Next Chapter…New job, new interests, new people…its not as scary as I thought. You know, Letting go and taking life as it comes? Sure I have to work at it, but overall its all good!
Accepting that everything is what it is.
This is not my home.
Don’t know where this life is going, just glad that its moving forward.
Believing that God is placing the ones in my life that are supposed to be in it.
Loving the laughter, conversations, and heart to heart authenticity.
Not sure what tomorrow brings, but today, my heart is happy.
Whenever a commitment is taken, in order to come closer or to follow God, HE immediately starts saying “Jump”! Terrified is an understatement! Life changes rapidly, and my skin doesn’t even feel comfortable. The heat is turned up! Pressure from every side. No other possible move in this. Jumping is the only option.
So tomorrow I take a huge jump. I do know HE will catch me, I do know HE has a plan, and I do know that HE loves me. Looking for a new job, interviewing, money is a huge reason. But more reasons have surfaced that are more than just a little disturbing.
I have become vulnerable. I hate it. Vulnerable has not been in my vocabulary. Some have found ways to back me in a corner, and demand that I do things that are against everything I am…to keep my income. All while knowing they are taking advantage of a very bad situation. HE reminds me that vengeance is his, altho I really want a piece of it.
Some other things are pressing. All have become almost intolerable, since the comittment.
I take committments seriously, never take them lightly.
So I jump into the unknown, believing that no matter what there is an abundant life with my name on it. And I am going to claim it.
This is not my home, I belong to heaven. Leaning like crazy and holding on with two hands.