Monthly Archives: February 2008

Life makes me thirsty

Psalm 63:1-8

The Thirsting Soul Satisfied in God.

1    O God, You are my God; I shall seek You earnestly;

    My soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You,

    In a dry and weary land where there is no water.

2    Thus I have seen You in the sanctuary,

    To see Your power and Your glory.

3    Because Your lovingkindness is better than life,

    My lips will praise You.

4    So I will bless You as long as I live;

    I will lift up my hands in Your name.

5    My soul is satisfied as with marrow and fatness,

    And my mouth offers praises with joyful lips.

6    When I remember You on my bed,

    I meditate on You in the night watches,

7    For You have been my help,

    And in the shadow of Your wings I sing for joy.

8    My soul clings to You;

    Your right hand upholds me.

    

         My son has been very sick with Pnuemonia, and God is awesome in laying HIS healing touch on him. My Aunt is passing away as her life support was taken off today.  I start a new class on Saturday, due to weather conditions we did not start last week.  A bridal shower for my daughter on Saturday as well. 

         Lots of mixed emotions, but still HE fills me with the joy that can not be described to an unbeliever.  My Aunts life in Christ speaks for its self, and I will be glad to dance in heaven with her, as she taught me Jesus first! She was my Sunday school teacher when I was 6 years old.  Today I placed it all in HIS hands (something I try to do regularly, as only He really knows what needs to be).  It is so freeing to bow to HIM and acknowlege HIS control and power.  Total surrender…Do you love Jesus? I mean really really love Jesus? Does HE give you a new song in your heart?   Are you certain that you never want to go back to where you were, because HIS love is so amazing?  I pray that you know HIM like this.  I also pray that if you don’t you will ask HIM why, as only HE knows, and only HE can give it to you.  God is so good all the time!  Lighter side-As I get prepared for my study group…Bob Marley keeps popping into my mind singin Exodus, movement of ja people…and thats not all, I have dance that pops out too…hope I get that undercontrol before I teach..LOL 

Peace. Joy. Love. Jesus better than life.

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Step right up to the microphone-Testimony Tuesday

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Newsboys song comes into my mind this morning…”Step right up to the microphone,..Theres only one way! … if you don’t know than you need to be told.”

Today I am going to do something different, “Testimony Tuesday”.  I will begin and you my readers will comment and testify! Sounds good?

I have been on an incredible journey with Jesus.  Through out my life before Hubs, I really did not know one man who didn’t want to hurt or use me, or minipulate me (except for my grandpa, and my step dad).  But Father love and care, I didn’t know.  I made endless mistakes with men due to a subconsiencious burning to know it.  I didn’t know that all that yearning was my Father God pulling me to himself, and wanting to fill that empty void.  Only God knew that all my life I have looked at fathers loving on thier babies at the park, and always turning to think, I have been so ripped off!  God has taught me lots, and still in a learning process.  Yeah some posts of great daddys still sting the wound a little, but mostly I can rise above it.   I have been teaching women for about 6 years now, and I have been teaching the things that HE has taught me.  Always amazed at the ones who approach me later and cry and rejoice over all that HE has spoke to them through the teaching.  Glory to God (definitely not me)! 

The last few months, it seems that every time I turn around-Fathers, great loving, leaving a legacy, children rejoicing in it, and how it should be.  Last week I had a talk with my Father of unfailing love as why does this still sting so much, and help me to be okay with the fact that I missed that part but I haven’t missed the best part!  I love the Lord more than I knew I could love anything.  HE makes it possible for me to live and breathe, and move and see things around me I never would.  I just kind of ended that time with HIM, “I guess we will all be grown in you and  in our bodies in heaven and it will be perfect, guess I missed it there too”.   God sent a stranger (you can read how it came about on Tam’s blog, “The beautiful Mess” in her comments-bajanpoet)to tell me that I haven’t missed it…and that stranger has never met me, and had no way of knowing the hugeness of his words to me.   I am blessed, and humbled at the way God moves heaven and earth and strangers to encourage HIS children, and I and you have not missed a thing in comparison to where we are going.  Be encouraged, we are not home yet.

Okay its your turn, I know God is doing great things, Praise you Father God!  

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AWARD-Blogging with a purpose

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Princess Steph gave me this award.  Bloggin with a Purpose…I know the Lord is in the things I write about, and everything I write is for HIS glory to use however HE wants.  But I am not the only one…HE has many many workers out here in Bloggsville, Earth.

I am passing this on to Tam-even in her randomness she touches my heart with Jesus.  God’sgal-she has a way of drawing out the debate, and that is a purpose in its self, nothing like a good debate to sharpen up the digging tools.  Heidi-her perserverence is always an encouragement to me, Jenny Hope-she can preach to me at any given time, and I will be shaken my head, saying uh huh, amen, thats so right!, Princess Shonda-her purpose sometimes I think is to keep me remembering to stay real and the importance of it.   My Twinkle-she has me blushing reading through the Song of Songs, Can’t forget Papa!! (amd Mama) I really love you all, and if you are on my blogroll, you are precious to me, and God has a purpose for each one of you to blog…do it, give God some glory!!

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Holy, Holy, Holy…

Isaiah 6:2-3

 2Seraphim stood above Him, each having six wings: with two he covered his face, and with two he covered his feet, and with two he flew. 3And one called out to another and said,

    “Holy, Holy, Holy, is the LORD of hosts,

    The whole earth is full of His glory.”

I know how this whole thing works out in my head, however if it makes it to this post the 

same as mind than all glory to a merciful God.  All week I have been zoning in on the

phrase “Holy Holy Holy”, and falling in line with it as well.  I totally agree that HE is 

HOLY.  But it appeared to me that most of our questions and all of our answers fall right 

here.

With two wings they covered their face (they could not see), with two wings they covered 

their feet (they could not wander off on foot away from God), and the way they seemed to

be stable was calling out to each other…Holy Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty. God was in 

the center of them.

My Christian blog friends are like that stability to me, it seems we cry out to each other 

around the world, “Holy Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty, the whole earth is full of HIS glory”.

And while we keep HIM in the center of us, our conversations, our thoughts and prayers, 

HE creates the stability we all need and long for.  Because HE is Holy.  Read through

Isaiah 6 and try to see it in your minds eye, it is incredible!  

How often do we forget in our daily drama that HE is Holy, and worthy of praise, 

regardless of the circumstances around us?  My goal is to keep it fresh in my mind, and

to remember to praise HIM before I just barge into HIS throne room full of petitions, and 

requests, and to let HIS holiness just set on me.  I think alot of requests will change in the 

presence of HIS holiness.  

Father I pray that your Holiness will never be far from my mind. That we will continue to 

encourage one another on this journey home to You.  As I read through the blogs, I could 

hear “Holy Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty, the whole earth is full of HIS glory”…thank you 

for opening my ears to hear that beautiful sound.  Encourage my sistas, bruthas, siestas, 

lurkers today with a touch of how very Holy you are.  This princess does not ever want to 

forget what you have taught me in this.  Great are you Lord! 

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Making Wise the Simple

Psalm 19:7  The Law of the LORD is perfect, reviving the soul.  The statutes of the LORD are trustworthy, making wise the simple.

OK you know how I feel about this is God’s word and is nothing but truth to me!  I have a passion for the deeper things of God, and also a nagging reminder that I am not knowlegable in the greek/hebrew/latin.  I am the simple  🙂  but that is exactly what I think HE is saying in this verse.  I don’t have to know words that the common/everyday person requires their dictionary, although learning is a good thing.  So I press on to learn, but keeping in my sight that learning HIS ways are the most important.   The law of the Lord is perfect, the statutes of the Lord are trustworthy…if I take that in exactly as I read it (without commentary/not that there is anything wrong with commentaries), the instruction is clear….Follow the law of the Lord, HE can be trusted…where do we find such things…only in HIS Word.  The benefit of being obedient and staying close to HIS word is a soul reviving, and wisdom that comes from HIM.

What if…the Bible is just exactly as it is written…and the deeper things of God are the rewards for journeying closer to HIS heart??  What if you will truly be given a stone with your new name on from the Lover of your soul, and only HE and you will know that name??, what if the tree of life is not an emblem of Heaven, and is truly a tree that you must eat from upon entrance??  Okay you are thinking..”she is totally gone now”!  I am taking in the theology in these things, and considering them, but the only 100% truth that I can stake my life on is the Word of God.  God can not be tamed into something we approve of, HE is a total wild man, and as CS Lewis said of Aslan…”HE is not safe but HE is good”.  Adventure at your fingertips, boredom does not compute in this life.

Think about this..God created us to have minds that love fantasy…we love the whole beauty and beast thing…all men want to rescue thier love and slay a dragon, and all women want to be considered beautiful by their love…

Making wise the simple…mmmmm pondering on this, what does it make you think…or how do you explain it??

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Pray for yourself?

Tomorrow will begin another study with a wonderful group of women at my church.  The day before always seems to be filled with mixed emotions, and a desperate need for more of Jesus.  I have no confidence in myself in this area, and I know that it goes well because HE has planned it even before I was born.  That is an overwhelming thought.  But I sure wouldn’t want to do it without HIM.

My family has been going through alot of ups and downs lately.  Illness, wedding plans/disagreements, bad weather, the world pulling my children, and just a total up hill climb with the Lord.  I know that is a perfect place to see HIM do awesome things.  But this morning, things seemed to become more than overwhelming to this girls heart/emotions.  I laid it all down AGAIN at the feet of my Savior.  Of course, falling into the pit of feeling sorry for myself! ( I hate when that happens)  HE reminded me today that I was right about part of my petition to HIM.  See, I was so into the “poor me thing”, that I even said…”I am giving you all I have, and I am tired, and I am not getting it..what do you want from me?”  This is what HE spoke to my heart….

It is good to follow hard after the Lord, and it is also good to have Holy Discontent (meaning that you just want more of HIM), it is good to want to know HIM more and love HIM more…(honestly I did not know where HE was going with this).  Prayer is a gift, and although I am quick to pray for a need for someone else, I do not do it much for myself.  I have not in the past prayed for HIM to work out the differences, and I haven’t asked HIM to help me with this climb that seems like forever to get to the top.  HE is very wonderful, HE did not condemn in any way, instead HE touched my heart and reminded me again of who I am in HIM, and how much HE wants to give me the desires of my heart.

You know I felt totally blown away in all of it!  I didn’t even notice that I was trying again to do things in my own strength, instead of HIS.  When I am worn out, the enemy seems to have a party on me.  My deliverer opened my eyes to HIM this morning, and made me smile when HE said “some may not think you are smarter than a fifth grader, but you are with me, and no one and nothing is as wise as I, and you need only to ask and tap in.  You will not need anything I don’t already have worked out for you.” 

Don’t forget to pray for yourself! Sounds like a no brainer, but how many of us really do that??  Thanks for your prayers, and  I know some of you have been lifting me.  Just know I am lifting you too! 

PS thanks W.E. – You rock Princess!

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