Daily Archives: September 7, 2008

Trembling in HIS Presence

Its been a while since I felt the presence of God rest on me, just like there was nothing else there, and even the air I was taking in was all HIM, so intense that it caused me to tremble.  Yes, partly because I know how unworthy I am to be in HIS presence, but bigger than that…the Presence of my Holy God, HIS holiness, and my reverence for all that means, and what I have yet to learn.  Today, I was stretched to the point of fear, and knowing that I really shouldn’t fear, but I need to move forward and be obedient.  I chose obedience.  I am getting ready to start a study about Idolatry in our modern world. The more I dig, the more I fear. 

Lately I have been up against a rock and hard place, and wondering if I made a mistake in taking this on, did I not hear HIM correctly, alot of self-doubt, and alot of nothing more than excuses..and I have been bringing them before my Holy God.  This morning I asked some good friends who love the Lord to just pray for me today.  I left home feeling nervous, anxious, and literaly shaking inside.  WHY? more self doubt set in..Our message today was on Idolatry!  I was sitting there and listening to my Pastor very intently, and thinking…we are so far from where we are supposed to be…more self doubt set in…who am I to think I can begin to teach this, me … I have a GED, business school/economics major, mechanical engineering classes…no Bible college- and this Pastor is a Dr, and teaches pastors…that is when it happened…

I felt HIM rest on me, and I trembled. HE spoke to my heart and calmed me, and re enforced, I am teaching this class.  HE does not fail me.  My spiritual being is ready to follow, my flesh is terrified.  I have experienced this before, not on this level.  I think it is the message of the study that is gripping at me.  “No other gods”  He means it! 

Today, I take a vow before my King…NO other gods, I will be faithful. 

(thanks for your prayers! which one of you called the presence of God on me..you have answered prayer)

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