Its been a while since I felt the presence of God rest on me, just like there was nothing else there, and even the air I was taking in was all HIM, so intense that it caused me to tremble. Yes, partly because I know how unworthy I am to be in HIS presence, but bigger than that…the Presence of my Holy God, HIS holiness, and my reverence for all that means, and what I have yet to learn. Today, I was stretched to the point of fear, and knowing that I really shouldn’t fear, but I need to move forward and be obedient. I chose obedience. I am getting ready to start a study about Idolatry in our modern world. The more I dig, the more I fear.
Lately I have been up against a rock and hard place, and wondering if I made a mistake in taking this on, did I not hear HIM correctly, alot of self-doubt, and alot of nothing more than excuses..and I have been bringing them before my Holy God. This morning I asked some good friends who love the Lord to just pray for me today. I left home feeling nervous, anxious, and literaly shaking inside. WHY? more self doubt set in..Our message today was on Idolatry! I was sitting there and listening to my Pastor very intently, and thinking…we are so far from where we are supposed to be…more self doubt set in…who am I to think I can begin to teach this, me … I have a GED, business school/economics major, mechanical engineering classes…no Bible college- and this Pastor is a Dr, and teaches pastors…that is when it happened…
I felt HIM rest on me, and I trembled. HE spoke to my heart and calmed me, and re enforced, I am teaching this class. HE does not fail me. My spiritual being is ready to follow, my flesh is terrified. I have experienced this before, not on this level. I think it is the message of the study that is gripping at me. “No other gods” He means it!
Today, I take a vow before my King…NO other gods, I will be faithful.
(thanks for your prayers! which one of you called the presence of God on me..you have answered prayer)
ponderings of a princess... 
Wow, Darla. Praise Him.
What a mighty God we serve.
He who calls us is faithful and He will bring it to pass.
~1 Thessalonians 5:24
I always remind myself that God is not an author of confusion. If He has given me something and laid it out and I have peace with it, then I am good to go. He will equip me with what I need to fulfill whatever it is that He has asked me to do. As unworthy and incapable as I may be in my natural mind, His power and Spirit work in me to allow it to pass [as Sis quoted with the scripture above].
You are a vessel and He will use in many ways to bring Him glory and to further His Kingdom on Earth. Your post reminded me of pastor’s message today; it was from Luke 10:1-12. The disciples are asked to go out and let people know that the Kingdom of God is near. That is what He is asking of you in this moment and I know that you are able to do it, with His guidance and in His time.
Love you.
my precious daughter Darla – i wish I could be in your bible study. Here is why.
1. You love God with your whole heart.
2. You are a confident lady.
3, You will prepare the best you can.
4. You will pray much.
5. You love people.
papa loves you and will be praying for you!
Praise God for his blessing.. It was all him Darla.
I will continue to pray for you as I always do. For his specific will in your life no matter the situation.
Love you sister.
Job 32
Be strong and of good courage, my dear. The LORD is the strength of your life.
You all give me so much encouragement! and your comments shine wisdom on me! Thanks for taking time to comment.
This is the day the Lord has made..let’s rejoice and be glad in it!
Darla, Darla, Darla…..
“Lately I have been up against a rock and hard place, and wondering if I made a mistake in taking this on, did I not hear HIM correctly, alot of self-doubt, and alot of nothing more than excuses..and I have been bringing them before my Holy God.”
Now you know if I relayed this to you about my calling we would be having serious smackdown… 😆
I am so glad that He made Himself known and filled you up…He love you so much…thank you for being obedient and blessing these people who will be taking the class…..I will be praying for changed lives! Have a super day, and talk with ya later… Smooch!
Love you Darla!
Want some of that presence to fill me again too!!!!!!
Thank you!
Debs- thanks for telling me like it is..and you are right I would do it to you!
Bajan- praying that for you right now…although you may not feel HIM today…HE is all over you!!! love you!!
Standing on the words you’ve said – and the Psalms 🙂 Meditating on them and 2 Corinthians 4, too! Love you!
bajan- love love love Psalms 3:3,4 they are actually the title verses that I am using for my writing…HE is the lifter of my head!