Category Archives: Acceptance
Next Chapter…New job, new interests, new people…its not as scary as I thought. You know, Letting go and taking life as it comes? Sure I have to work at it, but overall its all good!
Accepting that everything is what it is.
This is not my home.
Don’t know where this life is going, just glad that its moving forward.
Believing that God is placing the ones in my life that are supposed to be in it.
Loving the laughter, conversations, and heart to heart authenticity.
Not sure what tomorrow brings, but today, my heart is happy.
Ten years ago, God woke me up at 3 in the morning, and spoke to my heart very clearly. He said “my bride is in bondage, she is asleep in it, wake her up, she must get ready. Believe me” I know now that I did not fully understand. I assumed it was about me. Bondage seemed to be my middle name. I believed that the past some how molded me, and destroyed my future. So living was more of doing with what I have.
A few months later, I received a free ticket for a Beth Moore conference “Hearts set free”. I didn’t know who she was, but I like free! and I knew in my heart, my own bondage needed to be resolved so that I could get ready and be wakened up. She came on the stage, the very first words out of her mouth “God’s bride is in bondage, she is asleep and must wake up, she needs to get ready! Oh dear ones, God wants you to believe HIM.” She now had my undivided attention!
Over the years, I have learned to believe Him more, but there is always more to believe Him for. Trust is an issue. Abuse has taken a toll on many hearts, not just mine. Knowing Him, is to believe Him. He is believable! After studying through the Old Testament, God is trustworthy, 100% Truth, focused on his plan, and no one can defer Him. Our actions do not change His thinking or His work.
After we went through some things as a family, I seemed to have forgotten to just simply believe God. I am doing this again. My heart is reaching out to the abused, and asking “please believe Him”. Forgiveness is not a feeling its a choice. Choose it, even if you need to do it several times a day, God is strong enough to make it a heart thing for you, through your obedience to forgive. It doesn’t have to be a one on one with the abuser, it just needs to be between you and God. This will free your heart.
Don’t you want to feel peace again? Or maybe feel peace for the first time? Lay it all at the feet of God, He wants so much more for you than the life you live, HE wants your heart to be free. He wants to take the bad and make it good. He did not create you for the life you had, or chains that wrap your heart. The church can not fix this for you, only God can fix His own creation.
You are beautiful to Him, He rejoices that you are even thinking about Him. Don’t wait…Go to Him now..He’s patiently waiting for you…Believe Him.
Do you know this verse? “For by Grace, we are saved through faith, not of ourselves, it is the gift of God” -definition of Grace…it’s a gift, we could never pay it, ever! what a wonderful gift!
A few weeks ago, the temps went to 70 degrees, and it was awesome after a very cold winter. My friend had a tradgey in her family, so my plans were canceled. Deciding quickly to get out in this gorgeous day! Took my son with me (after bribing him with a Slushie). We headed to the river for a quiet and relaxing afternoon. The weather turned very windy, so we decided to go to a location we never go to along the river, that would be out of the wind.
We had the whole place to ourself! Sunshine! Melted river! What a blessing! Soon after we arrived, an old man riding a bike equally as old, came through…and decided to sit right next to us. Finding this rather odd…I paid attention.
He started to witness to me. And we talked some deep things that I studied a few years ago, and I was surprised it was still in the memory bank. Then we got to the Grace factor. Ahhhh, this gentleman was Jehovah witness. My grandpa was also a Jehovah witness, so I am familiar. Our talk changed…He tried very hard to convince me that works are how we get to heaven, and nothing special about it, we will just be glad we made it. (insert huge eyes here )
No doubt, God orchestrated that afternoon. We had a divine appointment. The gentleman left and very sweetly thanked me for the conversation, asked if I would visit his church sometime. I told him no, I love the church I am at, and maybe he should visit me. He spent his whole life seeking for truth. And I prayed as he left…”please let him find the Truth”. Grace, a foreign word to a man who knew his scriptures so well, some what out of context, but knew scripture none the less. He could not fathom, Grace.
Romans 4:4-8 (NLT)
When people work, their wages are not a gift, but something they have earned. But people are counted as righteous, not because of their work, but because of their faith in God who forgives sinners. David also spoke when he described the happiness of those who are declared righteous without working for it:
“oh, what joy for those whose disobedience is forgiven, whose sins are put out of sight. Yes, what joy for those whose record the LORD has cleared of sin.”
All of this, and I was still standing at my wall, and this was the beginning of breakthrough, I realized, I do believe, and I still care about a world that is misled. This appointment was not only for him, it was also for me.
There are times when quiet relection seems to be all that one can do, especially if you are a person who feels the need to do something. I am that type of person.
Lately a whole new level with the LORD has begun to open up, and following HIM is the only true option. Awareness has become a strong sense to me, and equally hard to describe. Looking in the the mirror, or a window, or water…the person who is reflected back to me, is new to me. My past seems to be seperated from me, and who i once was is a stranger to me. Healing? maybe…
Moving on with HIM, where ever this takes me. At times just surrending, lifting my arms to HIM and saying, “even if i resist, just take me”. Do you ever find yourself resisting? Wish i could say that i don’t, but too many times i do.
Its time to get on with this thing called Faith and believing, its time to blindly allow HIM to lead, and trusting that HE is good (not necessarily safe). In this time of reflection, HE reminds me over and over…”Believe me here, I do not fail you”…
This morning he woke me to a song that HE woke me with many years ago…and it touched my heart so deeply. The memories of that time flooded my heart, a time when HE was new to me, a time when things seemed very uncertain, and i time when i knew without a doubt that HIS arms and love flowed over me.
HE is the same God, yesterday, today, and forever, never changing…the God of my yesterday, today and forever…HE’s been there all along, and yes i do know HIM, and yes HE is believeable and trustworthy..
How long has it been that you have allowed silence into your home, nothing but the Word, nothing but Praise music? I promise you, its worth the effort, and a time of relecting always follows.
if you are interested this is the song that HE has waken me to…
I don’t know if anyone else needs this today..but i do!
Princess, stand in Awe (previously posted in 2008 on my blogspot…before moving here..)
We leave the radio on in the kitchen always, I am not sure why we do that except maybe the dog needs company and is confined to the kitchen. 🙂 It is always on a Christian Contemporary Radio station, so this morning while in search for my coffee, it spoke to my heart. “Stand in Awe and worship, come adore, King of kings and Lord of lords”. Praying this morning for a heart that will constantly stand in Awe of my Awesome God. The world just pulls us in so many different directions, and the negative seems to out weigh the postive most days, but the focus is to stand in Awe and worship! Music ministers to my soul in great proportions, and I do thank HIM for giving me song in my heart, and praise on my lips. GOD is so very good to me and I am so undeserving of anything. I love that most about HIM this morning. God is happy with God, and therefore it pleases HIM to call me HIS own, to adopt me into HIS family, and to put my feet on solid ground.
I spoke of the out reach in earlier posts, and wanting to start with the children in my area. I have stressed over boards in the church, I have stressed over prayer support…and this morning I am repentant for unbelief. What I felt was the first step proved to be no step…hahaha God totally opened the door, and all we had to do was walk through it! Prayer support-God provided in my siesta sistas, dollas, diva princess’. I saw with my own eyes yesterday the power of your prayers, and I thank you for interceeding on our behalf. I love how the whole thing works, although I don’t understand it and don’t think I want to…I think I would rather stand in Awe and worship our Father of Unfailing Love, who does not send us with out HIS own plan in place. HE does not fail us!
My King, Yahweh, Abba,
It is a gift just to stand in Awe and worship You. In all your power and beauty, I am overwhelmed in the fact that You move Heaven and Earth on our behalf. “who is man that you would be mindful of him”…thank you that you are so very detailed in our lives. Forgive my foolishness and unbelief, if there is any pride in me, please bring it in my face and deal with it. I know that the road to You is not the easier of the two, but it is the blessed one, resulting in crossing the finish line and You are my great Reward! Thank you for my sisters in You, and how they encourage me, and for the prayer cover you have provided. Thank you for opening the door, and allowing us to see it and walk through. Thank you for the sunshine this moring that is such an awesome display of your faithfulness to me, and a constant reminder to walk in Your light. Jesus, again today I want more than anything to live for you, and to be a picture of YOU to someone else. Touch my lips with coal from your altar, and purify me to stand in your presence-the presence of my HOLY GOD, and stand in Awe and worship. Send me. Overwhelmed in your Goodness, Your Princess