Its been one of hardest weeks, as far as spirituality. Just a constant up and down of emotions, and choices. I read a post yesterday that touched my heart more than the author could have ever known. HE reminded me that we live in a world that is not perfect. And alot of what we experience is also experienced by others. It seems that when my weeks are tough, old pains seem to surface, and I find myself back at HIS feet, asking why? I have forgiven, I have repented, I have chosen YOU, and at these times the pangs and the mind seem to run rampant. While reading this gentlemans post, I came face to face with Jesus and how HE truly felt my pain and yours as a man, sinless, all GOD in bodily form.
As I was confronted again with the past, I was also in the shadow of HIM. HE spoke to my heart…”I was there, I know what you felt, I felt it too. I know every tear you cried, I cried too. I know your anger, death angered me too. It was not supposed to be this way, Sin did this…not ME. What I was doing was building the bridge to bring you back to where your heart will never feel these things again. Now believe ME.”
Jesus heals and restores, and puts a smile back on my face and in my heart. HE just seems to do it a piece at a time, and as each piece surfaces…HE requires me to talk it out with HIM. See, I have been praying for resurrection power over my heart, and HE says “Come, let me heal that”.
If you are not reading any of the Bible study entries on John, I want to encourage you to do it. And please please please do not miss this post on the NorEasters blog. Incredible! (oh and don’t just lurk…leave the man some comment luv!)