Monthly Archives: October 2008
Make an acrostic from the word given, then pick another for the next person…play as often as you like. Have a great Friday!
okay? play nice..and always remember this is family friendly (hear me Hubs)
The last couple of days has been colder than normal…we are already in the 30’s and low 40’s. I have been asking the kids on the bus..”where is your jacket?”, and for the ones who willingly tell me its in their backpack, I say ” put it on, someone made you bring it, so that you wear it”…Today, five year old “angel” (that is really her name, and she fits it very well) climbed on the bus and said, “Miss Darla, look I have a jacket, and I have it on……my mom said you are a pain in her butt”, so I smiled at her and she at me, and I told her to tell her mom “thank you”. LOL Shortly after this, I unload the elementary children at school, but Angel stays on the bus with the other Kindergarten kids, as I pick up more kids to go to the Kindergarten Center. She stands up when the others have left, and promptly reminds me that I no longer say “where is my kindergarten let me see your hands? stay on the bus” I explained that I don’t need to do that anymore, because I know who they are, and they are so smart to know to stay on the bus. She looked so sad and said “Just do it one more time”. Although it seemed silly, I did it anyway. I aim to please! She came running down the aisle and gave me a big hug and said “Here I am, your kindergarten kid!” LOL
Everyday I am more amazed at how things we take for granted, like someone just talking to us, or smiling, or caring enough to say “put your jacket on” means so much to someone who doesn’t get this in thier life. I know what my childhood was like, but I did have a mom who wanted to see a jacket on…simple things, yet when they are not present leave such a void. This year I have more kids without parents than I did before, and lots with parents in Jail. Its so sad, and after the last 8 weeks, I am finally breaking through to some of them. I get a smile, and at times a laugh.
I have one little girl on the Kindergarten bus who stops in front of me every day and says “Miss Darla are you coming back for me”. But the one that broke my heart today is Madeline. Her hair is never combed, and is always very very quiet, no smile, fear all over her, and I asked her today if she would be my line leader and lead the kids out of the bus, and she just came closer to me and said “do you think you could be my mom?” I don’t know her story, but my prayers are going up for her and the other ones on my bus. Everyday, I pray “please don’t let them leave here with out you”… I get weary and tired, and then these little ones break my heart, and make me laugh, and fill me with great joy…and I remember why God put me in the bus, and after turning my world upside down to get me here..OH how HE loves them!
Some days just move along according to plan, and seem the same as any other day, and some days are filled with ponderings on past, present, and future. Today was a pondering day. I believe that God is always in control, and if the enemy gets to me, then HE allowed it for my good. Sounds harsh. But I don’t believe God is cruel just for something to do or that its fun for HIM. I believe its always to shake something out of me or to teach me something that I am needing or will need.
Today I thought about all the things that have happened around me that are hurtful, and how much I don’t want to make those same bad choices because of them. So I laid it all out before HIM. “I need to respond correctly and not react negatively”. *sigh* I continued to battle with who I am in Christ. That seems to be my weakest area, although I know it, sometimes believing is hardest.
I started to feel old injuries (from abuse, some inflicted on me, some self inflicted). I acknowleged them. And then it came to me…HE has removed me from who I was to who I am now, and that seems like a completely different person, like watching some movie on life time. I am a new creation, I am the daughter of the KING, I am HIS, and HE is teaching me. All in HIS time, All in HIS ways, and exactly how HE made me to recieve it.
I wonder if people ever truly get the fact that when they are careless and hurtful, that they cause a child of God to stumble and sometimes fall down. Praying to not be careless and hurtful…two negatives will never make a positive. I want to be more like Jesus, and sometimes that requires suffering, and remaining speechless…