Daily Archives: November 17, 2007

Lay it down!

My hubs dad had double bypass surgery one week ago, and we know it was the hand of God that brought him through it.  He is healing well, and still has some breathing problems, but it seems to be minor.  The best news is he is a believer, and wants to attend church with us and become part of our church family.  That is the mighty hand of God!

Our church family went out today and delivered 21 baskets of food to needy families, and extended the love of Jesus to them.  How great is our God?!!  Everything fell together so beautifully, and without much work….seems to me the meaning of “my yoke is easy and my burden is light”.  So God was moving in our hearts today as well as the ones receiving the food. (not that HE is not always moving, but that we were very aware of it)

My toughest lesson of the week-my oldest daughter.  Some back ground for those who do not understand… her father died when I was 6 months pregnant with her.  And the short story is–she has become my “Isaac”.  She and I have been through so many things together, and she has truly been my sunshine in some of the darkest places of my life.  God was to be my sunshine in those dark places.  HE has taught and showed me much through the years, and constantly telling me to lay my Isaac down, and give her to HIM.  My mind wants to be obedient, and my heart picks her back up.  We have been through cervical cancer together, pleading for God to spare her, and HE did.  For sometime I have believed that God and I have come past this issue, which really is idolatry.  But as she plans her wedding, feelings of wanting to hold her just a little longer have been overwhelming.  My memories of her and I seem to flood me.  So this week, in my early hours with my Father we have been discussing just what is my problem!  I am so happy for her, and I love her hubs-to-be, and she is capable of standing on her own, I taught her the best I know how, and most of all God loves her even more than me, and holds her in HIS palm and orchestrated her days.

This is what it comes down to; I was not trusting God to know what is best for her, and not trusting HIM to take of her, and holding on to her was still part of my worshipping her.  There was still a part of that whole issue that was unresolved, and if you know my Jesus you know, that HE will bring it to the surface and we will look straight at it.  Love HIM, but HE is straight up!  So after much back and forth  between myself and the Lord, HE wins. (LOL you knew that huh?)

*There shall be no other god before me!   *My God is a jealous God!   *HE is capable and willing to keep that which I commit to HIM!   * HE is totally trustworthy!  *  HE has a plan that I don’t see but HE is good!   *The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, Blessed is the name of the Lord!

So once again I have laid my Isaac down, and praying this time my heart will not pick her back up.  Wondering if you have an Isaac?  If your heart has been introduced to the characteristic of God that has said “give that to me”? (all the while loving and compassionate, yet firm)  We are blessed to know this side of God, it is very demonstrative to the love HE has for each one of us.  It is also the way we become softer to HIM and therefore more usable for the task HE has planned for us.  God is good all the time!  I am so blockheaded sometimes, and I am thankful for HIS great patience with me.

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