There is something that pulls my heart strings when a little one looks up and lifts their arms and pleads (as only a small child can) “Carry me!” I never have to think twice and it seems automatic to bend down and pick them up. God has been teaching me this last week that I ,too, need HIM to carry me at times, and I need to be that small child reaching to the heavens, and pouring out my heart with no reservation…”Carry me!” This week I have experienced exhaustion at new levels. Somehow pressing on, only in the power of my Jesus. Becoming so aware of each minute at times that HE is carrying me, I am leaning like never before. Sometimes the enemy seems so loud that I just want to scream at him to “shut up!”, but instead just bury myself in my Lord, who carries me.
As a mother, there is nothing on this earth I love more than my children. (Hubs too!), and I have been studying what is it to “become a child, and allow God to be the Father”…I do have to smile tonight at the fact that God always gives me visuals as HE knows I learn best to see it. Whew! This week was so hard, and yet when I look at the way HE always delivers, and rescues me…falling on my knees and laying face down doesn’t seem to be enough. Pouring my life out as an offering seems to be the only alternative.
My new study group is starting soon, and outreach has started and is taking off. God has been incredible to open doors, and work in hearts…and let me watch and be part of it. God is good! All the time!! Lately when I start my bus route in the morning, the sun is just coming up, and absolutely the most precious time with HIM before my first stop. Today I just layed it all down and said “you are going to have to drive, or take me home”..He did not take me home, but I wish you could see HIM drive that big bus!!! I wish you could see HIM love those small children. I have the happiest bus of elementary kids, and no one gets it! 😉 I have six problem children on my High school, and middle school runs, but my elementary…absolute sweeties!
Father, thank you for always being there and being everywhere, and revealing yourself to me. Thank you for giving me such a good teacher in your word even though I have never met her personally. How I cherish the things you have taught to me, and the understanding you give! I will never get over how you left a perfect place and kingship to confine yourself in a human body,die and be resurrected – just so I could be with you forever. I never want to get over it. I have heard so much about getting caught up in the emotions of it all…but I do get emotional over you…You made me like this, and all to your glory. Thank you for being my hiding place..and giving me little glimmers of your Glory (you know I can only stand small doses). Thank you for Your mercy that I need to be new everyday, You are my portion…
I love Jesus so much! I am not ashamed, and HE is everything to me. How I praise HIM for getting me through this week.. 😉 and only 5 more to go! I know He is capable, and all is to teach me something, and to bring me closer to HIM. I do pray to know HIM more and love HIM more…HE does answer that prayer!
BTW-my daughter is recovering from her surgery, and it has been a blessed time to be with her, and take care of her. She is 22 and had become my baby girl again…my lil princess angel baby…God does give second chances…
ponderings of a princess... 
Princess,
Isn’t it awesome how He carries us! When we don’t even realize it and when we do! He is such a Prince Charming and I am so in love with Him.
Thanks for your posts. I was getting worried about you, but assumed that life was tossing a lot at you and you were busy. I just wish I could watch you minister to those precious little ones on your bus. How you must please our Lord each day as you interact with these kids!!
I hope you have a great weekend! Get some rest!! Love ya,
Leah
http://www.thepoint-leah.blogspot.com
Hi Darla,
I’ve been looking for you all week and here you are!
Good to hear from you. Our God has the most wonderful arms doesn’t He? So glad He has been carrying you through. Hmmm, 6 older kids on the bus who are problems for you. Well, I will just be praying over the next 5 weeks that He shines His love through you and meets the needs in their lives that are causing them to be a problem. Those may be the very 6 His heart is after Big-Time, and look who is driving the bus!! Have a wonderful and restful weekend, knowing our Father has it all worked out ahead of time. I pray for your daily strength and peace to come from Him and for Joy to be there for you each day.
Love, Laurie in California
Someone asked me once why I lift my hands in Worship. I looked at them for awhile and at first I didn’t have an answer, I just couldn’t explain it really. After several awkward seconds i said this…When I am this close to God, when it’s just Him and me, I get to a place where I am thoroughly jaw dropped in His presence. I have nothing to offer, no words to describe my gratitude and I realize more than ever how desperately I need Him for everything. So like a child who cannot speak but knows she wants to communicate something to us – they will walk up, without words, stand in front of you and lift up their hands. “pick me up” is what they’re saying…I just need you. So pick me up Lord, “carry me”, here I am!
Oh I love this post! I will be praying for those precious middle and high school students. (elem. too!) I’ll pray that God will protect you each day and that His presence will be very evident on that bus!
Glad to hear that your daughter is healing and that you have been given this chance to love on her before she leaves the nest!!! What a blessing. I’m sure after foot surgery she’s wanted someone to carry her!!!
Love you and thank God for you!
steph.
Oh, I LOVE that picture–“Carry me, Daddy!”
It is so great to hear from you! I love the picture too “Carry me daddy!”
Blessings,
Ang
darla,
I FEEL it when I read your blog…it’s so full of passion and faith and conviction..keep going to that cross girl, HE is always in the mood to carry us! I love the image of the child…you have put something in my mind for the week..thank you so much for the words that are food for the soul!!
and you are soo right, we work to make our earthly homes a sanctuary of peace, imagine the HOME the Father is preparing for us in eternity…it blows me away!!
Watch that sun rise tomorrow from the bus window and KNOW that you are carried…
peace,
and KNOW that those 6 are being prayed for too…
you inspire!
lori
what a sweet post. i like how you show your tender heart through this blog.
thank you for visiting mine and taking the time to listen to my music – your words really really blessed me today.
🙂
mandy
I love that I’ll always be God’s child – thanks for reminding me of what a gift that is!
Hi Darla,
It’s just me again. I am praying for you to have a wonderful and light-hearted week as you so deserve it. And start watching the “Special Six” extra close in the coming weeks. I am really praying they “feel the love” of the Lord coming through you. I am also asking the Lord to give you extra blessings this week as your heart is so open and sweet for Him. I can so relate with reaching arms to Him, I just need to remember to do it more often before I hit the ground! You are teaching me this and so much more by your openness and honesty here. You challenge me to reach higher!
Love, Laurie in Ca.
PS. Still praying for our sweet Nichole and thinking of her daily.
Sweet sweet sista, missing you !!!!! I love to lift my hands in total surrender to the Lord. I am pretty uninhibited when I worship,,,just ask Tam 😉 But besides the surrender and the feeling of just wanting my Abba Papa to hold me, I know one of these days He’ll snatch me right out of here……love you so much…can’t wait to meet you one day. I’m praying for you and your family…..what a wonderful time to look forward to in Heaven…u bless me! Loves!