Monthly Archives: July 2009

Are you Broken-hearted?


We all suffer at times. Sometimes our hearts are broke in a million                pieces, and hopelessness sets in.  Wondering…how will we ever put it all back together the way it was? We won’t. But God will put it back together, but not the same as it was, better!

Psalm 34:18
The
Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.

Psalm 147:1
He Heals the Brokenhearted
Praise the
Lord! For it is good to sing praises to our God; for it is pleasant, and a song of praise is fitting.

Psalm 147:3
He heals the
brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Isaiah 61:1
The Year of the
Lord‘s Favor
The Spirit of the Lord
God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor; he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound

(These verse were taken from the ESV, and the underlined/italicized  words are my emphasis.)

I wish so much I could take your face in my hands and cause you to look up, to dry your tears, and whisper “HE is here, reach for HIM.” Although this is the worst time you can imagine, you are in the perfect place to see HIS Glory, to know HIS touch to your heart, to experience HIS warmth and love wrap around you like a blanket.  I know HE is there with you. I have been where you are, and will be there again no doubt, as we live in this world that is falling apart, and have an enemy that is bent on destroying us, our marriages, our children, and what ever we hold dear.  I believe nothing touches HIS heart as tenderly as HIS child holding out her/his hands with a tear stained face.   Crying out I hurt.

I know as a mother, I would swoop up my kids in my arms, and wipe tears, and speak softly, and do all in my power to comfort them.  How much greater is our GOD to love on HIS children and then go a step beyond,…heal the broken heart, and restore things to a level that is glorifying to HIM.  No one messes with HIS babies…and walks away without knowing that HE is the KING of KINGS, and your Daddy, your heart healer…((HUGS))

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Overwhelming Love

When my I was pregnant with my first child, her father died. There are no words for what I felt or thought during those remaining three months of pregnancy. No one could console me. I locked myself in my room, and only family saw me, when they intruded in my space.  No words came from my lips. No tears fell from my eyes. Total numbness.

At some point in the last month, I came to life again, or what I felt life would be from this point on… As I slept , I had a dream and I saw her in my dream, this perfectly beautiful baby girl with a face just like her daddy’s, and I felt a love for her that I didn’t know I could posess. My mom felt sorry for me, and consistently told me “its just a dream…God will not show you her before she is born.” But HE did. When I gave birth to her, instead of looking in to her eyes for the first time, I knew I already did. My heart broke in a million pieces, my very cold, hard heart, shattered. How could someone so wonderful come from someone like me? My past was so dirty.

I know that God shattered my heart, and then piece by piece HE is still putting it back together. It took me 18 years to allow HIM to console me, and to begin the healing process.

I know how very much I love my children. I am totally nuts over them! There is nothing I will not attempt to do to make thier lives easier, and to put a smile on thier face.  There is no danger I will not step into to keep them safe. As I looked at my first daughter yesterday, and saw her smile, I remembered how much we have gone through. How much love she stirred in me from the beginning that I had no idea I was capable of.  God stirred my heart…HE loves her even more than I do..all of us..an Overwhelming Love that we can not comprehend in our wildest dreams.  In comparison of how much I love my children, God’s love for us is so much higher, deeper, wider,  longer…perfect love….I stand amazed and in awe of that LOVE that HE had to teach me. Not only that I possess a fraction of the love, but to help me wrap my head around the intensity of HIS.

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Safe? Safe Place?

Proverbs 18:10 The name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe.

One of my most favorite worship songs is Strong Tower-Kutless, often times visualizing God as the place of refuge when the world is overbearing. Remembering that Hebrews 11 tells us that faith credits us righteousness. But safe? We are safe in HIM, just not the usage of the word that we have grown accustomed to… People still die, and love HIM very much. We still encounter pain, both physically and emotionally. But we are still safe in HIM. How can I say that?

(you can read the rest over at Philter48, and leave comments there or here.  I would love to hear what you think as well that would make Philter 48 more user friendly for you.  peace and love)

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The Seed Of Bitterness

Struggling many times with disappointment and wondering how it turns into anger and bitterness. It seems without much warning the whole world can turn upside down within my heart. WOW! what or how did that happen. God is always awesome to lead me to something that shines a light on my heart..this week HE led me to Lynse, if you get a chance to read this, i am thinking her questions will do a work in your heart as well… As I pondered her post, and was confronted this last week with issues that just weren’t apparent to me before, I found my self going back to this post..here is my walk through disappointment, anger, bitterness ….  go here

( I will start blogging part of my post here, and the entire post at Philter 48..hope to see your comments here or there, and do go read Lynseleanne’s post very good!)

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TAM’s Vacation at Darla’s

My friend Tam is amazing! Really, she has spoken on her blog about teleporting to Kansas CIty from Oregon, but this one is bigger than that..she has cloned her self to be in two places at once!! So although she has been home with her family, hosting another blogger, she has also been running wild with me for 10 days. Where?? in Lancaster County, PA/ Pasadena, MD/ Ocean City MD..not to exclude Hershey PA (but technically that is also Lancaster County-i think)

So here is the pics from “Tam vacations at Darla’s”..enjoy!

upon arriving, a MAC attack was in order..

upon arriving, a MAC attack was in order..


where Tam slept when not passed out in the kitchen, mostly my fault for leaving her there

where Tam slept when not passed out in the kitchen, mostly my fault for leaving her there


thinking Hubs gave her a bit much breakfast..he meant well..it resulted in this..

thinking Hubs gave her a bit much breakfast..he meant well..it resulted in this..


dang! east coast food is hard on the tummy

dang! east coast food is hard on the tummy


this always made TAM feel  better (Oreos and MAC)

this always made TAM feel better (Oreos and MAC)


Tam hanging out at Applebees in Hershey w/michelle and Debs and my family

Tam hanging out at Applebees in Hershey w/michelle and Debs and my family


TAM goes to chocolate world!

TAM goes to chocolate world!


takes the chocolate tour...

takes the chocolate tour...


TAM takes in a 3D show about chocolate..

TAM takes in a 3D show about chocolate..

wear

wearing Derek's goalie mask..lots of w00ts going on....

wearing Derek's goalie mask..lots of w00ts going on....


enjoying East coast crabs and shrimp...

enjoying East coast crabs and shrimp...


ocean city maryland..loving the beach

ocean city maryland..loving the beach


buried in the sand by Derek..fun on the beach!

buried in the sand by Derek..fun on the beach!

There are many more pics, but these are my favorites!! AMazing TAM, two places at once.. love her!

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Look What God Has Done

I truly have been blessed beyond measure, and so have you. But we do have to look for it. Acknowledge that all good things come from God.

I started blogging while in a pit, and asking for accountability and desire to know HIM more and love HIM more…HE answers those kind of prayers..not as we might think, but as HE sees beneficial to us.

Posting some pics here of the blessings HE has given me the last couple of weeks! People who have fanned the fire of my soul, friendships that will last an eternity, and a safe place to bare my soul. Thank you God for your provisions!

Katrina/Deb Hannaford/Derek

Katrina/Deb Hannaford/Derek

me & Hubs/Deb/ Dale and Gracie Hill

me & Hubs/Deb/ Dale and Gracie Hill

(for the record- Tam(inprogress) is standing on the table for this pic-LOVE HER)

Mr & Mrs B4dguy/Michelle Mills/Deb

Mr & Mrs B4dguy/Michelle Mills/Deb

so in love with this family~B4dguys family!

so in love with this family~B4dguys family!

B4dguy/Ric Booth grilling...awesome!

B4dguy/Ric Booth grilling...awesome!

Can’t remember B4d’s son and daughter in law’s name (in the background), but I will always remember how he took a background check on us! LOL My God is big enough to cover small details like that!  Patty (Ric’s wife) is beautiful but camera shy, and makes the best chocolate cake I ever ate!

we had church together! these are our worship leaders, AMAZING!

we had church together! these are our worship leaders, AMAZING!

Just wanted to share what GOD has been doing, in uniting more of the body of Christ, answering my prayers to know HIM more and love HIM more, and showing me how very beautiful it is know people who have hearts for HIM, and live life to the fullest, as we know it is also a gift!

Coming soon…pics of TAM (inprogress) and her vacation with all of us, as she was still on the west coast, she is talented like that!

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