Monthly Archives: July 2010

Jesus in me…are you sure?

A group of children needed a ride from the rec center/daycare at a park near me, to take a day trip to a place where they train bloodhounds to “Search and Rescue”.  My employer sent me with a bus to do this trip.  Sluggishly, i accepted the trip. Its extremely hot, and humid. But the Lord gently nudged me and reminded me of HIS provision for myself and my family. I knew I would be leaning hard to get through this trip.

Upon my arrival to pick up this crew of kids, several faces were familiar to me. (they were some of my kiddos I take to school) Many high fives as they climbed on, a few parents who looked so happy to see me, still praying in my heart…”Please Lord get me through this day, heat and humidity are not my friend as an asthmatic, my allergies are going crazy…I know you can get us there and back…thank you for providing work for me”…

A woman climbed on the bus last. She was very friendly, and let me know she would be in charge of this crew ( I was relieved).  As I was driving, she leaned up and spoke softly.  “there are children on this bus that will not get on the other buses when we take trips, their parents drive them and meet us there. But when they saw you in the bus, they told their mom’s that they were going to ride the bus, with Darla.”  I smiled, yet not really knowing what to say, so I brushed it off…they just know me, I drive some of them to school, i am familiar to them.

When we arrived, i received hugs from some of them, and decided to sit outside the bus til they returned.  Listening to some good Praise music in my ipod, reading a book, the most amazing breeze stayed with me the entire time I waited. Oh how I was giving some praise for that!  Then we headed back.

The same woman leaned front again, and she said…”i don’t think they know who you really are, and I am very excited for them to know you. I am not allowed to speak of my faith to these kids, but I can pray, and I do…when I got on this bus I knew you were here, and who you are”.   Okay, I was a little stunned, and wondering who in the world do you think I am. But responded, “I am not allowed to speak my faith either, but I do pray, and have been doing alot of it today.”  She replied again, “I know who you are, or who is in you, see only Jesus could keep those kids from fear, they fear all the time, but they were thrilled to see Darla, and wanted to get on the bus without a doubt”

I choked tears as I drove them back.  All the days I have prayed for those kids, all the times I prayed for Jesus to be seen in me…all the struggles and wrestling with God I have been doing…and in a heart beat…while i am whining about the heat…Jesus was so apparent, and I almost missed it.

I am more encouraged today than I have been in a long time…I am not going to pretend the whole thing did not shock me, or that I feel more awake in HIM then I have felt in a year.  In the middle of my desert…a spring of living water….yummmmm I needed that drink!

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Journey~knowing HIM more..Hiding HIS Word

Trying to memorize this chapter. So much in this that applies one day or another. Another part of my Journey -to knowing HIM more…

PSALM 27 (NLT)

A psalm of David. The LORD is my light and my salvation– so why should I be afraid? The LORD protects me from danger– so why should I tremble?

When evil people come to destroy me, when my enemies and foes attack me, they will stumble and fall.

Though a mighty army surrounds me, my heart will know no fear. Even if they attack me, I remain confident.

The one thing I ask of the LORD– the thing I seek most– is to live in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, delighting in the LORD’s perfections and meditating in his Temple.

For he will conceal me there when troubles come; he will hide me in his sanctuary. He will place me out of reach on a high rock.

Then I will hold my head high, above my enemies who surround me. At his Tabernacle I will offer sacrifices with shouts of joy, singing and praising the LORD with music.

Listen to my pleading, O LORD. Be merciful and answer me!

My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.” And my heart responds, “LORD, I am coming.”

Do not hide yourself from me. Do not reject your servant in anger. You have always been my helper. Don’t leave me now; don’t abandon me, O God of my salvation!

Even if my father and mother abandon me, the LORD will hold me close.

Teach me how to live, O LORD. Lead me along the path of honesty, for my enemies are waiting for me to fall.

Do not let me fall into their hands. For they accuse me of things I’ve never done and breathe out violence against me.

Yet I am confident that I will see the LORD’s goodness while I am here in the land of the living.

Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.

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The Journey~to know HIM more

Somehow in this crazy messed up world we live in, its so easy to be consumed by everything and around us.  Then the Ultimate question surfaces “God where are you? you seem far away”.  God does not move, we move. Revisiting the Cross, and the love of God is vital to my journey to know HIM more.  I don’t claim to know all there is to know, but I what i do know is…life doesn’t work for me without a focus on God’s love for me even while i was still his enemy.

So today , while keeping the cross in the front of my mind, looking at scriptures that remind me of my sin, and how much i don’t believe (and i really want to), here is just a few..

Luke 9:25 What gain is it for someone to have won the world, and to have lost or ruined his/her very self. (paraphrased)

Romans 5:6-11  (my thoughts) looking at this with the eyes of how much sin is the refusal of God’s love.

Matthew 9:18-22  (my thoughts)  the woman with a bleeding condition, was healed because she believed…how much of our sin is metaphorically causing us to bleed, and not reach for the healer?

John 4:1-42 the woman at the well-(my thoughts) i don’t know what happened in her life that caused her to spiral from one man to another, but regardless of what someone else may have done to her, i am seeing today that her deception is not knowing who she truly is to her creator, and not know her true identitiy in Christ.  This is my own issue as well somedays, and so many times have teached it, and so many times have fallen here.

Part of this journey is to know with out a doubt , not just words memorized, but rooted in the heart…my true identity in Christ, to know HIS love like never before, and to accept that love, because I am worth it to HIM…so are you…want to join me on this journey?

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