This is my wall, I’ve been looking at it for so long that I don’t remember when I first got here. So many struggles and so many mixed emotions. All the while believing…believing God is in control, and hoping for the day I will be able to pass from it. Too high to get over it, too wide to get around it, so in my face that it can’t be ignored.
This is what it looks like today. I can now get passed it. The terrain is still a little rough, but the hope of what is on the other side, is anticipated!
Oh sure, I know there will be more walls, and more struggles, and lots to learn. But progressing is the only option. How can one be satisfied to stand or sit at the wall, or even believe that is all that God has for them in this life?
God is always good. God never lies, or deceives in any form. God does not change. God knows all that I have done, and has removed it as far as the east is from the west. God is still changing me into the creation that HE sees me as…God sees the finished product.
Still a little cautious (of this new path on the other side of the wall), Still believing God is trustworthy. God has made many changes in me and in the life that I have. We are now part of a wonderful fellowship of Christians, and no doubt a gift from God. It’s looking more each day that God is opening a door for me to do the type of work I love, and still grow in my faith(without it being challenged constantly). I don’t know the plans HE has for me, but I know that HE has plans.
Key to being at the wall…don’t fight it, stop exhausting yourself trying to bust through it, stop asking to be delivered from it, Ask to learn all that you need to learn so that the wall will fall down, just like the walls of Jericho.
Lessons at the wall, not completed, but stirring a piece of my heart that needed stirred.