.
After a year of praying for my man to get a different job and to find a church family, God has provided both. The new job starts in March, and in March a new opportunity to lead women has also opened. Finding my heart and mind flat before the LORD…There comes a time in knowing Him that there is no words for what He does, and words are few….
In my human mind, i can not comprehend what HE is doing, or why He would want to save me from my past. There will never be a day that i will be able to repay Him, and my surrender to HIS love for me is all that He is asking. He wants all my dreary, shame-filled life in return for His everything..HE wants to be my everything..HE wants me to love Him with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. He lifts my head in front of HIS other children, and I become broken. He sings over me, He watches over me 24/7, my praise causes Him to dance over me, and at this very moment, i sense He is smiling and telling the Son, ” thats my girl, she believes me today”.
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Its not enough to just walk through the day and to just think at its end, “that’s it! nothing more!” We tend to forget to seize the day! Be intentional..Looking for what God is doing around us, and anticipating that one person HE may put in your path who is ready to know HIM. When we do this, we are never disappointed, and not at all weary at the end of the day. Kingdom living, be intentional, spend time with HIM, and keep the conversation open all day long. Seizing that moment when someone just looks at you and needs a smile, or “hey how you doing?” then wait for them to respond, not walk on by.
I know our schedules are crazy at times, but we serve a GOD who doesn’t run out of time, and when I actually do these things, my day comes together in a supernatural way. One more thing for me to stand of awe about at the end of the day.
Go on now! get out there and just ask someone “Do you know my Jesus?”
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When my I was pregnant with my first child, her father died. There are no words for what I felt or thought during those remaining three months of pregnancy. No one could console me. I locked myself in my room, and only family saw me, when they intruded in my space. No words came from my lips. No tears fell from my eyes. Total numbness.
At some point in the last month, I came to life again, or what I felt life would be from this point on… As I slept , I had a dream and I saw her in my dream, this perfectly beautiful baby girl with a face just like her daddy’s, and I felt a love for her that I didn’t know I could posess. My mom felt sorry for me, and consistently told me “its just a dream…God will not show you her before she is born.” But HE did. When I gave birth to her, instead of looking in to her eyes for the first time, I knew I already did. My heart broke in a million pieces, my very cold, hard heart, shattered. How could someone so wonderful come from someone like me? My past was so dirty.
I know that God shattered my heart, and then piece by piece HE is still putting it back together. It took me 18 years to allow HIM to console me, and to begin the healing process.
I know how very much I love my children. I am totally nuts over them! There is nothing I will not attempt to do to make thier lives easier, and to put a smile on thier face. There is no danger I will not step into to keep them safe. As I looked at my first daughter yesterday, and saw her smile, I remembered how much we have gone through. How much love she stirred in me from the beginning that I had no idea I was capable of. God stirred my heart…HE loves her even more than I do..all of us..an Overwhelming Love that we can not comprehend in our wildest dreams. In comparison of how much I love my children, God’s love for us is so much higher, deeper, wider, longer…perfect love….I stand amazed and in awe of that LOVE that HE had to teach me. Not only that I possess a fraction of the love, but to help me wrap my head around the intensity of HIS.