I was an abused child at a very young age and then again as a teenager. I thank Jesus for delivering me from the spiral that it sent me on, and for helping me to forgive my abusers. HE truly is good, and only HE can take a shattered heart and turn it in to something that is functional, when all it ever knew was dysfunction.
There is a teen girl that rides my bus, and she has a natural beauty that stands out, but she never smiles, I have never heard her voice, and rarely I see her face. She looks at the ground with her head hung, and my heart just wants to rescue her from what ever or who ever is causing her pain. She doesn’t socialize with anyone. She has a brother that is the same way(he rides my bus too, but a different school). They come from a very wealthy neighborhood, and are always dressed well, but their pain screams loudly although silent.
Today I dropped the boy off, and I saw the father in the driveway, I watched a young boy fall apart just seeing him. I prayed “please, help these children”, and “please don’t let me get off this bus and put a whoopin’ on this man” Sometimes it is so hard to be close to pain that I know all too well. But today HE reminded me that HE will deliver them, just like me. HE reminded me of the verses that helped me to stand back up and turn and look HIM in the face. Matthew 18:5,6 “Who ever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me. But if anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a large millstone hung around his neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea.” Adults will pay for what they have done to children(unless they repent). Mathew 19:14 “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.” These verses are my Jesus speaking. How very awesome HE is. I believe with all my heart that the day is not far off when HE will return, and every knee will bow before HIM, even if HE has to break the leg. I want to do it willingly. Tonight I am very content to just sit wrapped up in HIM, and feel HIS safety, and know HIS love and how very much HE cares. I love that HE cares for this family I mentioned. Praying for their safety, and for God to intervene, and show me what I can do to help them. So much sadness in eyes that have never left their home…babies…we are all at God’s mercy, and HE extends it to us daily. How precious is the child in the eyes of God, how it must break HIS heart when they are abused, how longsuffering HE is to not just wipe out this planet in all its corruption.
Father God, My heart is bowed to you, you are in control of everything even though you hand us over to our desires when we are not obedient to you. My plea tonight is for the children who are constantly facing an angry world, unloving parents, and forced to live in prejudices, and rebuke. They are not able to take care of their selves, but you are able to care for them. Please hold them tonight and let them know you are there. I place them back in your hands again, and I thank you that nothing escapes you, and no one will crawl past your judgement seat unseen. Change this mans heart, and show them your Glory! Thank you for being so detailed in our lives, and I love the shades when you drive the bus! 🙂
ponderings of a princess... 