This post was in the middle of January ’08…my 100th post on WordPress. Although I believed I needed to write it and be transparent, it caused me much grief over the next several months. Not because of the family situation that stirred that post, but the religious people who believed I had stepped over my boundaries, and called me a false prophet, and demanded that I start to write something that would say”there is no personal relationship with a HOLY GOD, and you can not speak your heart to HIM like that, and HE already knows the wickedness in your heart.” I thought that thier words had no real effect on me, but looking back on this year, I know that they did.
Lately…I have been struggling in my walk, not that I don’t believe, but that I have slowed down my one on one time with HIM where I actually speak my heart, and thinking things like..”HE already knows”. Without noticing that my walk slowed down to a crawl, and then to me just sitting down, and missing HIM. I asked HIM recently how I got here, and how can I get back? Would HE really want me to walk with HIM like I thought, or had I just dreamed the whole thing up?..I am a dreamer.
HE nudged me back into my time with HIM, and this morning as I sat with HIM, HE brought me here-
Psalm 62:8 “Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour our your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.” (ESV)
Pour out your heart before HIM! its in there! It caused me to rejoice, and just sink into HIM. HE brought me back, and still I will not tell you what the religious wanted me to say…Because HE wants us to pour out our hearts to HIM, HE wants us to be close to HIM and honest, and trusting, it takes nothing away from HIS HOLINESS! Nothing…That’s the kind of Father King we have.
Happy New Year! I am loving my blog family, and loving sitting here at HIS feet…God is amazing! fall in love with HIM, incredible!!!
(new ESV Bible was a Christmas gift, and GOD knows I would not be able to stand to have it, and not start paging through it…I love how HE loves me!)
ponderings of a princess... 
Darla,
Reading your post reminds me that you are telling on a lot of Christians. I think that there are many out there who feel the same as you. Does God really listen to me? Does He really care about what I say?
But…..and that’s a big but…..it’s a lie from the enemy!
I can’t read John 15 and especially verses 1, 4, 5, and finally just for Darla, verse 7 without being urged to speak my heart to him. And you can’t ask without forming the words. He wants us to ask. You mentioned that Psalm 62:8 was something the Lord brought you to. Look at two other passages in Psalms: 42:9 and 66:3. One is complaint and the other is praise but both are out loud!
By the way, I was given an ESV Bible for Christmas last year and Marie and I have used it to read through the Bible in a year in our daily evening devotions. We really enjoyed seeing things a little differently.
Happy New Year Darla!
What an awesome post! YES! God DOES want us to pour out our heart to Him. He is Holy, but He is intimate with us! That is what sets Him apart from all the other false gods. You heard Him right the first time. Don’t let others cause you to put a question mark where God has put a period;)
Love your new hair cut! Love you!
I’m praying 2009 leads my family and I to PA!! 😉
Happy New Year Sister! May God’s blessing abound on you and your precious family!
He is there for us, and will listen when no one else seems to care.
He made us to walk in with Him in the Garden.
Gen 3: 8 Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the LORD God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the LORD God among the trees of the garden.
It is when we disobeyed and started hiding from him that the trouble started.
By his Grace our sin is forgiven so that we can walk with Him again in the perfection we were meant for.
(Man I need to get back to writing… 😉 )
Peace and love sis.
Love the new avatar by the way. 😀
Jerald- thanks brother! you know it starts so subtle…but thank you Jesus! I am verbal with HIM again..you know I just miss HIM day to day, when not speaking out loud. I thought of a verse, looking it for it now… “I believe therefore I speak”..Amen!
Heather- love that!! don’t put a question mark where God has already put a period! 😆 and I will pray that 2009 leads you here to me!! what a gift that would be!!
Cpk-love ya brother! I have missed your writing!! sooo post anytime in my comment section! Very encouraging… My Grams used to warn me that some people get so smart they get dumb (in her OK accent)..praying for my hunger to be for wisdom more than knowlege.. been missing you!
Great words, Darla!!! I would not be able to make it in the day-to-day if I could not pour out my heart to Him. I have to remind myself of the verse, “Cast all your cares on Him for He cares for you.”
He DOES care!!! What Father doesn’t want to hear from His children? What husband doesn’t want to nurture his bride? Only the abusive ones don’t care. Our GOD loves and cares for us with the compassion and patience only His holy character can give.
Love you, Darla!! Love your strong words of TRUTH.
Don’t do that ! Now you have papa weeping! 😀 I love you Darla – You Can trust God all the time – and even when you question, that does not change the fact that He is always there! He is especially close during those tough moments.
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I have a special prayer request on my blog if you get a moment to stop by.
Papa loves you!
Have a joyus New Year sharing your love and faith with your family.
If there is one thing I have learned about being a Christian…
…actually, even that might be a bit of stretch. 😕
NOW who’s sitting down?!?! 😉
Nor- 😉 it hits us all, no one is above it happening..I am thinking that Storm stories is going to help us all keep from sitting down..unless HE calls for it so we can listen to HIM.
ED – Happy New Year!!
Papa- I am fine…just working on keeping me real, and transparent..some are reading and thinking I have it all together.. HA I am the same as everyone. love you, and thanks for that post…praying!
Michelle- love you and your honesty! we are just going to keep it real in 09!
i feel like i have been just going through the motions. maybe its Christmas break and the “intrusion” on my normal schedule – but i havent poured out my heart in a while. although, He did have a good word with me the other night. yah…He pulled me in big time! like, He poured out His heart. Hes sweet to be my example. and He is way to patient with me.
happy new year Princess! i love you, sister!
and esv? rocks!
Love you Darls! “Pouring out your heart to Him” – yes, it is vital. Elemental. When we think we are ‘projecting perfect’ as an image – to fool other people, to fool ourselves, to fool Him (if that were even possible to think that) – we are never ever fooling Him. The darkness is as light to Him.
Tam- reading your comment I realized why I love you sooo much! you truly get me! love you…HE is really is way patient with me too.
Annie- thanks for the scripture…its one of my underlined places I return to…cultivating relationship requires me to speak and not just take for granteed that HE knows my heart. I know that HE does. I believe that the enemy wants me silent so that I can not grow closer to HIM…if hubs is away for an amount of time..I haven’t grown away from him, but its not time that grows me closer..ya know? This walk is supposed to grow closer and closer…and if it becomes stagnant…that would be me. 😳 I never want any of my readers to believe I am all together..I am on a journey to the heart of God…I love the relationship I have with HIM, and I really can’t do this without HIM. love you too girly!
Yep, you’re the real deal. I appreciate your transparency and honesty. Your sweetness was just jumping off the screen as I read. HE is so good.
Your picture is fab!
I appreciate your honesty. I think that when we are honest with our struggles others can relate to us because we all struggle in some area. Thanks.
Honey, I don’t ever hear pride and self-righteousness from you. And that is the honest truth. I appreciate you!!
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