Today will be hard unless I take the LORD with me, and that is my intention. I have been courtordered to show up for a face to face meeting with one of my worst abusers. He wants something from me, again. He is courtordered to pay support for one of my daughters, and has never activated his right for visitation.(she hasn’t seen him since she was 2) She is 16 years old now, and wants desperately to have the same name as myself. Her daddy to her is the one that has always been here, and she loves him dearly.
My intention is to forgive this man his debt, although he is asking for lower support, I am willing to give him NO support. But I do want him to sign her over to me once and for all.
God says to forgive, HE doesn’t give any exceptions. HE just says do it. In HIS power, I can do all things. So if you read this and feel it on your heart, say a prayer for me today. It has been difficult the last few days to not fall into the pit of abuse, just knowing I must face him, and speak. If you have ever been abused you know what I am dealing with, I really want to do what God would have me do, and I want to be a picture of Christ, even to him. I don’t want to react with hostility, and get into physical fights, I want to respond with Jesus on my lips.
Although I feel that I have forgiven him a long time ago, there is still something there that plagues me or it wouldn’t have such an impact on me. Thanks for reading, and thanks in advance for your prayers.
How do you define the word “Daddy”?
(I will post later on the outcome)