Newsboys song comes into my mind this morning…”Step right up to the microphone,..Theres only one way! … if you don’t know than you need to be told.”
Today I am going to do something different, “Testimony Tuesday”. I will begin and you my readers will comment and testify! Sounds good?
I have been on an incredible journey with Jesus. Through out my life before Hubs, I really did not know one man who didn’t want to hurt or use me, or minipulate me (except for my grandpa, and my step dad). But Father love and care, I didn’t know. I made endless mistakes with men due to a subconsiencious burning to know it. I didn’t know that all that yearning was my Father God pulling me to himself, and wanting to fill that empty void. Only God knew that all my life I have looked at fathers loving on thier babies at the park, and always turning to think, I have been so ripped off! God has taught me lots, and still in a learning process. Yeah some posts of great daddys still sting the wound a little, but mostly I can rise above it. I have been teaching women for about 6 years now, and I have been teaching the things that HE has taught me. Always amazed at the ones who approach me later and cry and rejoice over all that HE has spoke to them through the teaching. Glory to God (definitely not me)!
The last few months, it seems that every time I turn around-Fathers, great loving, leaving a legacy, children rejoicing in it, and how it should be. Last week I had a talk with my Father of unfailing love as why does this still sting so much, and help me to be okay with the fact that I missed that part but I haven’t missed the best part! I love the Lord more than I knew I could love anything. HE makes it possible for me to live and breathe, and move and see things around me I never would. I just kind of ended that time with HIM, “I guess we will all be grown in you and in our bodies in heaven and it will be perfect, guess I missed it there too”. God sent a stranger (you can read how it came about on Tam’s blog, “The beautiful Mess” in her comments-bajanpoet)to tell me that I haven’t missed it…and that stranger has never met me, and had no way of knowing the hugeness of his words to me. I am blessed, and humbled at the way God moves heaven and earth and strangers to encourage HIS children, and I and you have not missed a thing in comparison to where we are going. Be encouraged, we are not home yet.
Okay its your turn, I know God is doing great things, Praise you Father God!
ponderings of a princess... 