Jesus in me…are you sure?

A group of children needed a ride from the rec center/daycare at a park near me, to take a day trip to a place where they train bloodhounds to “Search and Rescue”.  My employer sent me with a bus to do this trip.  Sluggishly, i accepted the trip. Its extremely hot, and humid. But the Lord gently nudged me and reminded me of HIS provision for myself and my family. I knew I would be leaning hard to get through this trip.

Upon my arrival to pick up this crew of kids, several faces were familiar to me. (they were some of my kiddos I take to school) Many high fives as they climbed on, a few parents who looked so happy to see me, still praying in my heart…”Please Lord get me through this day, heat and humidity are not my friend as an asthmatic, my allergies are going crazy…I know you can get us there and back…thank you for providing work for me”…

A woman climbed on the bus last. She was very friendly, and let me know she would be in charge of this crew ( I was relieved).  As I was driving, she leaned up and spoke softly.  “there are children on this bus that will not get on the other buses when we take trips, their parents drive them and meet us there. But when they saw you in the bus, they told their mom’s that they were going to ride the bus, with Darla.”  I smiled, yet not really knowing what to say, so I brushed it off…they just know me, I drive some of them to school, i am familiar to them.

When we arrived, i received hugs from some of them, and decided to sit outside the bus til they returned.  Listening to some good Praise music in my ipod, reading a book, the most amazing breeze stayed with me the entire time I waited. Oh how I was giving some praise for that!  Then we headed back.

The same woman leaned front again, and she said…”i don’t think they know who you really are, and I am very excited for them to know you. I am not allowed to speak of my faith to these kids, but I can pray, and I do…when I got on this bus I knew you were here, and who you are”.   Okay, I was a little stunned, and wondering who in the world do you think I am. But responded, “I am not allowed to speak my faith either, but I do pray, and have been doing alot of it today.”  She replied again, “I know who you are, or who is in you, see only Jesus could keep those kids from fear, they fear all the time, but they were thrilled to see Darla, and wanted to get on the bus without a doubt”

I choked tears as I drove them back.  All the days I have prayed for those kids, all the times I prayed for Jesus to be seen in me…all the struggles and wrestling with God I have been doing…and in a heart beat…while i am whining about the heat…Jesus was so apparent, and I almost missed it.

I am more encouraged today than I have been in a long time…I am not going to pretend the whole thing did not shock me, or that I feel more awake in HIM then I have felt in a year.  In the middle of my desert…a spring of living water….yummmmm I needed that drink!



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9 responses to “Jesus in me…are you sure?

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  2. This is an incredibly beautiful post, Darla. I am so glad for you and that you received His touch in such dynamic ways. Wow.

    I, too, once experienced that cool breeze when there was no wind, but only for a few minutes. But it was enough to keep me going and to let me know of His faithfulness.

  3. Charlotte, i been carrying this around with me for a week…still shaking my head, amazed, humbled, and at the same time…i really needed to know and see HIS supernatural touch again…more than i knew i needed it…i love HIM so much, and so grateful for the way we can’t out sin HIS forgiveness, we never wander farther than HE can reach, and most of all…HE never lets go…

  4. You hit a key element that is vital. He IS supernatural. No, that does not mean we should delve into the supernatural. And we shouldn’t. Then it becomes US. But we DO need to recognize Him and His workings in our lives when these things occur.

    Too often Christians miss out on so many reminders of His presence and love for us because they do not recognize and acknowledge the supernatural side of Him. I’m glad you did not.

  5. I love it, Darla!

    I know He is shining through you to those kiddos, I’ve seen it in your interaction with your own kids. They need to see His love and experience the peace that comes from one who is close to God. The God of the Universe has made His home in you and is radiating even when you don’t feel it. So very cool.

    I pray you are well…that the heat is not wreaking havoc on your lungs.

    Love you. 🙂

  6. Michelle!! i have missed you! and this was a lesson/reminder i needed much. I am doing fairly well with my breathing, but i know that is God. The humidity has kept me in more this summer, except for work. But I do wish you were sitting here again…would love to just have a chat about nothing…ya know? Love you

    Charlotte, i fully understand what you are saying, and I love that you understand me…I am also loving reading through your blog when i have are a blessing

  7. You’ve got mail!


  8. Did you get my email

  9. Just did…check yours again.

    Love you! 😉

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