This post was in the middle of January ’08…my 100th post on WordPress. Although I believed I needed to write it and be transparent, it caused me much grief over the next several months. Not because of the family situation that stirred that post, but the religious people who believed I had stepped over my boundaries, and called me a false prophet, and demanded that I start to write something that would say”there is no personal relationship with a HOLY GOD, and you can not speak your heart to HIM like that, and HE already knows the wickedness in your heart.” I thought that thier words had no real effect on me, but looking back on this year, I know that they did.
Lately…I have been struggling in my walk, not that I don’t believe, but that I have slowed down my one on one time with HIM where I actually speak my heart, and thinking things like..”HE already knows”. Without noticing that my walk slowed down to a crawl, and then to me just sitting down, and missing HIM. I asked HIM recently how I got here, and how can I get back? Would HE really want me to walk with HIM like I thought, or had I just dreamed the whole thing up?..I am a dreamer.
HE nudged me back into my time with HIM, and this morning as I sat with HIM, HE brought me here-
Psalm 62:8 “Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour our your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.” (ESV)
Pour out your heart before HIM! its in there! It caused me to rejoice, and just sink into HIM. HE brought me back, and still I will not tell you what the religious wanted me to say…Because HE wants us to pour out our hearts to HIM, HE wants us to be close to HIM and honest, and trusting, it takes nothing away from HIS HOLINESS! Nothing…That’s the kind of Father King we have.
Happy New Year! I am loving my blog family, and loving sitting here at HIS feet…God is amazing! fall in love with HIM, incredible!!!
(new ESV Bible was a Christmas gift, and GOD knows I would not be able to stand to have it, and not start paging through it…I love how HE loves me!)