No walls this time, but definitely a fork in the road. One is a little rocky, and not too pleasant to the eye, but the other is closed. So I am taking the only road I can. Maybe its just the “unknown” factor that makes this new road less appealing….
I have allergies. They cripple my lifestyle to an extent. I have to be careful how much time I spend outside, My AC runs constantly to filter the allergens in my home. There is no medication that brings me 100% relief. The medication I do take is the same as a car payment every month.
God has blessed me with a job that works with all this. No weekends, and no summers, unless I feel up to a day here or there.
Why am I sharing this? I really don’t want to. I keep it to myself and try to be as healthy as I can. My allergies are getting worse. They cause me to have sinus migranes, and literally make me sick. My symptoms are heart pounding, shortness of breath, head pounding, and stomach turning. I have no warning when that will happen, and whatever plans I may have made come to an immediate halt. Overall, when telling someone that I can not participate in an activity, I get the “look”. I have become a person that many can not count on. Its heart breaking, and disappointing to say the least. Tiring in trying to explain.
After struggling with all this means to my life, and having lots of conversations with God on this matter, I am believing that He wants something else from me. Outreach can come to my door, and He has shown me that. I don’t know where all this is going…don’t know if I am supposed to return to writing. But I do know that my family is a gift from God. I want to use my energies in being a good wife, and a good mom, and the best Mimi I can be.
I do love my church, and I get there as often as I can. Opening a new chapter to my life….
Priorities, Changes, Oh my! So glad God knows what He is doing, I am just going to rest in HIM.
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