The battle is lost or won in the secret places of the will before God, never first in the external world. The Spirit of God apprehends me and I am obliged to get alone with God and fight the battle out before Him. Until this is done, I lose every time. The battle may take one minute or a year, that will depend on me, not on God, and i must resolutely go through the hell of a renunciation before God. Nothing has any power over the man who has fought out the battle before God and won there. If I say, I will wait til I get into the circumstances and the put God to the test, I shall find that I cannot. I must get the thing settled between myself and God in the secret places of my soul where no stranger inter-meddles, and then I can go forth with the certainty that the battle is won…Get alone with God, fight it out before Him, settle the matter there once and for all…Every now and again, not often, God brings us to a point of climax. That is the Great Divide in the life; from that point on we either go towards more and more dilatory and useless type of Christian life, or we become more and more ablaze for the glory of God–My Utmost for His Highest. ~Oswald Chambers
My past has been settled once and for all before the throne of God. This has happened a while back, and I needed this quote to remind me. In my humanness, I tend to get led away by well meaning people, and start to wander of from my first true love. I made Him a promise long ago, when HE set me free from the bondage that seemed like normal living to me. HE put my feet on a solid foundation, and a song in my heart, praise on my lips, and HE taught me to dance with HIM. And in return, I promised Him to stay close to HIS word, and to come to Him first, to not let any thing come from my mouth that was not pleasing to Him. Sounds like I set myself up for a fall. But it is do-able when I am following closely to Him.
My desire and my prayer is…that I will glorify God in all that I say and do. When HE calls “who will I send”, my answer will be “Lord, send me”. I want to use my gifts that HE has given to me, for His glory and not mine. Each and every gift that HE has set aside for me, I want to use for Him. I want all that HE has to give me!
My GOD, and My King, Lover of my soul, my secret Keeper…no one has ever loved me like you do, and no one ever will…there is none beside You. I stand in Awe . So many times I try to fit into a category of people..not fitting into the conservative or the Liberal, but always finding my perfect fit, and total peace in the quiet place with You. You have freed me from my past, and we have fought the thing through on several levels, and I am more than a conqueror in your eyes. Pleasing you is far better than man, fitting in is not important. What is important is to stay focused and Kingdom minded. Thank you for reminding me, that I find my worth in You. I am priceless in your eyes, and you died for me. No compromise on the road to You, no looking left or right, only where you lead. The joy that is found in You is overflowing and my desires are quenched in You. I choose to stay right here, in Your shadow, controlling my tongue, guarding my eyes as they have passage to my heart, keeping my heart open to You. Thank You for your great patience, and thanks for the short leash that rips my heart out when I have started to take the smallest of steps from your side. I don’t want that to ever change. You are enough for me! Trading the world for your presence. Your princess who wants her Utmost for Your Highest!