Inspite of Me

So often we get in our way! That is honest truth!  So many will not step out in faith due to the fact that God has not perfected us yet.  HELLO! HE hasn’t perfected any of us yet, unless you are no longer among the breathing on earth.  Sorry thats the hard facts. 

Today while leading my Bible Study group, a women stepped up and decided to take a leap of faith and lead a different group with more study.  That’s what I do.  I start Bible Study groups and disciple them to go and start more.  Sometimes that doesn’t go so well, just because we are all human and really want to stay in our Bubble bible study.  Recently the Lord has pushed me off my seat and out of my comfort zone by leading me to teach/lead in the church setting.  Honestly it has scared me to death at times.  God knows that due to some scheduling of wedding preparations, I could no longer lead the retreat group, and altough I have the study ready for someone to take over, I know with all my heart that the material is what HE wants.  This woman has agreed to take the material and lead it.  Inspite of me, God encourages and teaches others.  When the study is over for the week, incredible humility overwhelms me.  In my heart, I just heard HIM say, I am in control, and you do need to do something else, and I am stepping someone else up to lead a group with my Word. 

My comfort zone is with the lost, and taking women one on one, and showing them Jesus.  For most that would be the uncomfort zone.  But in my head, I have more in common with those types of women.  The Church with all the politics that go with it…not me thanks…I hate those things.  So that is exactly where the Lord put me.  There is not a week that goes by that I feel competent in what I do. There is not a week that goes by that I do not grovel at HIS feet.  There is not a week that goes by that HE does not remind me that we are all the same meeting at the foot of the cross, recieving Grace.  Inspite of me, God does not fail me, God’s word will go out and not return void, and hearts are changing (including mine).  I am growing to love these women and I don’t know why God has placed me here, but I am sure HE does it all inspite of me.



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12 responses to “Inspite of Me

  1. “Inspite of me” – you got that one right! I’m more of a Peter. I just blunder on through – then back track a lot! I think He said on the cross, “hum, Papa, that’s gonna be a tough one!”

  2. tam

    You know that’s how He works! Inspite of us means HE can be seen. HE can have the controls. I love it!

    And at any time you could say, Nope, Lord, I don’t think so! But you don’t…”inspite” of that capability – you choose to die to self and “let” HIM do the work on HIS terms in HIS time!

    Well done friend! What a blessing you are!

  3. Gods Gal

    Can it really be any other way? What a wonderful post! I know with me, no matter how hard I try…there will be some of the flexh arise in whatever the Lord asks of me. Why is it that we see it so much easier in others??? His grace is sufficient…mine needs to be all times. Love you Darla, can’t wait to get that hug!

  4. Darla – In spite of it all- I like you! :o) I left you a comment your comment on my blog.

  5. Papa-i left you something on your blog…love you..what is the minutes now til mama gets home??

    Tam- That is so how GOD works! I am always just left standing in awe, and in tears before a powerful God who could use anyone he wants, and HE chooses me. My head can’t wrap around it, but my heart embraces it!

    Deb- I don’t know why no matter how many miracles we see the battle with the flesh and earthly eyes, just trips us up. I do love how HE loves and uses us inspite of what we might think. Oh Yeah! Big hug on the way!! 88 days!!

  6. I think any of us that serve in the church feel this way. Thank you for posting this! God is so good though to tap at our heart and remind us what His direction is.

  7. Mama be home in 1364 minutes & 8 seconds!

  8. God is so good. I love how HE trains up others to take over. I have seen it my life and I just love to see how smoothly it goes when HE does it all in HIS timing.

    I see the Lord do so many things in and through my life in spite of me. Thank God for HIS son Jesus that saves me!

    Blessings in Christ-

  9. Shonda, and Blessed1 – thanks for commenting…I think that people in ministry do experience the same things…its still very new to me…I am praying I never get over HIM!

    Papa- your mama will be home shortly! You are a big baby, but totally adorable…were you working for that?

  10. I love you, you got the best stuff 🙂

  11. Mama made it safe & sound! She surprised me at church! You were right – I checked out the one that said “I love papa!” first! yep, its her! No, I did not do that church!!

  12. Our minister told a story this morning that I want to share with you. There was this woman who came to Nepolean and was pleading with him for her son. Nepolean told the woman that he would not release her son, because he did not deserve mercy. She replied “your right, he does not deserve mercy, but who really does. No one deserves mercy that is why it is given.” Nepolean was so impressed with the womans reply, that he released her son. Did we deserve mercy from Jesus? Did he really have to die for us? No, but He did, because He loves us so much that He wanted mercy for us. Were we perfect before the death/resurrection? No, that is why it had to come to pass. Are we perfect now? No, that is why it has been completed. Jesus is our only perfection and through that we are saved. God bless you Darla, love Tanya

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