Sometimes the “right” thing is hardest

Sometimes what is right is the opposite of what is right in my fleshy spirit.  According to the world, somethings that are right, are wrong in God’s eyes.  Lately there has been a huge struggle or wrestling match between God and I.  Do you ever experience this?   It wasn’t a sin, and it was something that was given to me. Fair and Square, right?  Somehow, the circumstances behind it all were wrong, not on my part…but still wrong.

Walking with HIM its my desire to show HIM to those around me, and first with my living testimony.  God does not think like us and HE always has a plan that meets more than one objective.  I am a slow learner sometimes.

Through the course of the morning, I stated my case to HIM (as if HE didn’t know), and defended myself. HE was persistent…”give it back, turn it down, its not right”.  I stated my claim again..and this time used outreach and my family, christmas, and yes I even went as far to bring up economy…still “give it back, turn it down, its not right”.  As I planned to do what was right, I pouted, I stomped my feet, threw an all out hissy fit, and told HIM…”I am going to do what is RIGHT, but I am not going to like it…”  Again..”do what is right…haven’t I always taken care of you?”  So I did it…all said and done…still feeling bad for myself.  A few short hours later, I was approached by three different people, who knew what I did, without explanation, except for “its not right”.  They each wanted to know “what in the world were you thinking?” ,  “this is not going to right the wrong”, “it was yours , they gave it to you”…and I had to tell them about my faith, and how HIS love is better than life to me.  I had to tell them, that HE said it isn’t right, and I want to be right with HIM.  Then the last person who spoke to me at the end of my day, “I have been praying all day…I have been so angry about this, and you did nothing wrong, but I was so jealous, forgive me…”  

Now looking back on this day,..I know HE had an awesome plan, and it started with me doing what was right in HIS eyes, and me not knowing who was watching.  Me tonight…Broken, not capable to wrap my head around this day, or that HE would use me.  Although no one saw my inner anger, I am repentant that I did not do the “right” thing with a happy heart.  It didn’t stop HIM though..HE just was requiring my obedience.  We do not know what is at stake.

Wonder what HE is asking you to do? and wonder what HIS plan is for you if you will just say “okay”.

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7 responses to “Sometimes the “right” thing is hardest

  1. Jesus wasn’t comfortable on the Cross…But his father knew he would conquer death.

    God has the plan… We may not like it sometimes, but it is His plan not ours.

    Jer 29:11 – 13 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

    James1:2-4 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

  2. ck- amen..HE knows the plans..I sure don’t. not feeling much of being mature and complete, so I need that too! thanks for being you.

  3. bswan

    whatever is right … another chapter in that filter of life.

  4. bswan…I can’t wait to read that book..and even more to teach it to my women….however you are very RIGHT another filter…thanks for visitin me…please don’t be a stranger. 😉

  5. Wow.

    How did you know this was exactly what I needed to hear today? Hmmm???

    His love is amazing, steady and unchanging…and knowing He is good, we can be obedient.

    Love you, Darla. Have a blessed day!

  6. tam

    i think you are the most willing person i know, physically know, that will totally and completely step aside. i know you had “inner” issues in all of this – but your still did. lightyears beyond me friend. and a great testimony!

    can i say i am PROUD to call you my friend?!

  7. Michelle- thank you for your kind words…you do have a way with words. love you

    Tam- you do know me, physically..and your comment means lots to me. What a joy to wake up and read this..not only can you say it…But I am PROUD to call you my friend! Love you!

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